Hopingtorecover

I am spectacularly failing. I’m giving in to any compulsion, I’m absolutely exhausted. Started sertraline 11 days ago and not sure it’s making any difference. I feel so low and fed up. I just feel like I’ve got no resolve to resist compulsions and just sit with anxiety. not really sure why I’m posting, just needed to share with people who understand and have been where I am right now

Thanks @dimmerswitch

How long did it take til it made a difference? What difference do you feel it makes for ocd?

Which SSRI do you take @PolarBear? I’ve just started on 50mg of sertraline

Thanks that’s helpful. I definitely get tied up in knots when I try and get rid of the thoughts. I’m also best when I can shrug it off. I’m in 50mg of sertraline. It’s a tricky week with a few things and it’s definitely making me feel worse at the moment but hopefully it’s short lived.

Thanks. When I read that it sounds so simple (and I guess it would be if it weren’t for the anxiety).

@PolarBear could you please expand on this?

Im not entirely sure why it’s such a disaster. I definitely have thoughts that I should be able to prevent it (this emerges from a miscarriage I had) and also an inflated sense of responsibility. I think the uncertainties of it as well, the eggs are microscopic, how could you know you cleaned them all. And a sense of anxiety about anxiety such as “this is how bad I feel about it when we don’t have it, if we did have it the anxiety would be unbearable, I’d never be able to cope, we’d never get rid of it and I’ll end up having a breakdown”. Only had two Skype sessions but so far so good. On day 2 of sertraline and the side effects are a bit unpleasant.

Thanks

Any tips on how to do this? in the us I think it’s called pinworm

Any tips on how to do this? in the US I think it’s called pinworm

Doing ok thanks. Just trying to self soothe a bit, reminding myself i am Capable and I will cope. Started sertraline today sO hopefully that will start to help in a week or so.

Maybe if they got it it might help my ocd

I have just received a message from the school to say there is threadworm in one of my kids classes. And PANIC!

Ocd is a bully

Have you looked? What would happen if you didn’t?

So how do you resist?

Of course I have! That’s rumination isn’t it? Google and think and torture yourself. Doesn’t take long until you find a story (probably exaggerated) if someone who struggled to get rid of them and the thousands of successful times people get rid of them are gone from your mind and so the obsessions begin. And every time we respond to the “threat” the brain learns it’s something to respond to and strengthens the obsession etc etc. Undoing months or years of that is hard, especially when stress and sleep deprivation are present.

What?! You mean that’s not normal?! Ha ha. I’ve been back to the gp this morning to go back onto sertraline. Hoping it will give me a lift to help the CBT work. Feels like defeat but hopefully it’s more the beginning of victory

@PolarBear you obviously haven’t spent enough time with me. Ha ha.

Thanks

Ok so tell me how to respond to this: 12 days ago at our toddler group I saw a boy out his hands down his underwear and touch his bottom. I then watched him touch some of the chairs. today I have to go back there with my kids who will sit/climb/touch the chairs then come home and sit on my sofa. I want to get us all changed and wash hands when we come in, before any potential contamination is all over my house. Is this rational to others or is this an non-event my ocd is over reacting to?

Maybe you share what you would have done in my situation and I’d share what I’d do in yours and that’s how we should respond ?

It’s so hard to tell because my danger alert is going off but I think probably ocd. They had all the dirty bedding in a bag with them though and I know they stripped the beds. I’m having a real panic.

I have to contamination ocd around threadworms. Just been at a meeting with my baby where someone had come straight from helping at an overnight homeless shelter. They asked to hold the baby and after a slight hesitation I said yes. I am now freaking out they had worm eggs all over them and the baby is covered. He’s already put his hands in his mouth (after holding this persons hand) so I guess in some ways the horse has bolted so to speak. But my ocd is on hyper alert and wants me to bath the baby and change our clothes when we get in. Does anyone else see this danger or is it ocd?