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I am so incredibly sorry for bringing up a 12 year old topic but I had this song downloaded and have listened to it regularly for the past 14 years, and I've managed to accidentally delete it I can see that the page doesn't exist anymore and there is no trace of the mp3 on the OCD-UK Website. I didn't know if anyone still had it available to send? Tagging @Ashley with eager anticipation but I appreciate it if nobody has it anymore, it is an old thread. That song got me through many hard times, it's beautiful.

Hey guys, Having quite a hard time recently... I've been with a girl that I truly love for just over half a year now. I know she loves me, she always tells me how her love will only get stronger. The problem is (and I am entirely sure that it is my OCD) that I doubt our relationship so much. If she doesn't put an x on a text, or reply, if she isn't talking to me for some reason I instantly think she hates me, or she wants to leave me. Usually I can deal with this, I'll tend to leave it a few hours and it dies down more, or I tend to talk to her aobut it. The problem really is that she's just been on a steam rally for 5 days (she is really into steam engines). And she is getting all 'off' with me saying that she doesn't think we would have a life with steam when we are older and stuff. I think that is mainly because of my cleanliness OCD - but I know for sure that wouldn't affect anything. The other problem is that she's been with this guy for the entire 5 days (her best friend). He's told her that he would leave his girlfriend in a second if she wanted him and my problem is that he is really active in the steam world. I genuinely cannot think straight. My OCD hasn't been this bad in about a year and a half. I can't just tell her that if we ever live together we can buy a steam engine and it all be okay xD it just doesn't work like that... I just want to make these feelings go away so I can have a good relationship again >.<

Hey there, I just thought I would reply to this to give my experience - maybe it will help I turned 17 in May '09. It took me a bit of courage to start learning to drive, and the OCD was really bad for me... at first. I didn't trust myself in a car and whatnot which is what put me off. When you first start learning, you start on back, quiet roads with your instructor with nobody around. Until you got enough confidene to go out on the roads. And my instructor always told me "if something goes wrong - i have a right hand which will reach over to you faster than you can say steering wheel". What really helped is the trust in my instructor. He would always make sure everything is okay. Another thing that helps, is the UK has the toughes driing test and standards in the world. I failed my test first time becasue I went into the wrong lane! But the important thing is, if they thought you could injure somebody... you wouldn't be on the roads. And when you pass your test, it means you know how to drive safely. I passed my test a few weeks ago now, and it has been weird on my own - but you soon get used to it. It's easy to stop quickly and you know how to drive. Remember, it's just a thought! Adam xo

I'm back on the train =) Just been to the mini-conference afterwards which was actually amazing I did it in 62 minutes, although my time will say 2hrs 2 minutes because it took us an hour from when the cannon went of to actually get running -.- baaad times Anyways, blisters, sore legs and muscles are one thing... but I can't wait to try and do it again next year It was also a REALLY good experience meeting all the other people. (Stephen, Chris, Stuart, Kylie, and other people), and I met 'Butterfly' and her daughter for the first time which is kind of something special to me (: All in all, a good day. A brillaint day. Now I'm going to go crash down Adam x.

I guess it's technically media! I designed a poster on OCD, and got the local council to pay for it to be put up around schools and youth centres You can use it if you like, but yeah just thought I would share it (: Adam. You can find it here [clicky]

Lush! I'm excited now. I shalleth go training tomorrow. Costumes sound fun tooo! Adam

Printed out. Filled out. Emailed to you. For the win =]

Ashley. Can I do this? It would mean alot. How do I apply?

Hey guys, I got attacked and robbed on a train from Selby to York on Saturday, and although it was scary at the time, It's set my OCD back so far. It's like I've made so much progress, and then lost it all. I felt so vuldenrable and helpless, but now I've gained a fear of public transport, or being alone out of the house. I keep checking things alot more, (like sometimes checking my wallet, phone and iPod are in the correct pockets upto 50 times). I just... I don't know what to do... Help anybody? Please? Ily all Adam x.

Nice to meet you lizzie I love top gear too (: But im a guy so i guess it doesnt count hope you all had a great xmas / new years

Heyy! I'd hate to break the whole gender thing here so i might bend the truth ever so slightly when i say mine I'm Adam. Im 16 atm! Im a girl Love Superchick!!!! <3 Love Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging / Wild Child / Any Chick flick! Love the Simpsons! Don't like sport. Love you all!

