Kcbell92

I have a dry throat and I feel sick

I may stop taking the abilify. My anxiety when I can’t remember everything is so bad that I feel like throwing up

I’m on abilify and now luvox to. Just starting luvox

Yes I realize a lot of this is just my own mind tricking me to focus on everything or else it makes me think I cannot enjoy my life but it is impossible to remember everything. It’s easier to remember the gist of something and to just accept you can only remember so much and over time forget it anyway. I was prescribed a new medication for this, luvox. do you think it’ll help.

I know I’ve previously discussed issues I’m having not remembering everything or feeling I can’t remember everything and that I can’t enjoy my life bc of it. I just started luvox which should help with the compulsions as I currently take abilify for anxiety. I’m trying to take notes on previous posts about accepting I can’t remember everything in every way ifs impossible and don’t led ocd control Me, I also have aspergers

My car is a 2004 Toyota rav 4, it has 160,000 miles left. But I’ve been ruminating and heavily fixating that before I can build up enough money, that it’ll be destroyed and I can’t at least get a newer one. Cars fine as of now and seems to be fine for a while. I just need a way to get past this

I’m aware of the unimportant and unrealistic often ways that ruminating puts on you, but how does everyone who handles it, distract there mind? I am at times having difficulty finding things to distract my mind

I did realize that it’s up to me like the previous person posted about just not letting ocd take control and have a big punch, because that’s all how I perceive it and i began challenging myself to just watch stuff and accept not trying to remember everything from it and that it doesn’t change my experience watching it

I’m desperate to know if you think medication will help my heavy compulsions on trying to remember everything or feeling I cant enjoy my life. And if medication would help things like my worries that my eyesight is worsening and that I can see my nose on my right eye eyesight and therefore I can’t enjoy myself because of that too

Does anyone know if medication would help with my mindset on this? @snowbear @Caramoole

I’m trying hard, saw my CBT dr and I’m working hard on techniques as well as challenging myself to understand that it’s ok to not remember everything of something I watched. Or was apart of, and just stepping away from the thoughts or the ability to look back at it and taking what I experienced from it in the moment and runniny with that

I have aspergers and ocd, aspergers since 10 and ocd since 23 and I’m 31 now. Does that make a difference. This issue with needing to remember everything in every way only started 2 months ago, after the trauma I previously explained

So your saying if I let the desire of needing to remember every detail of a sports game go, and use ERP to let time pass and not focus on remembering every detail in order to Enjoy it, that it’ll pass within possibly minutes when I get used to it

How long does it normally take to begin to feel that I can accept doing something, and not remembering every detail or even most details up front and living in the moment? If you can give an estimate on your history and knowledge with CBT and medication for me. This only really started I’ll say like 2 months ago

I just really hope as @deValentin said that this anxiety and aggressive feeling from this issue I’m having not remembering everything in every way or else I am not improving in life and not enjoying my life will pass by if I just channel my mind and my life from it, and just ease out of it over time

People told me to again just live in the moment, enjoy having the game on and watching the games and seeing the moments as they unfold. I’m trying to accept myself remembering at least a few of the big moments in the game and maybe nothing more but even that being fun enough to take from it and easily just watching the game for what it is

I think a lot of it has to do with a traumatic past, from 2017-2021. Between my mothers mental downfall and death bc she had bipolar and was triggered by her sisters selling the house we lived in and not giving her anything. Then people around me telling me they’ll spend time with me then avoiding me and then someone using me for $40k, and running away, as well as overcoming a gambling addiction and learning how to budget my money. I did hear that truama threapy may be good for me bc I also have aspergers (a major role in my detailing of my life and wanting to remember everything) is response prevention similar to CBT? Bc I do CBT currently.

If you checked my other posts you’ll see if I have been having a terrible time handling myself when I go somewhere or watch something I’m into like sports. I need serious advice trying to figure out how to enjoy myself if I don’t remember when I go places like every place I go and every thing I experience there in every way and same for like watching sports like American football, if I don’t remember every touchdown and interception and field goal and big play, I feel like I’m not enjoying anything I’m doing because I can’t remember everything of every aspect in every way

It either seems to be watery and uncomfortable or hair in the way and uncomfortable

Another issue I struggle with, is how my eyesight seems a little worse and maybe bc I’m getting older but even more then that, like a day like today, I’m forever feeling like my eye is either wet inside and affecting my eyesight, or often when I look up: I feel like there’s hair in the eye as I try to look up and it’s irritating me a lot

Yes I did realize that if I don’t remember every moment of like a hockey game, that I didn’t enjoy it and didn’t enjoy my life again. But nobody is going to remember when they first saw it the exact detail of every goal the way it happened and started. And nobody is going to remember the big moments in detail like goals especially days and weeks later and nor is it important to enjoy your time watching it live or on tv In remembering each detail of every big moment

I realized I tend to get angry and feel I can’t enjoy myself and the small things in life and that I’m not improving if I don’t remember every single detail when I’m at a sports event or a event in general and I get angry if I forget something when I’m there and it triggers my mindset and mentality and it’s very annoying. I think meds helps with my anxiety and feelings on it and so does CBT but even just having those feelings, how do I get rid of it

I do that a lot with not only the couch but especially with me trying to upping my credit and then trying to consider a newer car in 4-5 years time. And thinking what should I pay off debt wise and where else can I save a few dollars a day in a very tough economic time. I had years back fell for someone’s scam and given $45,000.00 and never got a dollar back. I obviously have come along way from that. I had a gambling issue prior to that as well. Which I stopped around the time I gave away the money. However, as far as I’ve come and as much that I’ve learned from CBT, I have no reason to live in my past and focus that because of those mistakes I can never recover enough money in enough time to up my credit and save and be able to get to work without a car bc I can’t afford a new one before my old one breaks down before 4 years

Yes I realized that getting up and moving around is beneficial to mental health, as well as physical. And I noticed that alot of my anxiety and reactions off my compulsions come from the same concept you just mentioned, like when I’m triggered from my worries of my couch wearing down and thinking it’s gonna be flat to the ground or literally breaking apart at all seams within another year or two bc I use it daily to lay on. I get that anxiety that I can’t afford a new couch right now or that it’ll break before I can finally get a new one and then think into my past and mistakes with money

Though I do notice when I do wind up going places or gearing up for a event out or something fun to watch and focus on, I tend to sway away from the thoughts and anxiety previously mentioned based off what I’m having issues with right now. So I guess it’s in my head and when I’m bored? Maybe worst case thinking?