Kcbell92

What do you mean by that?

I’ve been taking a break and mainly separating myself from the Mets, as well as focusing on the importance I need from them to have motivation to want to work and do fun things. im accepting that the janitor and high school kid have no truth to what they said, it’s all talk. They wanted attention and if they live their life and motivation based off the teams performance, most others don’t and therefore they have a very sad life, and i don’t have to fall into that mindset I will still have motivation to want to work and do fun things regardless

I decided tonight after another loss, to just stop. Completely cut off information and updates on them. I am not handling it well and it won’t get better. It’s either I stop or I suffer and die young

As for hobbies, I’m trying to think into good shows and videos

So there is no truth to what he said then ?

Well if you read what is setting me off now, it’s what I bottled up then. The kid from school and the janitor, did u read what they both said

I’m still able to work I just feel lost

I'm sorry but how the mets perform has nothing to do with you and your life what so ever NOTHING. I am struggling to understand why you think the performance of a team you support has anything to do with you and your life in all honesty. Again the janitor always said that him and his kids are successful bc they were motivated by the Yankees and he told me to never forget that and always live in it

I’m afraid to tell my drs about This, I don’t want to be put away

I just don’t know if the janitor was correct. I guess your saying it was all talk and no truth to make him look better

Help me I am an absolute wreck

I can’t sleep, I’m crying

I want to get better @snowbear I just don’t have much else to look forward to

When the Yankees won, do you think the janitor and his kids decided to make more of their lives bc of that? Or was he just talking to make himself look better

Well they said they have motivation to want to work and do fun things in life as Yankee fans bc Yankees motivate them, and I’ll never have that motivation bc I’m a Mets fan.

Well I think the reason I get like this was someone from high school and an old janitor from my school 15 years ago, used to say how im worthless and my dads worthless bc we are Mets fans, and we won’t be motivated to be anything in life bc we’re Mets fans and they have motivation and their families are successful bc the Yankees motivate them. And I will never understand that and my dad only had me to add misery on To his life misery needs company and I’ll be worthless

I’m crying myslef to sleep every night. Hopefully soon I choke on mt tears and die

When Mets lose, I lose all motivation to want to work and do fun things in life When Mets win, i have motivation to want to work Ana do fun things in life.

I have nothing to live for, only seeing the mets in the playoffs

Well guess what? They lost again today. 8 of 9. I haven’t eaten in 2 days. I want to die

Bc of this When Mets lose, I lose all motivation to want to work and do fun things in life When Mets win, i have motivation to want to work Ana do fun things in life.

I hope I die

Nobody understands. Mets are losing again 3-1 and every game is less chance of making the playoffs. I get Caught up often in, that there’s nothing else to look forward to and live for, if the Mets don’t make the playoffs Basically that the only thing to look forward to. Is the Mets making the playoffs

Well they deserve it bc they lost 7 in a row, they deserve to be blamed for my mental stress yes. I reached out to my CBT dr today about it, bc I had a fight with someone outside my house today bc of it

I won’t make it much longer in life bc of the Mets