katydaly

Ya or today I might think something is "dirty" but b strong enough to ignore it, and then a week later hit against this "dirty" item and all of a sudden bang I'd freak out

Hi guys does anyone find that something that really triggered their OCD yesterday may not bother it at all tomorrow, that some days u feel attacked by OCD and others not so much

I'd go to a football match, bring my kids climbing trees, roll in the grass, swim in the lake find a stray cat or dog and bring them home I could write all day on this topic

Iv found out since that my husband left out the bit about my family saying to me if either of us needed anything to ring as he believes it wasn't said to him and it should have been, therefore he believes it didn't mean if he needed anything, I really don't no wat to do and it's driving my OCD crazy cos we arguing so much about it, my husband didn't have it easy as I didn't want anyone to no about my illness and made him keep it a secret for a good few years, although he said it to one of my brothers in this time nothing came of it. If I get my family together and tell them all the things I did and didn't do because of my OCD I feel it will pull me in to a horrible state and I'll b to ashamed to go anywhere for fear of meeting anyone who knows,having OCD isn't common knowledge in my circle off friends and only a select few no and close family. Mainly because I don't want to feel watched or judged by people, I already feel this way sometimes which makes me more anxiois, on top of that he says he doesn't think it will help his depression but he thinks they should no and no how he now feels because he didn't get help from them. The week before we went to c my doctor and he was telling him about my OCD bn active and I said yes it it and us arguing and stuff bn said isn't helping it jus makes it worse, which my doctor agreed with. Hubby took this up as me blaming him for it all and said in using him as a scapegoat,I don't no wat to do as either way I think wer ****** and he's prob goin to tell others anyway which will not end well

Hi I'm very upset today, my husband went to a councillor today, iv had OCD for a good few years and ended up n hospital twice with it, the first time I was goin in my sister said they would all chip in,his parents were to help out minding the 3 kids to let hubby go to work,as it was only thought to b for 5 maybe 6weeks, ended up bn 3months, before I went in a few of my brothers and sister called to the house and said wen leaving if ye need anything either of ye then jus ask. Most of my family only live bout 3miles away Wen I was in hospital my family kept in touch with me one of them wud ring everyday as wud my elderly parents, none of them visited me in hospital r at the weekend wen I got home. Although my family kept in touch with me none of they rang my hubby to see if he needed a hand r his parents needed a break, this has hit my husband hard and he is now depressed and he believes this is the cause, he went to a councillor today who told him to take a break away from me and to tell the kids that he needs a break from Mammy's illness,and all this could have bn avoided if my family had helped out more,she also told him that I should get my family together and tell them every single thing I done r didn't do because of OCD and tell them that they turned their backs on my husband and now he's I'll and they need to apologise as they should have helped out more, my husband has said such horrible things to me in the past which I wont go in to but it hasn't helped my recovery,he said he told councillor about and she said it was like a pressure cooker and that's why so basically she said it was ok, he told the councillor that doing that would drive my anxiety mad and she said well ur the one I'm seeing, Is it jus me r is it just me r is it strange for a councillor to be ok with verbal abuse if it's from their patient, I feel like she is trying to pin all the blame on me and getting the kids very emotionally involved by saying stuff like that to them is like trying to turn them against my family, I want my husband to get better but he has alot of baggage also from his childhood which I believe is why he lashes out so bad, maybe I'm wrong but I feel she doesn't care about the emotions of the kids,I don't believe there is a need to bad-mouth people to them, I agree my family shud have helped out more but I guess they thought ringing me was enuf and wen they didn't get asked for help they didn't bother calling to the house to offer it but my husband jus feels abandoned by them still as I did at the start but I had to move on from it, anyway sorry for long post

It possibly is a bit, I've bn doing well in other areas so maybe it's looking for somewhere else to creep in, it's only the CFL bulb I'm nervous of because of the mercury, I m reasoning with myself that they prob get broke in hospitals and factory's and they jus pick em up and move on

Hi guys just wondering is it really dangerous if a CFL bulb is broken, my husband gave a bulb n a box to the baby and he dropped it braking it, I don't no if it was CFL as it wasn't written on the box but either was incandescent or holegan, he jus picked it up and put it n the bin, I've heard before that the room has to be ventilated and clean it up like hazardous wastes did any of ye break any and just clean it up like anything else I'm a little nervous about it and my husband doesn't want to hear about it having mercury in them,

hi guys, i started taking Escitalopram 10mg for depression and ocd almost two weeks ago, and almost straight away i started to feel a bit happier, i feel great, but i havent noticed my ocd getting easier yet but then again its not even two weeks, iv had no side effects thank god except for tiredness, there has bn a couple of times i have bn unable to stay awake and fell asleep,this sleep is so deep that the other nite i feel asleep on the sofa, about 6ft away from a very loud phone, my hubby wasnt home and rang the fone over and over until it rang out, he tried ringing 5 seperate times in total. just wondering if anyone has had simalar experiances and any sollutions or answer as to how my sleep got so deep, i have 3 small kids so im concerned thanks

Well i jus found a maggot in my kids playroom, yuk I no, my eldest son spotted it and thought it came out from under their play mat, I got rid of it and put Milton on the floor wer it was i had a look under the mat and saw a tiny round moist area whd put milton on it too, do i need to wash all the toys in their playroom? tbh it has bn a few weeks since the floor in it got mopped and hovered, so I will do that this evening, does there usuall be more than one maggot? My mother in law said it's not unusal for there to be just one but I think she mite hav bn trying to calm me down,I'm trying not to overthink it. My husband says clean the area and move on that there no need to go sterilizing any of the other toys jus the mat and the area it was in but I saw on another forum not an ocd forum about a lady who found a few maggots in the playroom and sterlisied the room and was talking about replacing the carpet, I don't want to overreact but I don't want my kids finding maggots in their toyboxes either.

