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This is really tough. Cant really tell the difference feel like I did something. What a horrible position to be put in.

I do have a little but sometimes it can be really lacking and they are pretty hurrendous. im not having therapy, its very hard to get therapy good therapy anyway.

False memories are playing tricks on me I have very little insight because of neurological problems and poor cognition and recall. This is very difficult.

At 9 years old I used to run and tell my mother everything, as a compulsion and id say u get u get me, and it was only til she said yes, that i could move on. They put it down to "puberty". But I told them I have a voice/thoughts in my head that dont feel like they come from. My dad used to laugh and say how is your friend in your head today, this was at 9/10. When I look back now, I realise from phobias, to anxiety, to whatever else, ive been struggling quite badly with mental health issues since 9 years old. And I know my parents didnt give a ****, too concerned with themselves, particularly my dad.

While I appreciate the responses. I was crying out for help as a teenager. I openly discussed what was going on with me, in terms of at one point even had a psychotic break, my dad was a narcissist, and basically threatened me with psychological help like it was something to fear. My dad told me I was scaring my mother and I had to sit and get over it, and tried to make me sit in a hallway until i was "over it". When my mother intervened, he threw a plate at our heads. And tried to leave and had my mother begging him to come back. Id tell them I got bad thoughts and my mothers response was "they arent sexual are they?" I had no choice but to act like I never had a problem all the while being emotionally abused from my father with a mother in la la land. I had no chance. And terrible things happened at this time. I dont understand why they never even took me to a doctors. WHAT WAS GOING THROUGH THERE HEAD. I blame myself I wish Id have took my ******* self, but I was so afraid of judgement. WTF... I feel so a grieved by this, at 15-17 im supposed to tell my parents, hey you know this stuff im doing everyday that i think is normal, ive kinda realised its not normal? You know its hard to watch people in my bigger family with problems, get SOOOO much support at this age 15-17. Parents heavily invested in their future. What im saying is when you are having a mental health crisis at this time, when it already damages everything about you, this time in your life is so important ..."coming of age" right. I laugh about it I really do. How could people be so ignorant of it when it was staring them in the face.....

The mental health system is a joke. Parents are a joke. I had ocd since 9. OCD is a VERY serious issue. And I hate to spike people but im not convinced an OCD'er will NEVER act on their thoughts. Sorry if it spikes u but thats true. So heres my question if u have pedophile ocd, how are u supposed to get help and openly talk about ur thoughts? especially ten years ago. If ur an adolescent with pedophile ocd. Is it not ur parents job to help u with that? like when u open upto them and say like I get bad thoughts? arent they supposed to inquire further, when ur purposefully avoiding kids arent they supposed to pick up on that? How does a parent then know to do that or understand this disorder. If u have this illness I think u are screwed. Especially with other things at play. I had it since I was 9, and it was pretty obvious, my parents just ignored it. At 17 my life was over, bad decisions. STEMMED FROM OCD. Ive been talking to the crisis team, they are a joke, HONESTLY THE STANDARD OF CARE IS **** u cant even get seen physically now, I have lots of neurological issues going on. OH WELL. ANOTHER STATISTIC. Good luck guys, dont play with ur kids lives get them help when they need it dont ignore them, running up and down the stairs 12 times a day, and being distressed telling u they are worried they are going to do something bad, seeing things and not once get a doctor. I was ****** from the get go, and guess what now im the bad guy.... hurray for me What a life eh.

Yeh, nevermind.

So I now worry when I spike and my brain instantly tries to reassure me that. By that reassurance I now have done the spike its like a spike ontop of the spike. any suggestions?

ur probably right, because something really has to change here.

sometimes but not so much at this point, but i did miss a train today as I had the time in my head wrong, i was utterly convinced it was this time.

my case is definitely complex, and I definitely need more help than I can afford right now.

Hi, yes my memory issue distresses me because my ocd plays on it. I dont have much faith in doctors etc, Ive been down that road and never got much help, my ocd resolves around thinking I have done something it always has for over ten years, I have to reality monitor and I seem to have a real hard time seperating fact from fiction when it comes to "false memories". The problem I now have, is a memory problem, that almost makes that impossible.

Lol.

I agree

I took a cholesterol drug called statins years ago, im only 30, if u read on these drugs many people end up with terrible side effects, some long term. Im having extreme brain fog, and memory problems. My ocd is playing on it too, but I literally forget things ive just done, but a step worse than that, is I feel like Im losing some autonomy at times. This is very scary and I dont know what to do. People on this forum seem to think the memory problem is part of my ocd, I can assure you its not. I suffer with dysautonomia, and many other things as a result of this statin, look it up btw you will find many stories like this. No doc will take this seriously, not really sure what to do at this point because this is beyond ocd, too.

