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I gave it about 6 weeks before moving from 50mg with my Dr.

I am on sertraline and have pure o too. Easier said than done, but try not to analyse as it is impossible to know just yet and maybe look back in 4 weeks and take a look.back at how that period had been overall to assess how the dosage is working. Your reaction is very normal though, I have just had my dosage modified and I am on high alert almost checking, but like with ocd I'd say try and forget how the meds are reacting day on day and look back over time and assess. (You could perhaps keep a diary once a week on how the week has gone in relation. to your ocd).

It sure is a ridiculous affliction OCD.

Hope you enjoy your biking and rides chaps. I'm into my running so I know how helpful these things are particularly at times of stress too. Take care both.

Hi Howard. Thanks for the reply. Just a build up of pressure on the lead up to Christmas I think. I hope my brain will begin to calm down now!

@OB1 Very sorry to hear about your childhood and that you have been battling this for so long. I was very lucky to have a loving and caring childhood so mine does not have its roots in that. I think it has developed in later years for me as I often feel inferior and having a small voice compared to peers of my own age.

I've noticed that when I am alone I suddenly blurting random things. It can be something I am not even thinking about and I'd just like random garbage. But tonight something really horrible came out and now I feel guilty. It feels worse than a thought as it actually came out audibly. Feel terrible.

I was driving in my car home tonight. I sometimes find I blurt out the most random things, for no reason and I don't know why. It's always when I am on my own. Tonight I came out audibly in the car with something and it was inappropriate and now I feel guilty and bad. It feels worse than a random thought because it came out of my mouth audibly. Now feel very guilty and anxious. Any help/advice much appreciated.

Sorry for the late reply everyone and thank you very much for all your helpful and considered replies. Have a good weekend all. Jon

Hi both Thank you for taking the time to reply to me, it is much appreciated The thing is, that these thoughts of confrontation are intrusive and unwanted and cause upset. I was usually told in CBT for other OCD thoughts in the past not to engage with the intrusive thoughts, but are you suggesting that I ought to do so in this case to experiment with it. Just wanted to confirm so I know the best approach. Many thanks Jon

Hello everyone I was very lucky to get some excellent CBT help for my OCD issues and whilst they still cause me problems sometimes, on the whole things are generally pretty good for me. However in the last few months, I am finding a really troubling thing happening to me and I am just reaching out to see if anyone else has experienced it or how they might have overcome it. The first thing to say is that I am a very non-confrontational person, and don't enjoy confrontation, in fact I avoid it. I also for a number of reasons feel a bit inferior to my friends of the same age as me (I am 40 but never had a relationship to speak of or any children etc. The problem is that many times a day I keep getting intrusive fictional situations play out in me head where people I know (from all walks in life) will say something to me, or put me down, or make feel small or attacked in some way and I feel very very angry inside. These intrusive thoughts of situations that haven't even taken place in real life make me feel the same emotions and upset inside as if it were actually happening, i.e feeling angry with the person in my head. I feel like a pressure cooker going off in my head and get really angry in the moment (even though it is only me living here and the whole narrative is playing out only in my head). I am feeling the same internal emotions and upset/anger at people (in my head anyway) as if these things to upset me were actually happening and taking place in real life. Can anyone identify with this or assist? Thanks Jon.

Thanks Felix

Just wondered what you guys would suggest for the best way to deal with OCD thoughts about things that you have actually said or done. I received a text message earlier from someone I am close too, but I saw the name of the person and a message pop out and I said out loud "Oh F*** off" to myself. Not too sure why I did, was probably feeling a bit stressed and blurting it out a bit too. Now I feel a bit guilty about having done this and now thoughts about saying this are getting "stuck". Trouble is, I am finding it harder to dismiss this as it is actually something I HAVE SAID, not just a thought. Any advice appreciated, thanks and Merry Christmas.

cool thanks guys

Could you advise of the best practical steps over Christmas to help me stop attaching to different things to feel guilty about, and having the overwhelming urge to confess them before I can feel happy?

Thank you, you always have the right words Polar Bear. I always feel more empowered after your replies. Thanks ?

I feel super anxious this morning. I am used to having inappropriate thoughts come into my head and pretty good at dealing with them now and dismissing them after many years and some great CBT work in the past. However, this morning I blurted something out audibly (only in my own company) which makes it seem much worse than just a thought. It is something I would never do or want to do in real life but now that it has come out of my mouth (rather than just a thought in my head) I feel really guilty and awful about it. I cannot say it is just a thought because it came out of my mouth audibly. I cannot stop thinking about it and it is now distressing me.

