Kcbell92

I do that a lot with not only the couch but especially with me trying to upping my credit and then trying to consider a newer car in 4-5 years time. And thinking what should I pay off debt wise and where else can I save a few dollars a day in a very tough economic time. I had years back fell for someone’s scam and given $45,000.00 and never got a dollar back. I obviously have come along way from that. I had a gambling issue prior to that as well. Which I stopped around the time I gave away the money. However, as far as I’ve come and as much that I’ve learned from CBT, I have no reason to live in my past and focus that because of those mistakes I can never recover enough money in enough time to up my credit and save and be able to get to work without a car bc I can’t afford a new one before my old one breaks down before 4 years

Yes I realized that getting up and moving around is beneficial to mental health, as well as physical. And I noticed that alot of my anxiety and reactions off my compulsions come from the same concept you just mentioned, like when I’m triggered from my worries of my couch wearing down and thinking it’s gonna be flat to the ground or literally breaking apart at all seams within another year or two bc I use it daily to lay on. I get that anxiety that I can’t afford a new couch right now or that it’ll break before I can finally get a new one and then think into my past and mistakes with money

Though I do notice when I do wind up going places or gearing up for a event out or something fun to watch and focus on, I tend to sway away from the thoughts and anxiety previously mentioned based off what I’m having issues with right now. So I guess it’s in my head and when I’m bored? Maybe worst case thinking?

I feel like my eyesight is worsening and more blurry and especially when I’m at work at the desk or staring at daylight or passed daylight, or going from light to dark quickly. Or vice versa, And that at work and anywhere else I go, I won’t be able to enjoy myself or my life bc of the blurry feeling in my eyes and only seeing what’s around me

But since my eyesight seems to have worsened since I turned 31 recently. I feel I can’t enjoy what I have that’s fun or can’t enjoy that much bc I won’t be able to see it clearly or that I can only see what’s around me and it’s not enough to enjoy my life or even the fun things I do and it’s creating extreme anxiety for me

This really affects me and I just need someone that can understand this to talk to me. Daily I feel this crazy anxiety and especially when I don’t remember everything I watch and do and like every detail in every way when it happens and especially after like I didn’t enjoy it and I can’t enjoy my life and I’m not improving myself. I do have aspergers too

Hey @taurean I take cbd gummies to help with anxiety and my aspergers and ocd with the thoughts and obsessions and overwhelming feelings from them, it helps me greatly. Steadies my mind when I have anxiety spikes or attacks, and makes me go away from the thoughts and compulsions. It’s best at night too when you try to sleep. I like the 25 Mg ones, it’s 25 Mg per 750 worth in the container. I also occasionally like half of a delta 8

I noticed when my anxiety spikes, or I’m just sitting at my desk job staring at the walls or my phone. I tend to often get these feelings where I feel like I’m staring at the same space and stuck in where I am and I can’t enjoy my own life and myself as who I am bc I feel trapped by my eyes being in the same position and locations and if I can enjoy myself knowing I’m just aware of what’s around me and can just see the same around me. Idk if that’s just my mind running with thoughts and/or my anxiety and compulsions too, or me working way to much

Like for instance off my meds I used to focus and obsessing over the couch and the worries of it lowering and Being more Damaged and needing a new one, but I learned to accept my worries of that as minor and very easy to get around.. it’ll last another 2 years I’m sure. I can still use it here and there for myself as I live alone . Same with my weight, don’t act in compulsions with having to push myself to excerciss more and Just limiting meals to keep off weight and so on. The meds mixed with the CBT helps a lot

It is extremely hard to understand because as stated above you each person in different but off my meds I feel a lot more stress and sensitivity and aggression in my own mind. My focusing and obsessing and analyzing and detailing is overbearing and very very negative minded. I’m on my meds and suddenly like I said things are clearer. We do laugh at our compulsions and actions from it and how ridiculous they are. Overcoming your mental burdens I realized needs Medication as well as CBT. I would carry on at my desk job and very detailed and impatient and nervous and acting on nonstop compulsions when bored. Now those same thoughts and issues are mainly regulated and leveled and simple and very easy to overcome or look past as you said yourself. It’s probably the SSRI fixing the chemicals in your Brain too

