northpaul

There is information about this on the OCD-UK site. Look at: https://www.ocduk.org/related-disorders/obsessive-compulsive-personality-disorder/

October

Hello Jennie. Firstly, can I ask if you have spoken to your GP or any other medical professional about the distressing feelings you are having? I note that you work in a hospital. Do they have Occupational Health people you can speak to?

If this is the case I would strongly advise you seek medical help. Have you ever spoken to a medical professional about your symptoms?

Trend

Walk

Looking to the forums can be helpful for you. I know from your postings over the last year that you have some understanding of mental health issues. Please bear in mind as you will know that there is help available through NHS 111, and other mental health helplines if you need it.

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Information

On a practical note you only mention that you set the seat 8 clicks back. Most cars have backrest adjustment and some have height and lumbar adjustment as well. Is it possible that after your last MOT the other bits had been moved. Those differences may be why it doesn't feel right now. From an OCD point of view I can remember when I did drive that I was also trying to find the 'perfect' setting. That has been a key feature of my OCD - everything has to be perfect. Unfortunately if 7.5 clicks would have been the perfect setting the reality is there is only 7 or 8 clicks. Once the 'driving cockpit' is set I guess the aim is get in the car and go without doing any seat position checks (assuming nobody else has been in the car). In my CBT therapy I learned to check once then move on. Repeated checking only serves to perpetuate the compulsion to check again and again (locked into repeat checking). Checking once then moving on does cause high anxiety. I found the more times I practice the one check and go the resultant anxiety does reduce and the need to keep going back to check also subsides. When my therapist suggested the one check and go idea I was in a state of high anxiety but I have learned by much practice and determination that it works. I now have more time to concentrate on the positive things that I want to do.

Stop

Go to your local pharmacy and speak with the pharmacist. There are non-prescription creams and ointments for this. For more detailed investigation speak to your Doctor or even the Practice Nurse. They can prescibe treatment and if you are in England that would be free.

Going back to yesterday's bit of this thread - what might you do to take back control? What positive things can you fill your mind with? The more I fill my mind with positive (beneficial) thinking - the less I want to keep checking back on the negative (unhelpful) stuff.

Last Friday I had a rare day out. My positive thought was go out and enjoy the day. My negative thinking kept saying what if this, that or the other goes wrong? I was mentally checking over and over. I planned to do something that I know I enjoy so I stood up to the negative thinking and said 'I am going out'. Who is in control here? I went out and enjoyed the day. OCD had to take the back seat.

I am listening. Looking at yesterday, how can you keep that in your mind to help you enforce your positive thoughts?

Decade

Have you tried looking at some form of sheltered accomodation (I dont know your age but I am in the 55+ category to qualify)? I am currently starting the process of a move to such accomodation due to my own mobilty issues. Have you tried to claim any form of disability allowance to help with your mobility? There is help available.

Nostalgia

Total

Thankyou for posting this encouraging news regarding your recovery progress. I agree with you that recovery can include many components as you have stated. My own recovery has been like that and not been dependent on any one method. I hope your CBT starts soon - that will add to the recovery progress you have made so far. 🙂