Hey all I'm really struggling at the moment well more like for over a year and I just dont no what to do anymore, a lot of my thoughts are logic to me so that's why I carry out my compulsions. I have slowly created a germy mess of bags from bathroom because they are to germy to put in bin, so I'd set them aside to wrap into a clean sheet and put in bin cleanly.(makes sense to me lol) but anyway as per usual it's just built up and up and now it's so germy I don't no how to clean it, I'm so stressed because I'm supposed to move into flAt that I've had for nearly two years!! Life is awful, I'm so tired I just want to go to sleep and not wake up sometimes.
Ive been to Springfield hospital in 2015 and did get a bit better but slowly it's just gone down hill again and my therapy sessions stopped in june .Cause I was finding it hard to do the cbt, so basically I've no treatment whatsoever. I dunno what to do anymore, my brain makes sense, I feel trapped and scared