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Thanks, yes it was. I still feel completely embarrassed.

I picked up my purse which was handed in at the depot and my fears of hypomania have subsided a lot.

Thanks I try and do 10,000 every day. I think I probably overdid it today though but I do like walking.

Thanks @northpaul @snowbear. I cannot believe I did something so stupid I did 18000 steps and was really tired. I hadn't wanted to do that many and now wish I hadn't. I'm going to ring the bus company tomorrow to see if it was handed in.

I feel like if I hadn't been so careless it wouldn't have happened in the first place.

So I've been doing pretty well up until today but I just did something really stupid. I left my purse on a bus. I haven't done this for years. I've cancelled all my cards etc but feel completely ridiculous. Earlier today I also forgot about an online class I was supposed to be doing. I have been getting more exercise recently and trying to keep up a fitness regime but I think I overdid it a bit and went and did a lot more today with a friend than I was intending to. It was really hot. Anyway, my ocd is now trying to convince me that I'm getting a mental illness and leaving my purse on a bus is a sign of hypomania as I haven't done it in so long and it was irrational and impulsive. I have cancelled all my cards but just feel so stupid and ridiculous and now my ocd is telling me things are about to get much worse.

@determination987i think being mean to myself always ends up making the ocd worse.

I'm going to one in person and online in Oxford. Not connected with ocd-uk though as far as I know

for some reason that made me laugh. I think that must be me as I have had most of such obsessions.

@worrier I have a premenstrual condition which is accompanied by intense rage at certain times of a month and earlier this year i was absolutely terrified I'd act on my intrusive thoughts as they were occurring when I was extremely angry. However, I did not do so, and am now far more stable on medication that controls the mood swings. If you are legit worried about acting on your thoughts then you should go to a doctor and see if you can get your medication changed or increased, and hopefully that can deal with the anxiety or any other mental processes. However as it is, it seems that you posting on here is a compulsion and I don't really want to end up fuelling it.

Sorry if I was harsh in my replies to you @worrier. I have been there with the hearing voices obsession, I hope you feel better soon.

You're constantly on these forums asking about schizophrenia. It's clear ocd is severely impacting your life. Why would schizophrenia be any worse than the mental disorder you have currently? I'm not trying to be harsh because I have the same worries about mental disorders, but it's worth asking yourself that.

You say you have been on these sites several hours and can't get off them, what is that a sign of? Would having schizophrenia really be 'worse' than having ocd?

What are you googling? Going on Reddit at all makes my OCD hundreds of times worse. You can always find a worst case scenario. I'm glad you are recognising these are compulsions and not anything else.

Yes, when I start to feel better I start worrying that I didn't really have OCD!

Thanks we'll see what happens

She just posted a video saying that worrying about illness wasn't a sign of mental health issues and shouldn't be treated like that. I replied talking about some of my past compulsions regarding illness and contamination and saying that it could be, and gave some examples of how badly my life had been affected by worries about illness. I'm slightly worried that I was too harsh, but I felt like I had to say something.

So what are you going to do about this...,?

OCD can do this. I have the same worry so I empathise, but I don't think any of this is actually helping you...

Try not to touch things hundreds of times as it is a compulsion. Or try and delay it 15 minutes before doing it and then longer and longer. I also get health anxiety and many of my compulsions are around this at the moment. If you are worried about the word you could also describe what it is without mentioning it if actually saying it feels too much at the moment.

Thanks

I have a lot of back pain and shoulder pain from an injury that seems to be flaring up a lot at the moment but I'm scared of bothering the doctor about it because I don't want to be seen as an attention seeker or someone who just wastes their time. I only saw them few weeks ago for OCD related things. Don't give me reassurance I'm just moaning about it on here and not anxious really, would just like some sympathy.

Ok. My friends are in Moscow. I don't know anything about treatment in Chechnya but I strongly agree with @snowbear's advice.

You're in Russia yes? I lived there for a while. You may be able to find someone privately. I can ask a friend of mine who is still there for recommendations if you like? She doesn't have OCD though as far as I know so may not be able to help.

Thanks.