existence ocd.

[Mozer]

of all days that life exists in any form on earth, why i suddenly gained consciousness in 1992?

 

how i know that i did not have consciousness as an other person in the past?

[agreatsummer]

I think I have had similar thoughts in the past at certain points, but eventually, I chose not to dig too deep into it. Understanding why you were the "lucky" one doesn't make any meaningful sense to your life. Fundamentally speaking, even causation itself is nothing more than the summary of the coincidences in this whole wide world. The explanation itself is actually an outcome of the results that are already there and cannot be altered. This is just the principle of nature and nothing more complicated than that. Just focus on who you are right now and enjoy your life for what it is.