Ideally, my goal would be both. My obsessions revolve around Harm OCD and POCD. I guess my fear is that if I think of these things for too long, I will eventually "snap" and act on them, even though I've suffered from this since I was 13-14 (I'm now 32) and never have nor do I want to. Sometimes my OCD will tell me "yes, you want to act on them" even though I know the real me doesn't want to and the thoughts torment me.
I changed my number for a somewhat-legitimate reason and then again when I stopped talking to a friend of mine, which was probably unnecessary. I then changed it again because someone I was talking to an app was weirding me out. I could have just blocked these people but my thinking was that I had to change my number. Then as I kept doing it, I felt like the number "felt wrong" or was "contaminated" because it had likely been used by someone before, so I ended up researching ways to try and get a "fresh/new/clean" number. Eventually, one day I was updating my number in the system at work and I had a bad thought at the same time, so I thought that my number was "linked" to this thought and the thought wouldn't go away until I changed my number again. Normally, this obsession would go away within a few days or a week at most, but it lingered for months. I eventually caved in and changed it again a little over a week ago as mentioned in my original post. Now, yesterday my brother repeated my number to me and as he did I tried to block out any bad thoughts and ended up having one in return. Now I'm thinking I need to change it again, but I know this will continue until I put my foot down for good. I was doing pretty good up until last night when my brother mentioned my phone number and then the cycle of thoughts was triggered again.