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this is the first time ive noticed that others also know about the "cant clean because then everything will get dirty"- consept? i thought i was the only one?? i have a bathroom i hope cleans itself?

she is sending them per post, thats what i meant with "sending them"?

yes. im getting some anxiety pills from a friend. not many, i think its 8 or something. ive tried it for a few years ago, so i know how it will work. im gonna take a few pills just for a couple of days, im not comfortable with "taking pills on a regular." before you say something: im doing this because: 1: im getting them for free 2: i know what pills im getting, i dont have to argue with a doctor, and maybe not get the ones i need 3: this take shorter time 4: its easier for me

i know. woke up at 3 this night with a panick attack, and havent been to work today. im getting some pills sent to me in a few days, i usually dont take anything, but i need a break away from myself now. im just gonna drug myself down a couple of days, and get some time away from the gym also. ive been working out a little too hard lately. i dont know how to cope right now, i feel i just wonder around in a fog, and my anxiety is so high that i just loose sense of time and reality at surtain points.

panic attack after panic attack. dissapointments after dissapointments. pain and pain, doubts, ocd, all of the above. i am so tired, i feel so beaten. i dont even write this to know WHAT im gonna do, im at the point where all i need is a "keep going, its going to be alright" and so on. i just needed to write somewhere, i cant even begin to explain how many punches ive been recieving these last.. days? weeks? i dont know anymore. i just want to embrace whats good and positive, there are so much. there is so much. ive been fighting for too long to give up.

the difference is that you are afraid of thinking about thinking you are dead (you have ocd) and you talk about it like you have ocd. people who have ocd that are afraid of having a life threathening desease, will look for all kind of signs, and convince themselfs that they have it. just like you do now. ive experienced depersinal/derealisation, and what you want to know about that is that its not dangerous. its nothing-really. the first times i had it i thought i was going absolutly mental. i was so afraid that this was me starting to get other types of mental illnesses, like schizofrenia or psycosis, but when i learned that it was just rubbish, it got just a small "qirk" and i understood what it was. im not afraid of it anymore. it looses its powers. im 100 prosent sure that all you have is ocd. and now you want to write: but what if its not? just like everybody else, including me, with ocd, would. ?

ok guys, ive been reading a lot of the post on here, but still dont get exactly what the method is. can anybody tell me? is it so secret that ill have to buy the method-thing to know? i just dont get it at all?

i only get into the topic with other people if they missuse the term. (is term right?) and by that i mean that they for example say: oh, "im so ocd.", if they talk about their love for cleaning or having things in order. i usually explain in a calm matter, even dough it makes me pretty upset. they often say sorry afterwords, and thats my aim. (that they understand what ocd really is.)

actually i think my question was more like: when a statement is like this: "suicide is the most common death by those who have.........(put in anything here)" -does that mean BESIDES of natural death? and i think i can summon up myself that the answer is yes, but ive said that several times now. (but if anybody out there knows it would be cool to know. not that this is so trumendesly important, i just wanted to ask.)

well, the statement wasent that the major cause of suicide is ocd, but that the majority of those who have ocd is suicide. and again, besides a natural death, i would guess. wich was my orignall question.

i know how tough it is, if its any help, im having a **** time myself

i think that it would be very smart to not give you an answer to that question.

well, i guess they ment most common death besides natural death, i dont see how any other way could be possible. i dont remember where i found it, its a long time ago, but if i find it i will put a link.

im sorry, that may have been a little harsh, but i took it a bit personall. sorry again

why do i have to leave the question alone? im not ruminating at all, im just curious. even if i have ocd, ocd is not everything i am, i am also a human being capable of asking questions about things.

no, i dont wonder about why people with ocd commit suicide. and i dont think it must have to do with depression. im suicidal a lot of times and im not depressed. i get why they do it, i just wonder about what that statement mean.

i read somewhere that the most common reason for death amongs ocd sufferers are suicide. does this mean that its more common that we die from suicide than a natural death, or does this mean more common than other unatural deaths? just curious.

right now i am about to do the one thousand compulsion for today, cant seem to fight it. hoping for a better tomorrow. but, a lot of other things are going good, so thumbs up. but this ocd-****, i really could do without it. really could.

yeah, i know, i tried that to. ive been in therapy before, so i kind of know what its about and how i react to it. i did that too, had some exposure, and switched a littlebit from having days with no exposure just letting the intrusive thoughts fly by. think i did it the way its supposed to be.

i let myself down this week. i was getting pretty good last week, untill saturday and sunday, where i began to do compulsions again, and im back at the same situation as before. doing compulsions all the time, i dont even get ten minutes from it. everytime i feel ok, i get punched in the face again, and im back at doing compulsions. ive sat a date for my "recovery", and by "recovery" i mean, its gray ereas, its alright if its a littlebit, and i dont want it to be like perfect, but my aim is christmas. im pretty much gonna try this again, i managed a week (not going cold turkey, i actually had a good thing going with managaing to regulate it and doing what was managable, not chewing over too much at ones. i fell out on saturday when i was drinking, and thats when it all went sour again. i wish somebody could just stop all the pain for me, i cannot do this anymore:/

good eye for details!? (did not mean in a ironic way)

oh my good, i just read what you ment, im so sorry, i really missunderstood. if you seriously have those thougts now, please call for help, emergencyroom, or somebody you know.

ok, then im sorry, i did not mean it that way.

i know. we all do. and its the right thing to do. hold on to your hat, and jump from that building.

oi, så kult! ikke hørt om den filmen før. that was Norwegian xD transalated: wow, thats cool! havent heard about that movie before.