I know a lot of this is down to Christmas and because I enjoyed it so much as a child I really want to enjoy it. At time of pressure and stress comes with an overwhelming urge to confess to family members things I may have done, said or thought in the past. Often I will subtlety get them into conversation or phone specifically to bring them up to get temporary relief. However at the moment, it is going one stage further where I am feeling the need to confess things that my friends/people I know might have said or done in the past (which I know sounds ridiculous when it is not even things I have said or done!). Almost all are silly innocuous things that most people would not give a second thought to anyway. I know confessing is NOT the answer, but at the same time these thoughts about past events that I have said/done/thought or friends have/said/done though seem to get "very stuck" and make it hard for me to be happy in the moment until I can release them. Any advice, words of encouragement on this to help me enjoy this time of year would be most appreciated. There is always the thought that "if I just mention this one" I feel will better etc. Thanks Jon

Ah bless you Tiger thanks so much for this. How strange but also reassuring that you should feel the same way. I love Christmas but I think my OCD knows that and yours too and tries to find a way to scupper it. Thanks for your kind reply and good avice too. Jon

Hi All, Ever since I was a boy I have always enjoyed Christmas time and find it a nice special time of year. Because I enjoy it and it is special to me I find that I am more susceptible to my OCD at this time of the year. I have noticed lately my mind coming up more and more with things I have done, might have done (but can't remember properly so my mind runs riot), and these thoughts get "stuck" in my mind. I have the strong urge to "confess" them to bring about some relief, but I know that confessing/reassurance is not a good idea, as it tends to offer short term relief and then something else jumps in and it snowballs. The problem is whilst at the moment I am resisting the urge to confess/reassure to family members, I am noticing that the thoughts about previous thoughts/actions are remaining stuck in the brain. It feels like they are not going to go anywhere, and whilst reassurance is never good it feels like it would offer the relief to get rid of them. I don't want to give in to the OCD on one hand but at the same time I don't want to feel miserable/pre-occupied/guilty for large portions of December with these thoughts and memories "stuck". I don't know what to do and wondered if anyone could give me any advice? Thanks

Hi, I have suffered with Pure O OCD but had good CBT many years ago and take fluoxetine now. Just had a quite frightening experience that I cannot stop thinking about, hence the posting on this forum tonight. Just of late for reasons unknown occasionally the random Pure O stuff that comes into my head is sometimes coming out verbally when I am alone (I work at home, live by myself). As you know some of the Pure O OCD thoughts we have can be abhorent and very disturbing and can be on horrible subjects. And now the odd time these things have suddenly come out aloud (out of the blue) and I am feeling really guilty that it means I should be feel awful and there must be hidden meaning attached (because it has been in the spoken word rather than just a thought). They are often random sentences (and always when I am alone and mind just wandering and not thinking about anything in particular) that appear to make no sense and don't happen too often, but occasionally as tonight when I blurt out something deeply inappropriate I feel really guilty and scared. The fact when I heard the sentence come out it was inappropriate I immediately feel guilt and have not been able to forget about it. I can handle inappropriate and random thoughts that appear in my head now as I can understand it is just a mental event, but now it has been spoken randomly by me it feels much much worse, as I can not just say a thought is a thought as it blurted out audibly and became an ACTION not a though. And now I cannot stop thinking about it. Any help and advice much appreciated.

Hi Robbie Can't help too much as I'm not sure what the best advice to give is. But your themes of both sexual identity and religious themes seem to mirror mine, I just posted about sexuality/attraction half an hour ago! Just posting this to encourage you if I can. Understand exactly why you didn't want to play footy tonight, but why not try and galvanise yourself and go out for a run or something instead. It won't solve your problems of course, but it might help you. I wish you all the best and remember things can improve and there is no reason going forward why they cannot for you. Best of luck mate and keep plugging away.

Hi All I have posted a few times over the years regarding my constant rumination and confusion about my attraction to females and males and constant rumination and checking of attraction (never had a serious girlfriend in my 30's now) and been on a hamster wheel as Polar Bear rightly put it off trying to understand myself and genuine confusion about sexuality. I realise I need to step up my game again in terms of not checking and ruminating over the subject (looking at instagram, facebook, TV to check for attraction etc) and try to leave it alone from an OCD perspective which is always tough. However , I also know that psycho-sexual therapy is available by referral on the NHS and given my age and the length of time this has gone on I feel it might be time to at least give this a go (if my GP approves) and see what I can achieve with it, alongside my strategy from an OCD perspective. My question really is, has anyone else who has ruminated and obsessed about sexuality sought help also through Psycho-sexual therapy, and, if so was it was beneficial alongside implementing OCD CBT strategies. Many thanks

Hi 7zurg, Sorry to hear of your struggles. And do not worry about your English, it is excellent. I've been suffering from similar things to you, I believe if we continue to do the same checking and rumination we will not make any progress. Perhaps you would like to read the post I made and the replies I got to help you also:

Thanks so much to both Chris B and PolarBear, very clear advice and practical instruction. As an OCD sufferer you kind of know deep down what needs to be done but it can help so much when someone else sees it from a different angle. Thanks so much to the both of you, I will keep re-visiting your thoughtful replies. You will have seen Polarbear that in my original post I included a quote from a previous post from you in reply to somebody else, sound advice for sure. Thanks again to you both, Cheers Jon.