So I'm sorta having a good day today with being able to do things.
one part of my OCD is contamination and with somethings I won't touch them even to clean them I will just avoid it, some days like today I am able to touch it (with gloves on) the things Iv been avoiding,I don't understand why some days I can and some days I most definitely can't go near it. I still get the thoughts but iv ignored them (yay),I was even able to make a friend a cup of tea, but this is where the coping mechanisms come in, i am not supposed to be giving in to compulsions,
so I make the cup of tea but without touching the tea bag, I feel Iv done good but then think I was able to do it because I didn't touch the tea bag,i feel Iv done wrong by not touching the tea bag because Iv made the situation more bearable for my self when I should be exposing myself to the anxiety. Also I was able to touch things to clean them but only with gloves on again making the situation more bearable.
I just find it difficult to constantly expose my self to everything although I no I need to.
If anybody has any thoughts on this will be greatly appreciated
Dixie