I know that its just worrying did it look like I was about to touch there crotch? this is what im worried about and I stopped myself, sigh, because i did stretch it out but i could have been just stretching my arm right and not realise it was close to them, it just must have looked weird.

can anyone chime in here? struggling

this isnt that rare, I get it too, I think at some point ocd gets more sophisticated, the mechanism is still the same though.

So, I have this memory issue, reality monitoring thinking Ive done things, someone was sitting across from me, and I had an intrusive thought of touching there crotch. I got a memory slip which I get and It really panicked me, so I then sort of stretched my hand out to check what that felt like, without touching but, I stretched quite far, I guess in the vacinity of there leg/crotch, now I did not touch them, but how would this have looked, it was hovering over I think obviously not directly over but in that vacinity, it may have looked like I was just stretching my arm, it was fully stretched as that would have touched them Im guessing, Im obsessing this looked like I was about to touch them there and now Im worried! Urgh.... why do compulsions get us in situations like this.

Having a hard day today, but just started taking a vitamin b1 supplement, thiamax. Seems to have really helped my cognition, Im also eating grass fed beef brain and liver capsules. I dont think there is enough emphasis placed on deficiencies, and nutrition feeding the brain, within the mental health field, and medicine in general. Id recommend everyone looking at there b1, as most are deficient and it really lifted my mood yesterday. It's not a fix, Im not claiming to have a cure, today im struggling, but I feel less overwhelmed. Anyway im not trying to start a debate, I just thought id recommend the b1 for sufferers if it even helps a little bit, its worth doing, it may not be practical to fix issues solely using these methods but in conjunction with other things I definitely think its worth looking into.

