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One last thing is there any hope i can recover from this and look back on it and laugh at it? I’ve dealt with this 8 years untreated and I have this “hopelessness”feeling if you understand what I mean

Thank you everything that my therapist seems to send me, my mind is like oh god it is real or he’s trying to say it isn’t ocd..it doesn’t seem like I can read objectively at the moment

“Yes I think so, but at the moment it seems your brain is trying to convince you that you must figure out your identity. It would be ok to ponder one’s identity, but it should be more a matter of choice, a voluntary activity. Instead it seems your brain is trying to force you to figure it out. Ask yourself if you could be comfortable contemplating who you are and not having an answer anytime soon. Does that feel comfortable or distressing? If it feels distressing, it is probably more related to your OCD.” I don’t think I can read objectively at the moment what does this mean? Am I genuinely go

But what if my therapist how do I respond to what he said? He said he doesn’t completely understand what I was talking about..maybe it was the way I worded my email?

Is this all real? Am I in some sort of deep denial?

If someone could offer insight into this I would definitely appreciate it. As it is causing me a lot of stress.

I don’t feel like it’s normal for me considering I’ve had no issues with my identity my entire life up until now sexuality or otherwise.

Even if it is normal at my age, my checking and worrying is not as bad before I got a therapist I was checking almost 7 hours a day sometimes even night looking through everything related to the obsession. It was extremely debilitating reason I went to therapy in the first place was that on some level I knew this wasn’t normal behavior. But even though I feel that it isn’t normal wanted thoughts I can’t stop worrying about that “what if”. So when an OCD therapist said that I absolutely freaked out. I’m still on some level deeply worried. I think my next session I will ask him about what he m

It’s a private therapist

This had to be some sort o misunderstanding Hopefully maybe the way I worded stuff in the email? I hope because if it isn’t I don’t think I’ll try for another therapist it’s just not worth being hurt.

This is the first OCD therapist I’ve been too so not really I did try it on my own for a while

I’ve had hocd for 3 years now the trans theme has been about a year.. these thoughts literally go nowhere except to me considering suicide is a way out. I’ve had other forms of OCD as well in the past. I was a big Religious ocd sufferer

Anyone?

I emailed my therapist they are an OCD therapist btw for context as to if my thoughts of questioning “what if I’m trans gender.” Were legitimate questions of my identity, and he said that exploring identity is strongest at your age I’m 18 and that it’s normal. I think I’m actually done..I don’t want them to be true. I’m in despair right now...

Hey so it’s been a while but my Trans ocd has started up again..I keep thinking about how when I was younger I didn’t like my breasts and for so reason my OCD has latched on to that fact.. Does that mean anything?