Just some thoughts (The equilibrium of joy and achievement)

[diomedes]

So being an obsessive compulsive disorder sufferer with panic disorder and general anxiety disorder I am capable of therapy with medicine combined with CBT,

I can be functional and useful to society thanks to CBT and 150 mg of clomipramine combined with 150 mg of pregabalin daily,

But is this the best I can get? Why not being happier? Why not being more functional? Why not achieving more? 

What an obsessive compulsive turmoil in my head...

[Closed for repairs]

I know what you mean,

Im trying hard to beat my OCD, and the reward seems to be, to be more efficient at a job I don’t like anymore...

on the other hand I’ve no chance of improving my lot if I let the OCD have its way.