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Nugget

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  1. It’s been a bit since I’ve posted and I think I really have been getting better however something that still bothers me is that I always without fail get a gronial response to my intrusive thoughts even in situations that have no actual relations to the intrusive thoughts. This in turn brings up thought of how I must’ve broken myself and my body is associating something that I’m not interested in it’s quite worrisome in that regard. 

  2. I’m doing better with my intrusive thoughts I haven’t had a gronial response for weeks now..I guess I’m still obsessed with the topics I’ve been obsessed with the main one being the what if’s over my sexuality, that being said it seems like my ocd is switching to more religious oriented thoughts. They still bother me but as of now I’m trying to make my mind bored of the thoughts.

  3. “Yes I think so, but at the moment it seems your brain is trying to convince you that you must figure out your identity. It would be ok to ponder one’s identity, but it should be more a matter of choice, a voluntary activity. Instead it seems your brain is trying to force you to figure it out. Ask yourself if you could be comfortable contemplating who you are and not having an answer anytime soon. Does that feel comfortable or distressing? If it feels distressing, it is probably more related to your OCD.” I don’t think I can read objectively at the moment what does this mean? Am I genuinely going through and identity crisis?

  4. Even if it is normal at my age, my checking and worrying is not as bad before I got a therapist I was checking almost 7 hours a day sometimes even night  looking through everything related to the obsession. It was extremely debilitating  reason I went to therapy in the first place was that on some level I knew this wasn’t normal behavior. But even though I feel that it isn’t normal wanted thoughts I can’t stop worrying about that “what if”. So when an OCD therapist said that I absolutely freaked out. I’m still on some level deeply worried. I think my next session I will ask him about what he means by that or if he understood what I was asking in my email..

  5. I emailed my therapist they are an OCD therapist btw for context as to if my thoughts of questioning “what if I’m trans gender.” Were legitimate questions of my identity, and he said that exploring identity is strongest at your age I’m 18 and that it’s normal. I think I’m actually done..I don’t want them to be true. I’m in despair right now...

  6. 5 hours ago, Ashley said:

    It's what OCD does I am afraid.

    We actually don't use the HOCD term because it can be unhelpful into thinking it's a different type of OCD or is treated differently.  At the crux of it, the same process is taking place that does with other aspects of OCD.  Because you're placing greater emphasis on these thoughts and perhaps the interpretation of the thought is different because of this, the OCD takes you to a different place and the moment you see or hear or think about the thing you worry about (if you're attracted) the OCD starts the 'what if?' game of repeating questions and ruminations.  This frequently leads to body sensations too as you become aware of the thoughts and anxiety. For you it is groinal, for me with contamination worries, if I saw something resembling dog mess my hand would be pounding with pins and needles (because I worried it was contaminated). 

    So what you're experiencing is to some degree, a typical OCD response/process.  Hopefully this goes someway to explaining why that is happening for you.

    This is why we promote CBT to treat OCD, to help address the thought interpretation in the cognitive part of treatment for example, that will help when you then start to challenge your OCD.  Are you having any kind of help and treatment for the OCD at the moment?

    I had no idea that we don’t use terminology here, as for the pins and needles I can definitely see the correlation between the sensations. I used to have the same fears when I was younger but instead of pins and needles it was more of a shaky throbbing feeling in my hand. Thanks for the reply

  7. This happens whenever I’m meeting with peers with this trigger this mainly applies to my Hocd but whenever I see a female class mate my mind immediately goes to checking if I’m attracted to them almost anticipating someone joining a group chat (Which our college uses) This excitement mimicking feeling is immensely scary this coupled with a gronial response as well..and it happens with my female teachers as well.. could anyone explain this?

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    1 hour ago, Gemma@OCDUK said:

    Hi Nugget,

    Yes thoughts like you describe are what we call intrusive thoughts or obsessions. Obsessions are categorised as recurrent persistent thoughts, urges, images or doubts that are experienced as intrusive and unwanted and cause distress. Trying not to think of something and then it being forced into your mind is also common for everyone, because in order to not think of something, you have to think of the thing you're not thinking about. There's a classic example of trying to not think of a pink elephant, inevitably you end up with an image of a pink elephant in your mind, it's simply how brains work.

    That's why in OCD it's important to try not to push thoughts away intentionally as it only makes them come more.

    Gemma :)

     

    Thank you for the response Gemma! I was unsure as these thoughts aren’t in the usual “What if” question format ( a lot of them are) so to have it up and change on me was worrying..

  9. So I’ve had times where instead of coming in as a “What if question?” My OCD will turn around mimic a statement like me explain I’ll think something “Am I attracted to that dog?” There will be a quick second where I tell myself don’t think of the statement “Oh that dog is hot.” Then that statement will be forced into my head. It’s not natural in the sense that is how I feel but forced. If anyone could explain this phenomenon I’d be very happy. 

  10. 6 hours ago, PolarBear said:

    What is commonly referred to as a groinal response is simply a sensation of some sort 'down there'.

    There really is no physical difference between arousal and that sensation. They are really the same.

    Your sexual organs are perfectly capable of making themselves known at any time. And there doesn't have to be a reason for it. They are parts of your body with muscles and nerve endings. They move. They give off sensations. It's all very normal.

    The problem is association, as in when a sufferer associates that perfectly normal sensation with an intrusive thought. Initially, there is no association but OCD loves to play games and a sufferer's mind can make a connection.

    This immediately puts the sufferer on guard. The sufferer is horrified that the thought caused this sexual feeling. Being on guard, the next time such a thought appears, the sufferer concentrates on his/her nether regions and, presto, a sensation appears. This confirms to the sufferer that there is an association between the thought and sensation. The sufferer completely misses the fact that it was their concentration on the sensation that caused the sensation to appear.

    And thus, in short order, the sufferer has such sensations every time the thoughts appear.

     

    Wow thank you for the detailed response this sensation is/and has been a huge hurdle in my recovery from OCD. So how do we go about breaking the association with it?

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