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Chris2020

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  1. Hey Humbleno Just want to say your not alone. I have had this very strong feeling the past year and a half that I have done something really taboo. I dont want to go into detail what it is but like you ive got this horrible feeling I have done this horrible thing but no evidence or memory to back it up. I then try and figure out why I feeling like this, trying to remeber something that really isnt there... Well i hope to god anyway. My advise is not to engage with it otherwise you will end up like me 20 months on stuck in a rabbit hole.
  2. Thanks polar bear but the thing is this isnt a memory. This thing happen then its all went down from there straight after. Because this was new to me and i didnt know why i was feeling like this, yes I did try to figure out why and what did I do straight after it happened. Not long after I was wracking my brains trying to remember if I had done/seen something but nothing. Because i cant find no evidence such as a memory of doing such thing im stuck to why I have these guilty feelings. I've read about real event ocd but I dont want to look into subtypes as its just gets all confusing and
  3. In your experience though how many times have you seen for someones thoughts to be true and it wasnt OCD? I read people have thoughts of doing horrible things and that scares them but I havent read something thinking they have done a horrible thing. Is this possible with OCD to make you actually think you have done something so taboo taking something that nothing to the nornal person and making more than what it is? Can it lead you down a rabbit hole to catastrophic thinking of what your future holds if it were to be true? Can you please just answer me that? I need yo know if this is a
  4. But is this P intrusive thoughts as this has only every happened to me once. I hate saying the words. What I need to know is this normal with OCD? Is my situation ocd related?
  5. Hello, To anyone whos been following my past journey for nearly two years you will know what im talking about. Long story shot but to the point is nearly two years ago i had a very strong intrusive/feeling that I had accessed or seen something in relation to CP (hate saying the word) online. I cant tell you what it is or decribe what it is as I have no mental image etc just a feeling. For example just imagine you know you did something wrong and was waiting to be found out well this is the case with me. I have all the thoughts and feelings of wrong doing but nothing to back i
  6. I will do my very best. I have been doing that lately and it has been working. Just something has pulled me back into worrying lately and I dont want to fall back into that trap. As always thanks PolarBear
  7. Going over and over everything, trying to remeber what I have apparently done, trying to fugure out how the authorities operate to situations like this if it were true, thinking what life is going to be like, what prison is going to be like, loosing everything etc. Its just all gets ontop of me and scares me so much. I then look for answers and some sort of reassurance on the Internet.
  8. Hello I felt as if Inwas getting better. Im bot confident that my situation is ocd. Im stuck on a thought/feeling Ibhave done something such taboo its lead me down a rabbit hole of fear and loosing everything and everyone. Anyway im not sure what my compulsions are. I dont do any rituals to ease the anxiety like some people and I dont mean that to make fun as I understand ocd is a serious matter. All I find my self doing is whenever i think about what couod happen to me if the thought / feeling was true it terrifies me so I start to google things about ocd and when i read something reass
  9. Hello just want to know what others experienced when hopefully getting over OCD. For nearly two years now I have been convinced ive done this horrible thing that is so taboo but I cant tell you what it is because i dont know myself. I just had this thought/feeling that Ive done this thing and it went down the rabbit hole from there. Anyways lately I have the hold its had on me feels lile its slipping away. Basically I know i shouldnt say this but I say to myself "so what if I have done this horrible thing" even though I haven't I feel this helps if that makes sense. Im starting to
  10. Thank you all with your replies. It means alot. I have moved on from this now. Im guessing my OCD couldn't hold its grip this time.
  11. Thank you Snowbear. I did think as much but because she just couldn't I thought it must only be me who can imagine anything. Seems thats not the case. I shall move on from this 😊
  12. Hello, I havent been here for a while and felt I was getting somewhere with my so called ocd until today with counsellor. Basically im now questioning who I am and if I have actually done what my mind is telling me that I have. Im not going to go into detail about that as ive mentioned it many times before in previous threads. Im trying to write this before my partner finds out. Ive been told be my therapist to avoid coming here along with my partner as they feel im using this site as reassurance. Personally this is partly true but I just need to explaine what happened today.
  13. Hello havent been here for a while. Ive started therapy with my counsellor and she tells me that its not a good idea to come here all the time. Prior to her telling me this I used to come here all the time and share my story, thoughts feelings and worries. I can see where she is coming from as I do feel this forum can help but it may also start other worries as you may not find the things you are looking for. Anyway she mention a few things to me including the words wise mind and false comfort. I had to google these and false comfort describes what im going through and just wonder
  14. This might sound crazy but I think im connecting the dots. As the title reads misophonia and misokinesia does anybody have any experience with this. I believe I also have this and have read that it relates to OCD. The reason I know i suffer with misophonia is because I havent slept in the same bedas my partner for the past 5 years. She doesnt snore but heavy breaths and it just turns me into an evil person. I have tried staying in the same bed but im just on edge waitng and anticipating the breathing to start. Im kind of listen out for it and as soon as I hear it no matter ho
  15. Ultimately you need to stop doing what your doing and just deal with it. I know that sounds harsh but its the only way to improving. Should take you no longer than 15-30 seconds, maybe in your case allow yourself a minute then you must stop and walk away. I understand this will be extremely difficult but this is the only way to overcome it. Personally there is no other advice you can be told to help the situation. What you need to understand is nothing bad is going to happen if you do this, just sit with the uncertainty and things will get better.
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