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Sorry if I wasn’t clear. I have stopped doing that but I’m looking for advice on how to deal with the guilt.

I have a crush, been about 4 years now. We used to be friends but now we don’t really keep in touch. I have her added on Snapchat and she has her location enabled on snap map (for anyone who doesn’t know what that is, it is a map on Snapchat which shows where everyone you are friends with are, and when the where last active. It became a habit of checking her account on the map. I don’t know why, I was just interested and kept on checking it. I feel like a creep.

I haven't spoken to him in a month or so, we weren't very close but we knew each other since childhood. I just don't know if what I've done is bad or not.

he's intrersted in her and I knew when I flirted w

I've recently started Collage however I didn't have many friends at the start and I was very lonely. I began to talk to my freind's crush (My freind didn't go to that collage, he's went to join the military) and me and her began to speak a lot. Me and my freinds crush talk to each other basically every day but the problem is this, the way I speak to people I want to get to know is by joking and laughing, which I also do when I flirt. But there is a big difference, and I did flirt with his crush. I don't know if I'm in the wrong, he had found her attractive for years but never really acted on it and persued other people as well. I have no idea. P.S. I appritiate all of the advice I've been getting! It's been very helpful!

I still done it though, I still done them things and I definitely did find her attractive. I could have been a big carried away with myself but I don’t think that’s much of a excuse.

It wasn't, I was laughing with them and didn't have a care in the world. OCD wasn't on my mind.

I was on a discord call with my friends and we where playing minecraft. There is a girl we play with who I like. Someone started to play a erectile disfunction advert as a joke, and when the advert mentioned something about the size of the penis (or something like that) I remember making a noise or comment about it in order to impress the girl. Later on someone asked me if I can have sex (I have a disorder which many people thinks limits my sexual ability) and I said yes, but I feel like I only answered because I again wanted to ‘impress’ the girl. They are other things as well like I would follow her around a lot in the game, not sticking to her but I was around her. I feel sick. I hate it, I feel like I’m a evil person.

I can see how that is true, I think it just dosen't sit right with me that I did that.

sorry, I didn't know what else to title it. I didn't mean to be offensive or insensitive. I know I probarly won't find a answer but I can't just accept the fact that I may have (at the least) sexually harrased someone.

Basically when I was 13-14 I had this freind. We where very close and we both had a dark/sexual sense of humour. One day I was on a video call with her. I said that I had to go (or something like that) and switched off my webcam. I then made a masturbation noise with my hands, for a minute or two. I heard her laughing and calling my name. I then switched back on the webcam and I think that I pretended like I didn't know that she had heard me supposedly masturbating. I have no idea why I did this, I went through phases of thinking I was attracted to her but right now I am not in the slightest. We did have a sexual sense of humor and maybe this war just me being a stupid teenager but what if it wasn't? What if I did it to show her that I am sexually domonant or whatever ****** reason thing people do that sort of thing for. I honestly don't know, sorry if this seemed like I was rambling.

I’ve never really been able to hide something that I’ve done without telling my parents, I’ve always just felt too guilty. But last night I did something I regret, I’m into politics and I joined a call with three other guys (In their 20s probably) and talked about politics with them while one of them streamed it on twitch. I feel bad about this for two reasons, one is that I did this till 1 am and the second is that I’m 16 and they’re a lot older then me (and my parents will think I but myself at risk of being abused or something). I love them and I want to tell them but I don’t know if keeping it a secret would be the best thing. I’m sorry if it seems like I’m rambling.

Thanks! That puts a lot in perspective! I still think it’s a bit weird though, for example about 4 hours ago I was watching a movie about arcade games in the car then when I arrived at my hotel someone was playing the Pac-Man sound. But your comment has been helpful so thank you.

Thanks! I saw a theripist for 9 sessions, they ended about 2 months ago as they are limited to 9. They are going to check back in about 3 months or so.

I know it sounds ridiculous and it probably is. It’s just that random events keep happening that seem linked. For example I had been thinking about something for a few weeks but yesterday I watched two movies which had scenes in that where about what I was thinking. Afterwards I read an article and there was mention of Parkinson’s disease, which a actor in one of the movies later had. Then in another article it mentioned pirates, and I had watched a pirate movie the night before. It just all seems strange.