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HadenoughofOCD

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  1. What a great tip! Thanks! I’ve particularly been looking for advice re stopping compulsions lately so this post was perfectly timed for me
  2. Thanks so much for your kindness emsie, it really is so appreciated ☺️ - and of course for the great advice and PolarBear’s great video! Just what I needed at this moment, so thank you so much!
  3. Thanks for replying Emsie, and for the good advice! Its really interesting (and scary) how now that my most current obsession has waned somewhat, my mind feels vulnerable to all previous triggers. It’s just as you said - like my brain is trying to find one that will stick. So far, I haven’t had any intense anxiety pangs when the intrusive thoughts enter my head, but the the thoughts themselves are flooding my brain right now and I feel like it’s a ticking time bomb before the one that latches hits. Im trying really hard to refocus my attention and remember all the stuff I have learnt, but it’s so hard to stop the ruminating (which is what normally leads me down the path to the sticky obsession). Why can’t this OCD just go away? I hate it.
  4. So my current obsession has faded off recently (as they usually do with effective but unhealthy avoidance compulsions - it’s at the top of my fear heirarchy so not in a position to deal with yet), however I’ve noticed my brain has now started throwing up old obsessions that so far have not fully latched on. I can feel it getting closer to being attached again, so I am trying to remain out of the OCD fire (to quote PolarBear ☺️) and stay rational. Is it normal for your brain to try and do this? To try and bring up old fears?
  5. These ideas are really great! I find it really useful as I don’t think I am in a blind spot with my OCD at the moment, but know that at any point I could switch back to being on the inside of my obsessions without being able to see the bigger picture. Will definitely be employing these tactics!
  6. This is a really great way to explain it Polarbear, thanks! Can you suggest things that sufferers can do to ‘wake up’ so to speak about the cycle they are in so that they can eventually become helpers themselves?
  7. Thanks for replying Ashley I’m just going through the process of looking at all the other areas in my life that may be ocd related or contributing to the behaviour pattern. It’s surprising just how much of my life consists of ocd behaviour patterns and I didn’t even notice! I feel like it’s going to be a long time before I can start working on my most feared obsessions as I have so many other compulsions to address first. And it’s so hard!
  8. Does anybody else have the overwhelming urge/desire to try and erase the things they’ve done in their lives? So I seem to have got myself into this pattern of doing something (say going to college or getting job or something), thinking it was a great idea at the time and then a few months down the line regretting it immensely for no logical reason and wishing I could go back in time and not do it. If the urge is strong enough, I will actually act on it as much as I can and get rid of everything to do with that time so that I can pretend it didn’t happen (after lengthy ruminations about what the potential bad consequences of doing so would be). It’s so strange as it’s not ‘bad’ things I am trying to forget, it’s things that most people would see as really positive achievements. Its like as soon as I have done whatever it might be, when those few months pass, I feel like I have done something terribly wrong and that it’s going to ruin my life - even though I fully wanted to do it at the time. Perhaps this is an obsession? It’s hard to get perspective so would love to get some input! Thanks
  9. Ollie I can really relate to this. I haven’t been able to hold down a job since I left uni because of OCD. It’s so frustrating as I got so excited about making these steps forward and then OCD came along and stole the joy from all of these successes, it sucks. I even started my own business but then the OCD attacked that too so now I am just trying my best to get a grip on it so that I can try to carry on in any way that I can. As the others have said, take care of yourself and be kind to yourself. Illness and all these upheavals will undoubtedly make OCD more of a challenge, but you will get through the other side. Never forget that. Don’t give up. We have a struggle, but we won’t let it beat us!
  10. Wow those are some great steps forward Leif! You should feel really proud of yourself!
  11. Orwell, I am SO glad you responded! It has eaten at me for a number of years and as a result, I have not pursued a career in law as each time I tried, I was overcome with anxiety. I didn’t realise what it was until recently, so it’s a relief to know that it’s not just because I couldn’t cope but now I have to try and deal with it. I think similarly to compliance, when you know all the possible tunnels in the rabbit hole, it gives you analysis paralysis and you can’t make a move for fear of making the wrong choice. I am constantly in my head thinking “if I make choice A, how will that impact situation B? Will situation B be covered if X happens?” And on it goes. This legal thought process applies to literally every aspect of my life and it’s so bad that I am just avoiding everything I possibly can at the moment. Not the best, but only way I can cope until I get a better handle on it.
  12. Thanks Leif, I’ve made some good steps in the last couple of weeks but I am really struggling to get to grips with the response prevention for mental compulsions. When I realise I am doing it, I stop myself, but I am worried about starting a new compulsion by the ways I am stopping myself.
  13. My OCD has attacked an area that I am finding really hard to deal with, as I am legally educated and I’m currently having legal obsessions. I have created a hierarchy for the obsessions and I have been doing exposures but I’m really struggling with response prevention. I feel like because a large proportion of the checking can be done mentally as the knowledge is already in my head, it’s making the mental compulsions really hard to deal with as I end up very deep down the rabbit hole quite fast. Its just making things so much worse as if I was having these types of obsessions but didn’t have any legal knowledge, I would have to do a lot more external checking via google etc. which would arguably be easier to identify and prevent. Has anybody experienced anything similar? If so, how did you tackle it?
  14. A lot of the compulsions I do are mental - Usually revolving around going over past events to reassure myself that I didn’t do the things I am afraid of being accused of and preparing for what I would do if the fear came true and I did have to try and defend the accusations. I’m really new at this but would really like to try and stop these thoughts as they are coming in so that the OCD doesn’t get too latched onto the thought and torment me for days. I kind of know what my compulsions are (going back in time mentally and checking what happened etc), but what’s the next step? Do you distract yourself? Tell yourself “no”?
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