I completely sympathise and relate to what you are struggling with. I experience the exact same issues when using the toilet and I know how utterly frustrating and time consuming it can be. When wiping I also do this in relation to certain numbers, and what you're saying about the toilet getting blocked also happens to me too! I also bleed VERY heavily during my time of the month, so I completely understand how disgusting and unclean it feels. When it comes to completing tasks that I know will be time consuming and emotionally draining due to my OCD, I simply avoid doing them. So what you're saying about not keeping up with personal hygiene I completely understand!
Unfortunately I do not have any constrictive advice as I have never received professional help for my OCD and have been coping on my own, however I just thought that I would share this with you perhaps to make you feel less alone. Sometimes when I am struggling I just wish that someone would 'get it'. OCD is such a complex disorder, and the feelings and sensations that I get can be impossible to describe, or just down right embarrassing. But it shouldn't be like this! You are not alone in your struggles. Whatever you are feeling right now, so many other people are feeling too. OCD is such a misunderstood disorder and it is so ******* isolating. The things that you're doing/ feeling are not weird! They are symptoms of a disorder and don't define you as a person
