Marko2020

That's the thing , it will feel scary for awhile because your so use to reassurance and that acts like a safety blanket. I was very bad for reassurance and the more I done it the worste I felt and the need to keep doing it again and again caused my anxiety. This is only my opinion. Trust me I know this goes against everything you know and your morals but that is what ocd and anxiety etc does to us. It makes us feel bad for not doing or saying we would normaly do. In your instance it would be sharing things with your partner as in life it teaches us that's what we should do. Honestly just try not saying anything and sit with the anxiety or thoughts. It will eventually go away as you'll get tired of the feeling and thoughts.

I'm the same. I have no friends and all my relationships have ended negatively. I've been single now for 10 years. It's the ocd making you feel this way you know. It's hard to make friends when you're older as well and having ocd makes it even harder by all the lies it makes up to fool us. I say take things a day at a time and don't think you'll sabotage everything as ocd will feed off that and put barriers up. If people don't take you for who you are then I say they wasn't friends in the first place. Keep your chin up and try involve yourself in activities you enjoy as you find friends who have the same interest and that works better I think.

I wouldn't tell them as it is reassurance and ocd loves that. It will turn everything you do upside down and will even find new ways of doing it. This is if you tell him or not. It won't stop no matter the choice. Only problem is if your partner doesn't want to hear about it then you'll be hurting the relationship by doing that. Try ignore the thoughts as they will come and come hard, however as I've found out. They won't stay around if you ignore them and will soon move onto something else. I confessed to my ex about things and she used it against me in the end so I tell no one now. I write it all down in a piece of paper and then burn it or shred it. That way no one can get hurt and I've dealt with the thoughts in my way.

I'm finally getting an advocate who is coming to see me next week and talk things over so maybe they might be able to help me as well. I just have not been feeling right past week and every little thing just irritates me. Think it's a bit of the flu as ketones would have me dead by now after 4 days. I just google things too much as well and that makes me panic. I think I have things that are worse case.

No she hasn't access to my notes at all. I don't want her dismissed , I just want her to maybe get training so she doesn't do this to anyone else who may be weaker than I am. She said she works there part time and her real job is primary care within the NHS. I can't believe the nhs have people like this. Having mental health is hard enough when people keep throwing it in your face and basically calling you a lier etc.

I did list my symptoms mate. She says checking my pulse every few minutes and my thoughts saying "I have to check my pulse " and it doesn't stop is not a compulsion. She even questioned the person who said i had OCC which was a psychiatrist. I've never experienced such bad and rude people ever.

They sent a email yesterday and denied my CBT. They have done this twice now. They keep saying I need counselling, however there is only 1 place here that does it and the waiting list is enormous. I'm just tired of it all now, they say to men if you have mental health to talk about it and get help. Then there is no support. I lost 2 very good friends last year due to this.

I don't have a CPN unfortunately. I'm not off the pills altogether. I've managed to stay on 25mg and have the medical review person again on the 28th of this month. I'm really not well just now. Suddenly all my bones are sore and to touch with a killer headache everyday. I was taking paracetamol but it never touched it so I'm going to take 1 of my co dodromol. I lifted something heavy and it hurt my chest, 2 days later and I'm now having this so I must of hurt it.

Hello Everyone. So I had a pre assessment for CBT today and they person was the nastiest I've ever met. She asked me to describe my ocd and its around health for me. I check my pulse 6 to 8 times an hour and my mind races if I don't, it says "your having a heart attack, check your pulse" that's the ritual. Next thing she yells at me saying "that's not OCD, you don't have OCD, that's an anxiety worrying disorder round your health ". There is no such thing as health anxiety. Then my computer restarted and cut the call, I tried to join back and she wouldn't accept. See what happens when I try and get help? Always get nasty, vile people and she's meant to be a primary care CBT. I cant put a complaint in as they won't let me any more as I've complained about too many people. I just feel I'm being bullied and picked on by everyone. I hate living with OCD and anxiety.

I got dreams when I first went on venlafaxine for about 2 monrhs and then it went away. I think it's the increase in seratine.

So where do I start!! Some of you may know me as an OCD sufferer and fellow forum member. My dad left my mum, sister and I when I was 3 as he had an affair for a year and eventually went on to marry the woman. We had to move from the USA where I was born to come to the UK with my mother as she couldn't drive, had no qualifications etc to stay in America. She had no friends or family either. Over the past 36 years I've tried to reconnect with my dad, however that hasn't gone very well. His new wife hated us for no reason and would always talk nasty to us when we called or tried to talk. He would always dismiss us and always had a temper. He said to me on a few occasions that I was a inconvenience and waste of space, that I would never amount to anything. I brought shame on him for my mental illness etc. He even said if he saw me he would smack me down. Now I did nothing but try to be the best son and I still try today. I went through bullying for years and years for being American at school and nearly got knifed and drowned as a kid. They was ruthless here to me and broke me. He brought my sister over to see him once and not allowed me, even though in the divorce it said to have us every summer. That never happened. So this brings me to yesterday. My sister phoned my dad to see how he was doing and he said not too good because in 2022 his wife died who he cheated on my mum with. He said to my sister he was sorry for hurting us and ignoring us etc and wanted to talk again. I've given him more chances than anyone would and my defences are very high. My problem is I have a very soft side for people and don't like hurting anyone. One part of my brain is saying give him one last chance and it's a shame because he's lonely now and is 75. He has no one but the church in his life because he dropped everyone like he did us. We got no birthday or Xmas cards because the church didn't belive in them. He only joined them because she was part of them. My other side of my brain is like, no he made his bed now he has to lie in it. You gave him millions of chances and was promised the world and got ignored again for years. I don't know if it's my OCD or not, however im finding this a hard decision. I will always love my dad because he gave me life, however I will never see him as a proper dad figure. My thoughts right now is to be civil and take a day at a time. I've text him and he said he would talk again and promised, however I don't see that happening. What would everyone else do in this situation as it is honestly taring me apart as I thought I closed this chapter but it's been reopened again. I'm scared of getting hurt again and it makes my mental health worse.

For me personally, no. I don't think any pulls has helped with my ocd. It was only until I started to help myself that is saw a little relief.

I'm on 300mg and have been for over 15 years. Blurred vision is definitely a side effect and it's starting to get a bit worse with my diabetes. I always feel tired and no energy, tried coming off them and it was impossible for me. They did a study on this and said they are harder to come off than heroine.

The way I deal with this is to say only once " well if I did then I did but if I didn't then that's fine" we can't change the past so whatever conclusion the ocd comes to then it's not revelant as nothing can be done to go back in time. I know it's hard as I've been here many times, however distract yourself with what you enjoying doing and here's a tip. If you did do anything, not saying you did then you would of found out way by now and since you didn't think this before means nothing happened and ocd is just trying to play tricks.

I did report it when it happened but it was my word against theirs and there was more of them. The lady who stopped and took me home did leave her details, however police did nothing. The police never really do anything.