Hey guys Had some clothes in abag for washing as machine was broke last week, it's fixed now and went washing them yesterday, I jus put the stuff in the machine without looking and then on the line then dryer and today I was putting them away, on a woolen jumper I noticed a stain which I first thought was fluf from the dryer but now realised it must hav bn mold on it from bn left in the bag, I can't remember what elseI washed with it but I looked at other things that was in the bag that I washed and there is no mould on them, I hav dryer my baby's ( 4months) clothes in the dryer since, I hav no intention of washing anything that was in the wash or dryer again as I can't remember what was washed with it anyway but I do no wat was n the dryer with it,but I hav enuf for washing so not stressing with washing more than i need, any way, my question is, I don't remember weither I washed the load with the mouldy jumper at 60 or 40 degrees but I no i did use napisan, think if it was washed at 40 would that hav bn enough to kill the mold so it didn't spread to other clothes? Or even the heat of the dryer, I didn't see the mould r i would hav washed it defo at 60 r even 90 but I hav a feeling it could hav bn 40

Hubby came home took one look at the pants and said it's clay r muck r something not poo which obvousily I don't want it to be poo but I was so convinced it smelled like poo now I think my senses are starting to go bad on me trying to fool me. He picked up the clothes looked at them smelled them left them down then picked up the baby and went on doin whatever without washing his hands, really would love to be that confident and normal ?

Hi all I havnt bn on here n ages as I was improving alot, the last few days I'm bad again tho. I had another baby 3months ago and during the pregnancy I was ok. The last few days I am feeling it hard,as well as being afraid of dirt I'm really messy, prob to do wit not wanting to pick things up as I think they dirty, anyway yesterday at school my son stood he cowpoo (goes to a country school) I over reacted abit but cleaned it Nd got over it, today he knelt in something Brown, I smelt it and it doesn't smell like mud think it smells like dog poo, cow poo I can handle but dog poo I'm petrified of ? I took his pants off and told him wash his hand and change, thing is he didn't wash his hands he put in different tracksuits but didn't wash his hands til afterwards,I'm so nerveous that he had dirt on his hands which has now transfered onto his clean tracksuits and he refuses to take them off,he was on his knees n the classroom when I got in so it's possible he got some dirt in his hands then on his clean tracksuit wen he put them on. he also had a finger mark on his jumper like he wiped something in it. I took off his jumper and his shirt. I'm so stressed he has touched so many things and sat so many places

Sometimes its hard to know if its compulsion or doing the right thing

Hi all,having a real tough few days,neighbours sheep all broke n2the garden and left poo all over the place,I was working and when i got home hubby had got rid of them and moved some off the poo. When I got home we were chatting and I had to ask if he stepped n any, I had a strange feeling he mite have.he said no then a hour later he checks his shoe (we don't wear shoes in the hous) and there was poo on one, I had a thousands thoughts n my head, like when did he stand on it was there any on his tracksuit bottoms was there poo all over the floor now from the bottom of his tracksuit and socks,this happened Friday, I got up sat and was gonna mop all the floors in the house, I felt overwhelmed by it all as hubby keeps saying there wasn't any on his tracksuit but admits it would b possible but when we looked at them that night we saw dirt but he didn't think it was poo.the problem is I don't no when he stood on it and neither does he, we don't no was it at around 3 wen he chaced them out of the garden r later in the day wen be moved the poo, either way he could have had some on the bottoms and walked around inside put feet on couches and it could b spread all over the house and could b n the beds from kids getting up and walking n bear feet and climbing n to the beds plus our bed,I really wanted to change the beds but I didn't because its all a what if is it ??? I did mop the bedrooms yesterday, threw out a mat even tho I didn't c poo on it and half cleaned the floor where shoes we're left no visible poo there either.today I mopped kitchen playroom sitting room hall, and I'm still very nervous off the couch where hubby had his feet on friday nite, I cleaned it a bit yesterday with tea tree and breadsoda, I'm afraid to take off the cushion and wash it in case it falls apart as its anchaint and house is rented,iv been really stressed over it all I had pains n my tummy and felt dizy and had pains n my head which I think was blood pressure,was very anxious, didn't want the kids sitting on that couch so told them it was wet,hubby came n from work and told them sit were ye want,I felt like my head was going to bust.iv been getting CBT and I know if this had happened a few months ago I would have prob changed bed sheets because of this, but I'm trying to tell myself calm down I grew up on a farm and we were always out n sheds and in the fields so I'm thinking there was prob poo bought n sometimes, but I'm very very scared for my kids and feel like I'm putting them at risk even tho I'm prob not as most people pro couldn't have mopped floors, I have told my hubby to stop reassuring me as my therapist said no reasureance but he keeps doing it even wen I say ur not supposed to, he does anyway I think its just cos its recking his head and he wants me to stop talking, had a massive row today as I was saying to him about not reassuring me r I'll never get better and was he gonna be doing this n a few weeks wen I have to let the kids out n the garden, he wouldn't answer me jus kept telling me to stop talking then went made called me stupid and an idiot, I told him he should stay away tonite and he told me it was music to his ears, the then went on to tell me that I make this and the kids lives miserable that its a misery living with me and iv ruined his weekend, he knows that that will jus make me anxious wen he says horrible things like that to me, he says its so hard been with me wen I'm having bad days that it turns him off me. I'm not sure but I think it would be easier to support someone with ocd than to actually have it and be fighting it. Sorry for the long post :-(

the lady i was at starts paitants off on 50mg then ups to 100 after two weeks then after a while adjusts the dose if needed. seems like a massive difference, i dont no what to do about them, i dont have much motivation for much some days.