I hope this goes here! Feel free to move it (: I know i haven't posted in a while, i've been really busy with the youth parliament http://ukyp.org.uk/newsroom_site/pages/tv/...fast_10_08.html (: Anyways, i've just started a campaign at last called mind matters discussing mental health, and i've been selected as a member of a board of expert people on mental health in london, to discuss mental health. Basically im taking a big step forward towards maknig OCD alot more known. Adam.

Hey (: Welcome to the forum love. How old are you? (: They do soundike OCD, and i think you should talk to somebody you can trust or see the doctor It will get better. Promise. x

Okay. i need to vent here, and i need some advice. Its about girls, alcohol and just having a bad day to be fair. Okay, It all started off a few weeks ago when my friend Jenny introduced me to her friend Jess. We got talking and realised we liked each other a bit, and said we would go to this club (Welly) on friday (yesterday). So i got really excited, and spent all my pocket money for 2 weeks just geting in, and transport / drinks. I was happy, and then Jenny and Jess walks up, and we started talking, Jess didn't say a thing so it was just like a conversation with Jenny. Us three was sort of dancing, Jenny left, so there was me, Jess and her friends, who were basically laughing at me, and when i tried to talk to her she was busy with her friends, so i left her to it. I went outside for some fresh air a bit later and she was there so i went up again, and she just said hi, and i had to constantly ask the questions like "How was your day?" then she just walked off. I saw her another time, and she ignored me again. So I decided she didn't like me anymore. And then Jenny introduced me to her friend Flourence, and we got talking, and then she made my night, we exchanged numbers and shizzle and then left. Straight after welly, i went to a 6th form party, which was basically for everybody to get to know each other. There was alcohol there and i guess i had some, i was all ready to go home, when two 14 year old girls who are good friends of mine told me they were sleeping on the streets for the night. Now i don't know why, but i promised them i would stay with them to make sure they were safe. There was 6 of us altogether and we went for a walk, and one of the girls fell unconcious in a graveyard. So i put her in the recovery position, and she woke up again almost instantly, and fell asleep there, so we all stayed there, figuring it would just be best. At 4am we went for a 3 mile walk to keep us warm (i was just in basically shorts and a t-shirt without a jacket). We finally fell asleep at 5:15, and woke up at 5:45. We waited for the street lamps to go off, and then went and got some breakfast from a shop. After a long walk home i got in at 7:37 and just fell asleep on the hallway floor, after waking up and getting a much awaited shower, i went to bed. I got a text at 11am from my best friend telling me i was late for her birthday party. I got straight on the next bus and came to the cinema and we saw the movie. I was shattered by the end of the day, and feeling really really emotional. I gets on MSN and Jenny comes online, so i said hey, and she told me to go away. Saying i upset Jess by ignoring her, i explained my story and she said to stop shifting the blame. I said she was ignoring me again, and she said Jess was playing hard to get. Feelnig REALY down at this point, we had a little argument. She said i was a retard, and accused me of looking down her top, being a stalker, a pedophile and a pervert. Just for the record, i didn't look down her top. And apparently its because of that, Jess was ignoring me because she felt inadequate. She called me a politics boy stalker" and i said how to have a relationship, you need to talk. She told me that because i was a virgin, i can't have a relationship. That hurt. I've lost one of my closest friends I've upset a girl I've made a girl that liked me, hate me. I cant get the tears out my eyes, and i've been sick a few times too. I need advice on what to do. How do i make up with Jenny? Should i meet Jess again, or go for florence? I cant think. I need any assistance here, because i feel worthless, inadequate, and so alone. It's playing with my mind, its worse then washing my hands, and i just dont know what to do :'( Please help me. Adam x.

Okay, so well my appointment cam through :clapping: Good? No It was addressed to "The Parents / Guardian of Adam........." so they opened it (while i was away with my youth council on a trip), and read it. It said im going to be referred on September 10th, to a specially trained Psychiatrist to help with "Your Problem." My mum instantly rang the doctors who said it was confidential and none of her business. So then she rang up Rosedale mental health team who im visiting, who said "Oh. Its an appointment for his OCD. The doctor probably just arranged it wihout informing the patient. It was about two weeks ago" So then i got in the car today, and there was just silence... then halfway home my dad gave me a letter and said "Want to explain this?" so i said i knew nothing abut it and woul ring the doctors tomorrow. I've been grounded for the time being, and ugh. i can guess what Adams going to say to this.... So yeah... what do i do? Adam x.