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Em00

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  1. People say 'oh what's the worst that could happen?' But my worst case scenario is going to prison, and then I get caught up obsessing 'how would I cope with going to prison?' (I wouldn't) 😔
  2. Interesting discussion. The big thing I struggle with is HOW? How do you get your brain to accept the uncertainty? I know this is what I need to do, but my brain just won't play ball...
  3. Em00

    Long term obsession

    Totally relate...
  4. Em00

    Stuck

    I've seen that article before, thanks gbg. I understand the logic of all that, I just don't feel it applies to me 😔
  5. My post 'stuck' talks about this. You're certainly not alone.
  6. Em00

    Stuck

    And I suppose that is the point we're trying to reach - that balance of thinking.
  7. Em00

    Stuck

    I'll have a look at the book definitely. I'm currently reading on compassion focused therapy and it talks about the complexities of the brain, evolution, the threat system etc. Is that the sort of thing you mean? It is helpful, understanding things. Having Aspergers also it really helps with the logic side of my brain. See, even knowing I'm autistic and knowing that makes me prone to get stuck on things... The obsessions feel so real. 😣
  8. Em00

    Stuck

    Thanks Taurean, I'll persevere.
  9. Em00

    Stuck

    It's ok. That's very much the sort of thing I have issues with too. Was just more about the unrelenting chronic nature of it and if I'm missing something.
  10. Em00

    Stuck

    I understand the logic of all the cbt, obsessive thoughts, being kind to yourself, everyone makes mistakes, you can't change things etc etc and the great advice I've read on here. I just can't seem to FEEL it. I can see it can apply to others but I'm irredeemable. 😞 I get the slightest bit of movement on it with compassion work and mindfulness, but it's only ever fleeting. It's really relentless and has been for years. My brain constantly wants to find meaning in it which I'm constantly trying to let go of. I think if it's 'just' ocd surely it should let up a bit. I really have problems seeing any other truth in it. In some ways it's kind of comforting you saying about repetitive loops. I will, of course, continue to try and let it go. Even writing all this my head is yelling 'it's not ocd, you're bad'. It's hard.
  11. Em00

    Stuck

    Why do our brains do this?
  12. Hello folks. I'm having / had various types of therapy that have been helpful with my ocd and related things. However I have one thought and story I tell myself that I just can't get past. I've tried exposure, challenging it, accepting it, compassion work etc etc. It will not budge. It's based in reality (which I think has made it so sticky) and makes me think I'm evil and going to end up in prison. It doesn't stop swimming round in my head and has done for YEARS. I can't see or believe anything round it and have had professionals say that some people can get almost delusion like obsessions. When people challenge it I just don't 'get it'. I don't even think I have compulsions directly related to it anymore, it just goes round and round. What do you when you feel so stuck?
  13. Hi Ironborn. I'm not a big writer so don't have a great deal to say. But I couldn't read your post without saying I completely relate and you're not alone feeling like this. I've come to realise that whatever the awful thing was, the excessive ruminating, huge distress, compulsions etc are ocd. I try and stay focused on the present and not cling to the thoughts. I also try and treat myself with compassion and forgiveness. There has been lots of posts on here about the standards we hold ourselves to and the 'shoulds' we use. These can help feed the ruminating. The biggest thing I try and remember is not everything is black and white. There are no definitive answers that ocd demands. We are not either 'good' or 'bad'. Embracing uncertainty can be so uncomfortable, but I think ultimately helpful.
  14. I had about three sessions of emdr that I never finished due to becoming quite emotionally unwell, don't know if it was related to the emdr. I never had anymore and didn't find what I did have helped. My situation was quite complicated at the time.
  15. Em00

    Other people

    I'm just finishing dbt/cbt. I've had previous therapy in the past too. Which makes me feel even more useless because it's like one step forward and two back...
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