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@snowbear Thank you again for the reply! The hidden meaning after looking into this is that the relationship won't last and that really upsets me. I want this relationship to last but I feel like I'm ruining it by not being myself anymore because of these thoughts.

I am really struggling with ROCD (at least I think it's ROCD I really don't know anymore) my girlfriend said to me last night that she feels I'm happier when I'm around people I work with and there was some truth to that as I don't get the thoughts as bad at work... Now my mind is In over ride! My mind is telling me I'm not happy which does actually make me unhappy and I can't get out of this mind set. Also does anyone else with OCD get scared when introducing there partner to family of friends? I seem to get scared incase they don't like my partner so I usually try and avoid it this upsets me because I want to do things with friends and my gf without worrying what other think. I'm so scared and upset.

Hi snowbear, Thank you for your reply. I try to acknowledge them and refuse the thought but it doesn't always work. I have always listened to my head so it feels so real. I try to listen to my heart but it's difficult. Im new to OCD and I'm struggling. My thought just tell me I don't want to show affection, doesn't really tell me anything will happen apart from you won't enjoy it (which I don't very often anymore because of the thoughts) My only form of relief is reassurance which I know is bad but it's the only time I can feel good

Does anyone elses OCD make make affection really difficult?? I also find it hard to show love! Recently I've been struggling to kiss my girlfriend as soon as I do my mind tells me to stop... It's affecting my relationship with my partner. Could it be related to social anxiety? I've had social anxiety for a while and when I become hyper aware of social anxiety that's when I become bad in social situations and worry what people think of me and it's really upsetting. I really love my partner and I don't know how to get over this. I have ROCD and constantly worry about my relationship and compare it to other relationship. I want the thoughts to stop

Hi Eric, My name is Cameron, I hope you don't mind me sending you a message. I feel that we are both in a similar situation and that we may be able to help eachother. I have read your most recent post, I can relate to pretty much everything your going through. However I don't get groinal responses I just have my mind tell me "he was attractive you wanna be with man" I now look at women who I use to find attractive but they don't seem to interest me any more and my sex drive has gone down alot, as when I have sex with my girlfriend my mind tells me that I want to be doing this with a man. I always seen to find myself in a spiral whenever I see a guy and I assume they are gay my mind tell me to go there. It's horrible. I've tried with a guy and it was pleasure but didn't feel right to me and I don't wanna do it again but it's horrible. If you don't wanna talk I understand, if you do that also okay.

Hi all, This is my first time posting here and I am quite nervous. I have only recently found out through therapy that I suffer from OCD I have probably had many subtypes over time but never released. Getting to the point, I'm 22 male and have this over whelming fear that I could be gay, when I was young around 5 years old my mum and dad split up as my dad realised later on in life that he is gay, he is married to a man now so I'm not homophobic. I have grown up alot of my life without my dad around. I am now in a serious relationship with a girl this is my first serious relationship I have been with her for 5 years now. I now constantly worry that I am gay and I am in denial. I'm not sure if this is OCD or not, I get triggered by seeing gay couples on TV or just seeing some guy that is a decent looking bloke, that when my mind goes to things my dad has told me about how he released he was gay. I do certain compulsions like looking for sexual arousal around men, I also a few years back tried grinder and met up with a few guys to experiment, I should point out that I didn't particularly want to do it but my mind convenienced me it's who I was, I was also sexually assaulted as a child by a guy. it made me feel anxious and horrible. I'm worried I'm going to ruin my relationship because of this, or I'm worried I'm being in denial, I don't get sexually aroused around situations I normally would and that makes me believe the thoughts I get. I'm really struggling.