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So last week was awful. I've never fallen so hard and so fast with OCD, I've been stressed for a couple of months, but it just felt like it came out of nowhere. I'm starting to feel better and managed to clean my home a bit today so I feel more comfortable now.

Pretty sure I just heard scratching and squeaking...eurgh...shaking like a leaf now.

Thank you Legend Maybe I will cook some dinner tonight...

Thank you Ashley I made the terrible mistake of googling...I am just trying to distract myself at the moment.

What makes you think you have OCD?

Perhaps you could try volunteering at other schools and see if they are all the same? I'm sure you would be pleasantly surprised.

Hi Boogiewoogie12, Depression is not necessarily all the time, it can be up and down in a day. Bipolar is usually a period of being high for weeks or months and then a period of being low for weeks or months. What was the career you wanted to do? Just remember the doctor is there to help you, that's all.

That is interesting PJM. Most people's response has been 'That happened to me and I put some traps down and got on with life'. I have no idea how people can do that...

It bothers me when people belittle it, but I also don't expect people to understand the complexities of the illness.

Thank you I have had exposure therapy for spiders in the past, it has helped I am no longer compelled to check and check if they are there. I am having a really stressful time at the moment anyway, so this has kind of pushed me over the edge I think. You are right though, I am actually not scared of mice, so why the hell am I acting like this?

Thank you Taurean. I have one of those devices to scare away spiders as well, I forgot it scares mice away as well! I think it was just the one that kept coming back, as i've found no signs of it living anywhere. I feel completely stuck because on the one hand I want to go and bleach my entire kitchen, on the other hand I feel too scared to even go in the kitchen. I just feel trapped in my anxiety.

A mouse ran across the kitchen on Sunday night, I was convinced it was a spider and had a complete breakdown. My boyfriend couldn't find it (not knowing it was a mouse) and we went to bed. The next morning it ran out again and he found it and said it was a mouse. We've laid traps down and caught 4 but not had any since Tuesday morning now. I work shifts and he works long hours so I have spent a lot of time in the house on my own and I just start shaking with anxiety if I have to go in the kitchen etc. I haven't eaten a proper meal since Sunday lunchtime and I don't know how much longer I can cope I went to my Mum's for dinner last night and still couldn't eat anything as I was worrying about coming home. My boyfriend won't be in until 11pm ish tonight as he's going to watch the football ( ) and I just want to cry...

Fairly certain this forum has saved my life...

Em your doctor should have explained how to take the medication, I was told to start off on half a dose and gradually increase. I have always taken daily medication at night, so that's when I take mine so I don't forget. Don't be scared, you are unlikely to see any effects for a few weeks. Unfortunately your doctor doesn't understand what he's talking about from the sounds of it. GPs are given very little time during medical school to learn about psychiatric conditions, so unless they have a specific interest they are unlikely to know very much.

Yes, it's very normal to feel that way. OCD isn't called 'the doubting disease' for no reason! Everytime I get a new obsession it takes me a long time to recognise and accept that it's OCD, and only once I've done that can I move on and begin to heal. :hug: hang in there!