Lost_in_a_Dark_Maze

Well done! You have done amazingly well with all the challenges you have faced, and it's great that you would like to stay longer. You have my sympathy with the PMDD. It's my worst week of the month and I've been a ball of rage at times. Luckily I have my medicine again now though. I'm sorry you've had such awful weather for your last day. Good luck tomorrow!

How was the rest of your week?

Thank you, Angst. I suspected as much, but as I am often wrong when it comes to these things, I thought I'd check. On this occasion it is actually me with the rotting teeth and someone else who doesn't want my cup in the kitchen. I normally use disposable cups (because of my own OCD fears), but have run out of clean ones so wanted to rinse one. My teeth are bad because I haven't been looking after them. I desperately need to see a dentist, but cannot face it yet.

If someone has badly rotting teeth, so a lot of bacteria in their mouth, is it normal hygiene or OCD not to let them rinse their cup in the kitchen sink? Many thanks in advance for any insight.

That's fantastic, well done you!

Yes, it's Fluoxetine. It's only a small dose that I've been on since about age 14. It did calm me down a bit then. I'm not sure how much it does now, but I do seem to be worse if I miss a dose, even though it's supposed to have a long half life. I meant to say, I think I have PMDD too. Anyway, these are for you. Don't let anyone make you forget how much you're achieving!! P.S. Say hello to the sea for me.

You're definitely not alone. Everything you've described could so easily be me!! I totally get the anger thing. It really sucks, and feels uncontrollable. You're actually doing very well to be on the holiday doing things! P.S. I'm OK, but forgot to order my repeat prescription on time, so will run out before I get it. My mum is cross as she's the one who has to live with me!!

Me! I can very much relate. I'm sorry you're finding things so difficult. It's a lot to cope with, being in a new place, change of routine. I always find that makes my OCD worse. Is this your first night?

I would imagine that if you explained your circumstances they would exempt you from jury service.

I think it is standard procedure. I had to send in ID documents before I received the 'How Your Disability Affects You' form.

I've perhaps misunderstood. (Something I unfortunately do rather a lot!) Just to clarify, I didn't mean to imply that there haven't always been many very compassionate and empathetic people on this forum.

I am very happy that there has been a shift towards greater empathy and recognising that other conditions and circumstances affect sufferers ability to recover from OCD. I have been upset in the past by some users being told that they aren't trying hard enough.

Thank you, I hope so.

Thanks, Hal. I went outside a bit yesterday, as far as the doorstep and one step off it.

I'm afraid I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to say I hope you are able to enjoy your holiday once you get there. It's great that you are going. P.S. You're going to be in my neck of the woods!

Thanks Hal I'll try to get back outside soon.

Don't worry, it was late at night! Yes, it was a huge shock. Although I suspected they might one day become more than just friends when their respective spouses weren't around any more, I hadn't realised how far the relationship had already gone. I don't think they've actually slept together yet though, sorry if I implied that. I've never met him, but Mum says he's nice. She's had a lot if bad experiences with men (including my dad!), so I hope he really is. His wife has dementia and doesn't talk to him, though she does talk to other people. My dad would understand and be upset, but he openly flirts with the carers in front of my mum, so... After recovering from the initial shock, I can understand why they haven't waited, given their age and bad health. They've both been carers, so have lots in common, and deserve some happiness. He's still not well and Mum doesn't think he should have been sent home.

Hi BelAnna, That's OK. I know what it's like, my phone is forever running out. I'm afraid in my panic I explained very badly and seem to have totally mislead you! I'm so sorry. It wasn't my dad in hospital, it was my mum's 'friend', and it isn't my dad having the affair (this time - he has in the past before his stroke!) it's my mum, which totally threw me! Also I never planned to get in the taxi, just went outside with my mum because she was in a state and it was dark. I think I may have set myself back though as I'll now associate it with panic and bad things again. My mum sat with him in A&E all night then came home when, after doing lots of tests, they sent him home with antibiotics. I didn't get to bed until 10am, so have been asleep. How are you?

Thanks Gingerbreadgirl. I'm doing a bit better now. Will be going to bed soon.

Good night. Thank you again for taking the time to talk to me.

Thank you. I am still scared, but less so than I was, thank you.

It was at least a couple of hours since she'd left, but I've just heard from her, which is a relief!

Thank you, they are locked. I've just been listening to some music which is helping a bit. My mum said she would let me know when she knew what was happening, but I haven't heard anything and now I'm scared something has happened to her.

Thank you for replying. I'm not sure really, I just don't feel safe. And it feels like I'm all alone in the world.