Fredagain

I just cant stop checking, my memory, everyday im tortured

I'm sick of debating my memory issue it's invalidating...

I think we are getting off topic. Not much help going round these days seemingly

Not perceived... lol

Help..

I don't know how to fix this, as the title says, all these things due to my ocd and nobody seems to understand my memory issue makes my insight so small because I can't remember where I was to counteract the false memory of things.

I literally checking nearly every waking minute on phone Internet etc. Intact I've realised how much I actually check. Wow this is so messed up.

Please can someone recommend a good therapist that Skype?

It's got to a point where I'm trying not to have the intrusive thoughts I work in call center and I'm constantly worried I've typed something very inappropriate, I have to check notes 5 times obviously this is unsustainable and I just wanted some advice I know. Even on my phone I'll get a thought and worry I've typed it somehow I have to fonstantly check my history. I can't keep doing this

Anyone ?

I do ok for a while then I get a spike for instance... I'll think about me doing the action to sort of check what that would feel like and reassure myself sometimes this can be just an automatic rumination that I don't willingly think like as I'm typing now. Then my memory will gap and I'll think what if I typed that becayse i was willingly thinking about it and I'll think that that means now.because I willingly thought about it it's more likely I have and its my fault and then I'll have to retrace then repeatedly check can anyone help.me with how to let thar go I know obviously the only way to do that is to just do that

Any tips to not check regardless of the memory gap and doubting my own identity. Riding the uncertainty is very hard

There's not alot of hope for someone such as me burdened with these TABOO issues and messed up thoughts... Just a joke and I'm tired of not being normal

I don't know how to get back from this, my ideals have been too damaged no one can ever really relate because I can't be honest. I can't believe this I'm sick of feeling like this, nobody will help, nobody really understands I'm only posting this out of despair

While I fully appreciate this, this is hard when it comes to.the possibility of some heinous action how then does one not care about knowing this.