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Oh apologies, I thought you were talking about a 'course' of CBT or something. I'm not worried about my course directly, it's just when my OCD plays up (most days to be honest) I find it extremely hard to do anything - let alone studying. I feel as though I can't take in information because I'm always worrying about an 'obsession' but I'm starting to doubt if I even have OCD now because as @northpaulsaid, I haven't been assessed lol.. It's just hard to do normal things in general, I stop going out when I'm worrying and I just sit in my chair and worry for hours. My friends have invited me out multiple times this month and I can't go out.

@northpaul how did you find CBT? Was it hard? I'm glad CBT worked well for you. What do you mean by future course?

@northpaul @Angst Also, how long after a diagnosis will it take to start having CBT? Have you two had it - If so, how did it go?

No, they told me I'd need an official diagnosis from a medical professional. Years of suffering, misleadingly thinking it was just anxiety. Then the past year I started struggling even worse and decided to look up help online. I started looking into OCD and saw that it really links up to what I've been experiencing. Things like responding to intrusive thoughts with compulsions is what I've done my entire life but I just assumed it was all anxiety. Also, multiple of my close family members have OCD too.

Hello, How would I start the process for getting diagnosed with OCD? I have made an appointment with my GP and that is coming up in a few days, but I don't want to be sent just to be 'assessed', I was told I need a formal diagnosis that I actually have OCD by my university and student finance in order to get support. If I don't get support I'm sure I will definitely struggle at university, as when I have my 'episodes' of OCD I'm not in the right space to study or do any sort of work, I just become crippled with anxiety.

@ocdjonesy @Lynz thank you both, sorry for getting coming back and posting about this but I've just really got into my own head this past week and I haven't been feeling great. Thank you for the replies

Definitely not the case, I'm not attractive. I hope it was just that, but I just can't believe it. Considering the lack of context she has and all she can take from this is someone looking at her multiple times, I can't see it being this either. Definitely not. I'm not like that at all. I'm worried about how she perceives me though. If I was her and I lacked context, I would be a bit weirded out.

It happened again. I was at the gym and wanted to get my flask out of my bag as I got it out and unscrewed the lid to drink and as I stood up from the crouching position while drinking I saw her looking at me. Perhaps she is keeping an eye on me and is scared. What should I do? I'm so scared myself, I didn't even mean to look at her. I can't take this, why do I have such bad luck.

@HelloItsMeHi, thank you for your comment. I appreciate it. I'm trying my best to move on. I may just stop looking at this thread entirely to be honest because some comments really aren't helping me. Hello @thinks2muchThis sounds like I've written it lol. So similar to me. I haven't experienced this so much, my family are quite supportive.

We looked at eachother for less than a second and then I looked away. There was no negative facial expression on her face and she did smile at me once

@howard I'm sorry if I came across as rude when I was questioning whether you were being intellectually dishonest or willfully misunderstanding, but it seems like you were genuinely ignoring what I had said and just being confrontational to me. Every time I tried to explain it again - you would just completely ignore my point and it frustrated me. So I'm sorry for that, but I was upset by your comments

No idea what this means I didn't indicate anything. She seems to be a similar age to me. The fact that you make these assumptions is just bizarre. and I have no clue what you are trying to say here either. I was originally correcting myself due to a previous comment and said I use the word 'girl' for women as a previous comment asked about it. @ocdjonesy, @McW, @L.M. have all said that what you have suggested would be classed as an avoidance so this is really confusing me I appreciate you are trying to help me calm down @howard, but your comments have upset me. @Caramoole

Thanks @ocdjonesy, I'll take the advice you have offered and will attempt to put this behind me.

I don't know, I start thinking she'll start telling people or report me or something and it'll make me look like a total creep.

I understand what you are trying to say, but I'm more worried about the fact that what she thinks of me. I'm 100% confident in myself and I know I wouldn't be looking at her in a weird way - but obviously she doesn't know the context of what is going on and she could easily assume something like 'he's looking at me in a creepy way' and feel uncomfortable - when I'm not, I'm not like that at all.