Im not entirely sure why it’s such a disaster. I definitely have thoughts that I should be able to prevent it (this emerges from a miscarriage I had) and also an inflated sense of responsibility. I think the uncertainties of it as well, the eggs are microscopic, how could you know you cleaned them all. And a sense of anxiety about anxiety such as “this is how bad I feel about it when we don’t have it, if we did have it the anxiety would be unbearable, I’d never be able to cope, we’d never get rid of it and I’ll end up having a breakdown”.
Only had two Skype sessions but so far so good. On day 2 of sertraline and the side effects are a bit unpleasant.