The Rwandan prescription for Depression: Sun, drum, dance, community. “We had a lot of trouble with western mental health workers who came here immediately after the genocide and we had to ask some of them to leave. They came and their practice did not involve being outside in the sun where you begin to feel better, there was no music or drumming to get your blood flowing again, there was no sense that everyone had taken the day off so that the entire community could come together to try to lift you up and bring you back to joy, there was no acknowledgement of the depression as something invasive and external that could actually be cast out again. Instead they would take people one at a time into these dingy little rooms and have them sit around for an hour or so and talk about bad things that had happened to them. We had to ask them to leave.” ~A Rwandan talking to a western writer, Andrew Solomon, about his experience with western mental health and depression. Mental illness is often thought to be a matter of individual disorder. Modern psychiatry looks to features of individual experience, behaviour and thoughts to diagnose mental illness, and focuses on individual remedies to treat it. If you are depressed, this is understood as your response to circumstances, based on features of your genetics, disordered patterns of thinking, or personal problems and emotional states. Western treatment of mental illness follows these same individualistic lines. The individual is provided with medicine and therapy, which are certainly helpful. But such an emphasis on the individual can lead us to neglect communal approaches to treatment. Often overlooked are the ways in which social norms, cultural beliefs and communal attitudes contribute to mental illness. Ancient Chinese scholars understood this well. These thinkers recognised a number of mental and behavioural disorders as illnesses (bing), which were categorised and discussed in the earliest-known medical text in China, the Huangdi Neijing Lingshu Jing (the oldest parts of which date to the 4th century BCE). This text describes a number of mental illnesses, most prominently dian, marked by ‘unhappiness, headache, red eyes and a troubled mind’, and kuang, marked by ‘manic forgetfulness, flying into rages’ and ‘wild activity’, among other symptoms. Early Chinese medical scholars understood such mental illnesses to have a number of contributing causes, including overabundance of emotion, failure to control desires, the depletion of ‘vital energy’ from the organs – and the community to which one belongs. Mental illness is linked to emotion in a number of early philosophical and medical texts. A passage from the Guanzi instructs that harmonious and effective action is possible only in the absence of the kinds of extreme joy, pleasure and anger that can disorder the mind, leading it to ‘lose its (original) form’. The Zhongyong associates harmony (he) with the proper restriction of the emotions. A passage in the Huangdi Neijing reads: ‘When anger abounds and does not end, then it will harm the mind.’ Just as in the case of tools or machines, there are ways in which we can use our bodies that overtax or harm them, and thus cause injury and illness (including mental illness), according to ancient Chinese scholars. This is an astute insight into the nature of illness. The early Confucians recognised that individual behaviours are not due solely to individual character Today, we recognise the importance of communities and situations in some instances related to illness, but still hesitate to attribute illness to communal causes. The American Psychiatric Association (in the latest edition of its handbook, the DSM-5), for example, recognises the reality of situational mental illness, as well as illness in part caused by social and developmental factors. We recognise that overwork can lead to burnout, for example, and that traumatic events can lead to illnesses such as post-traumatic stress disorder and other conditions that the DSM categorises as ‘trauma and stressor-related disorders’. Still, might communities and their features be more central to causing mental illness than we think? According to ancient Chinese scholars, we can avoid illnesses caused by overabundant emotion (or treat them) by learning to restrain the mind. ‘Let the mind have no anger,’ instructs a passage from the Huangdi Neijing. However, achieving this requires more than just individualised approaches aimed at restructuring the way that ill individuals think about their experience. As helpful as treatments such as psychiatric medication or cognitive behavioural therapy are, they don’t address all the underlying issues that lead to mental illness. Features of the communities and cultures of which one is a member have great influence on the formation and expression of our emotions. It would be wrong to see anger, for example, as a universally natural response to certain events, independent of culture. Members of certain communities will be more likely to display or feel anger in given situations than members of other communities with different cultural norms governing emotion. The ways in which we evaluate and even experience emotions are influenced by elements of culture. In an interview in 2018, the Dutch cultural psychologist Batja Mesquita said: Many cultures don’t think about their emotions as something that lives inside of an individual, but more as something between people. In those cultures, emotions are what people do together, with each other. So when I’m angry, that is something that lives between you and me. Mental illness is often due to a combination of genetic predisposition and situational features. What calls for anxiety, anger, joy or other responses will almost always be in large part dependent on communal norms, of the kind integrated into the expectations and behavioural tendencies of individuals from a young age, through interaction with the community. This is why, for example, certain unfilial actions or disrespect of a parent or elder will cause enormous shame in certain East Asian cultures, but not in many Western cultures. Cultural factors also make certain groups, such as Asian Americans for example, less likely to seek psychiatric healthcare than other ethnic groups in the US. None of this would have been news to Chinese scholars such as the early Confucians, who recognised that the behaviours and attitudes of individuals are not due solely to individual character and decisions. This is the reason why Confucius taught that, if you wish to become virtuous, you must be careful whom you are around. He advised that we should take as friends only those who are at least as morally good as we are. Being part of harmonious and virtuous communities is necessary for the development of healthy behaviours, attitudes and emotions. If we are in bad, vicious or unhealthy communities, our beliefs, emotions, expectations and attitudes (among other things) will be disordered in critical ways. This is relevant when it comes to mental illness, because such illness is at least in part a matter of behavioural and emotional norms governed by society. Confucians would likely have said of our own modern world that the alienation created by the self-centredness required for modern economic and consumer culture plays a major role in driving mental illness. Tu Weiming, a contemporary scholar of Confucianism, writes that, according to the Confucian view, ‘self-centredness easily leads to a closed world … to a state of paralysis’. The kinds of community that promote self-centredness and self-concern – ranging from the seemingly innocuous concern with ‘defining oneself’, via various individual and consumer choices, to the corrosive lack of empathy or care for others in the community – are communities likely to inculcate in individual members behavioural and attitudinal traits that contribute to mental illness. We might disagree with ancient Chinese scholars on the exact nature of the connection between mental illness and emotions such as anger, joy or anxiety, but work in modern psychiatry suggests that we should take to heart their point about how communally influenced features of our behaviour and attitudes can contribute to causing mental illness and must play a role in treatment. As we try to address the widespread and seemingly increasing problem of mental illness in our modern world – the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention estimates that more than 50 per cent of the US population will be diagnosed with a mental illness or disorder within their lifetime, and that as many as 4 per cent of the population live with serious mental illness – we should take heed of the Confucian view. There is evidence that mental illness is increasing in younger members of society, along with increases in suicide and attempted suicide. Such increases in mental illness might say less about individual traits than they do about certain alienating and corrosive features of our society. As Confucius himself said: ‘The faults of an individual are in each case attributable to their group.’ While many efforts, including providing greater access to professional mental health treatment, should be part of our response to the problem of mental illness, we should also carefully and seriously consider which aspects of our shared cultures might be contributing to the rise of mental illness. A healthy community is also a thriving community.

i was getting shooting pain into my leg from my balls and one was really sensitive and i felt what i thought was a clear lump and one was bigger than the other, the gp said it was normal, but would send me anyway for ultrasound, there was nothing there. I worked myself up abit too. Id trust the gp they arent idiots, when it comes to this kind of stuff, they examine alot of people in there practice, if it was so easy to get it so wrong, they wouldnt be in a job long, i dont even trust doctors but i know that on examining they have to be pretty good, If he says its normal trust me he is aware of what the sandy thing should feel like and what is an indication of danger. Go back soon and tell them ur getting all sorts of pain and insist on an ultrasound if ur really that worried, but I think this is more about...how u deal with ur worry.

Everyone can get an unwanted groinal response at any time. Stop testing yourself, no point, get off the merry go round. This an endless cycle of rumination, u have a faulty brain and wiring system, live ur life despite it and focus on what u want and things u want to do, or this will just destroy u, or at least rob u of many many years. Id try not to dwell on it lest u lose ur identity in ocd, ocd sucks, but its biggest trick is making u believe its relevant to ur life. it isnt.

well i dont kno why i posted

its so bad i cant talk about it