Since re starting my medication 6 months ago, I have found myself feeling mentally better in the sense of my lightheaded feeling in my brain gone, I seem to just see things clearer and more focused and structured and productive. I am less on edge with my issues and my ruminating and remember I have aspergers too. So a lot of my aggression is sometimes worse then even just someone who suffers from ocd directly. But what exactly does medication do? and how does it help someone like me in mental and even physical ways I cannot explain?

It’s not going to end until you stop acting on your compulsions, something I suffer from too. Do you do CBT? Maybe it’s best you seek help from the crisis team to see about threapy and medication

I just got really nervous bc long story short my mechanic is going to fix my headlight for free but he told my aunt bc she uses him Too and she told me that he said my car is wearing due to age and milage and she Thinks I gotta get a new car next year and I’m probably gonna have to wait 2 years for the financial security and My credit increasing. My CBT Dr told me live in the here and now. But the issue I’m having is controlling my mind to not focus on driving and feeling it’ll break down before late 2025 when I’m in much better conditions and also feeling I can pay off things and still have money for a new car payment. And it’s something I haven’t felt in a long while and it’s mentally affecting me a lot

I also have aspergers, maybe something to note here. But like today I haven’t heard from him after speaking Friday and Saturday but maybe again he just wants another break and is resting and keeping to himself

He just got back to me today and explained what honestly had happened, he had a major aneixty attack at work and went into the hospital after passing out at work. Now I feel like a real moron

He posted a short video online of gaming when he didn’t answer me but that was about it. All three of these people including the one now is all in person connections

I never said anything about online gaming, these are all people I knew in real life

I just told myself, don’t reach out anymore. When he’s ready if he cares enough to reach back out and put behind whatever issues he had, and not talking to me for a few days. Then let him reach out. Let him regather himself and talk to me again

He’s never really done anything like the others and now it’s been 5 days. But a break may be beneficial when we talk that much end alot of my other close friends said there certain he’ll respond eventually and if he doesn’t again then carry on with my life as I did before anyway but otherwise just give him space of his depression is an issue but don’t totally separate. He should say more but some people hold things in

I do feel like I need his responses no less then Every 2 days later which he usually responds with the nearly 3 years we’ve been friends and he may be dealing with his own issues and doesn’t want to bother me or anything explain more tor bc he recently told me he had depression issues but I can’t take it on myself to immediately blame myself and feel he’ll blame me mainly bc of people in my past telling me I caused there issues in life and couldn’t better myself with them and that it’ll make everyone else turn against me if they get like that and I can’t better myself but again like you did say and I’ll admit it’s very low self esteem

I am hysterically crying in the back room at work. No purpose and no control. I deserve this misery

I can’t keep friends respects and I cant earn and keep it either. I am such a waste

I’m such a worthless human being. I’ve been told many times by a few different people I’m a lifelong failure, therefore I am. Nothing more then a terrible misunderstood, uncoordinated, disrespectful, un loyal person

And again just bc when the other two would get angry at me and blame me for there issues in life bc of how I am and how I get and that I don't improve myself and even tho I tried hard and they said I don't understand others issues and I don't comprehend the problems I caused them and don't try to rectify it, when other people get upset at me for there issues like my friend now has over reacted to me and blamed me for his depression Once before, but apologized the next day that once it happens and people start to catch on to my lack of care and lack of improvements, they'll decide to do to me exactly what the other two did (lessening conversations, not answering as much, not wanting to comitt to me) and for the exact same reasons (my lack of understanding and willingness to do what's right and lack of interest to make up for my previous mistakes)

I have nothing else to engage myself in because I don’t deserve new friends obviously like the two before this one and now this one not getting back to me. I failed, like I always do. People lose interest in being around me bc I can’t live up to there expectations as a friend. I have no values to me