Charlie ocd

like each sentence she said peadophile its like she just kept on saying it over the top thats how i felt it was.It was only the worker saying that word she wasnt asking me to say it but waiting for me to say it but i just said the p word.This was all done over the phone because she has to work at home at the moment. cheers

Yes i have Angst they called it the treatment team she was a social worker she was not a psychologist i did also say to her a few times shes not properly trained in cbt.They had a psychologist in there team i originally thought i would be seeing them too but never did.She was trying me with cbt but taking instructions from there psychologist thats my guess anyway as she was a social worker. cheers

Saying the word over and over again I cant beleave this is what i need to do but i guess you would know i just thought it was wrong for her to be doing that the way she was.Its just all getting worse for me this ocd and the way you treat it.I discharged really because i needed a break i was with my usual care cordinator for a long time then i got refered to a diferent team and thats gone on for a real long time.Then she says im changing to a new care cordinator that was enough for me to want to discharge.

HI yes i know but it was too much to handle i told her this a few times i mean once a week hearing that why should i have to put up with it.It made me feel horrible it made me feel bad i couldnt stand it.I get what your saying but it was just over the top when she decided to start saying the word over and over again. cheers

Hi Yes i get what you mean i wouldnt mind that but its over the top when she does it over and over again in one conversation.I couldnt handle it it upsets me so i had to discharge its not only happened once.I made a complaint to the manager the manager said she will see me with the care coordinator but that didnt happen.The care coordinator said she will pass saying that word onto the next care coordinator i get so if i get refered back to them it will just be happening again. Cheers

Hi My care cordinator was asking me to do things that are supposed to happen during cbt.Thing is it came to the point she started saying peadophile in conversations too much.Is this what happens during cbt i didnt like the word repeated over and over again i didnt think i should be putting up with that.So i discharged myself. This is the only time the mental health have done this to me

Deep breath in like your going up a mountain then hold your breath for a while at the top then let it out like your coming down the mountine.That calms me down when i feel anxiety hitting me.

Hi Angst I had a feeling you would say something yes on day 7 the 100mg did something i felt it and i liked it.So carried on up to 150mg ive felt more of that feeling being happy again and more calming thats what clomipremen is supposed to do.I read a lot of reviews about it so decided to try it again instead of what the new psychiatrist recommended. Yes on the phone and face to face is very difficult ive written down stuff for the psychiatrist before i see her because its hard getting what i need if i was talking.Yes you did tell me your memory was very bad at one stage i will try more reading its just i have the headphones on all the time but i can use earplugs and read.I will get to do cbt eventualy i just want it done properly ive been afected by this ocd for 17 years god thats a long time when i think about it. Thanks

Hi again gemma7 The clomipremen started working at day 7 of 100mg im now up at 150mg once a day with 150mg pregabalin and busipron 5mg 3 times a day.I feel better but im shaky at times but now im not in the bed all day with the curtains closed.I actually stay out of my bedroom as much as possible now and i look forward to the day and daylight in my living room.My headphones are on all day its either my dab radio or the tv to block out what im hearing from outside the building. I have a few options for cbt i have this website that can find me a good therapist,pickup at the maudsley or a place not far from me near guys hospital.I was struggling to read sentences but there were times i could read without that problem and it wasnt because i thought something bad might happen.Yes thats what i did read what i could at the time then go back and read the rest i needed to feel calm. I emailed the care coordinator saying i want a good therapist not a trainee and that if its not done properly it could make my ocd worse.I read that somewhere on this website once im also finding talking on the phone very difficult. cheers

I think thats what they are trying to do with me cbt but its the care cordinator doing it i wrote just a couple of thoughts down a while ago but cant get myself to do it now.They did start me on clomipremen before but i came off it myself because i was sweating a lot but ive seen a lot of good reviews about it so chose to try it again.Yeah she comes to see me for an hour and ive forgotton what she talked about and shes given me things to read about anxiety and ocd but i can rarely read them because i struggle so much to read sentences. I havent been able to leave my flat for a long time the ocd is bad i find it so dificult just to bring my rubbish down 7 floors i do it when theres nobody about hoping i dont bump into anyone.I have never done cbt because i felt i couldnt others on here have told me to do it loads of times too.You have to do homework with cbt i cant even write down my thoughts im hoping the medication will help me. ok i didnt know ocd can afect memory my concentration is very bad im hoping it gets better. Thanks Gemma7

Im seeing a care cordinator she came with one of there doctors yesterday it really didnt go well they were both at me starring at me.There telling me to write the thoughts down but i just cant do it and theres too many things to answer my concentration is just too bad i struggle to read sentences i have to keep re reading a sentence about 2-3 times.My memory is bad too when the care cordinator visits me and talks to me i cant remember what she said when she left. They have started me back on clomipremen im at 100mg and going up to 150mg in two weeks time i asked the doctor what if the antidepressant needs to be increased.She answered it wont be increased it stays at 150 is this correct maybe it might need to be increased. Ive been struggling for a very long time now its my concentration thats very bad been like this for a very long time and my memory.Im worried i have brain damage.

Are you still there phill it was really bad this morning.

Hi phill I woke up feeling like something bad was going to happen it felt really bad then I was thinking I'll end up in prison again.I got something else worrying me besides ocd so it could be adding to it.ill PM you I did go out on my bike just to the nearest cashpoint today and back and felt I was under surveillance again.I was on the main road I noticed kids to the left of me I didn't feel good I couldn't look at them.

ok phill when it started happening for me i didnt know it was ocd and i didnt have the internet back then.Soon as i found out it was ocd i joined this forum and i could relate to others on here.I get very lonely and yeah i feel messed up in the head like twisted ive had no friends for a very long time now.Im going back on clomipremen hopefully that will help with the thoughts too.Thanks for your advice.

I've had this ocd 17 years and never acted on a thought.I haven't bumped into children for a long time.even all the school holidays and I'm on the 7th floor.it scares the life out of me when I need to bring the rubbish down in the lift.