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  1. Why has the victim not complained or outed you in all these years do you think?
  2. Caramoole

    Silly question

    Have you had therapy specific to OCD with a therapist experienced in OCD? It seems possible to me that although depression appears to be a major problem, it could be being mistaken and that existential-type OCD could be the driver. Have you made an appointment yet? The thing is for certain Bruces is that if you do want to improve your situation, you are going to have to play your part and engage with things, accept that you have a personal responsibility in your role to recovery.
  3. Caramoole

    Silly question

    You didn't have anywhere near enough sessions to make it effective, nor (if I understand properly) did the therapist sound to have the best approach. Despite the many problems it has, we still have an NHS and you have the right to be given treatment without cost. Your GP is the one who's ear you need to be bending and you're going to have to be firm and ask, don't be fobbed off with the long waiting list excuse (been there, done that for 30 odd years). You never will get up that long waiting list unless you get on it in the first place. Yes, you do have rose tinted glasses, we all have in varying shades but we're not going to go down the route of looking back any more than it's helpful to dwell on the meaning of life. All part and parcel of the same. We only have today and we have to deal with today. Your today means properly making a decision to properly start on the rumination problem and also making an appointment to go back to your GP. I'm sure they'll have an evening surgery, pick the phone up and make a date. Today Bruces.....that's where you're at
  4. Caramoole

    Silly question

    and probably the main thing that is keeping you so dissatisfied is your endless, daily search to answer that question. Your OCD. As you know from the hundreds of other threads you must have read, whatever your particular OCD manifestation (yours being existential), you can't ever solve it by carrying out compulsions. You say you try to distract yourself. I suspect that you probably just try to get on with your work and ignore it. You have to take it a bit further than that. You have to make an active, proactive stance to truly change your drifting into rumination. Rumination can seem automatic, because it becomes habitual it seems to happen automatically but it doesn't quite. You have to act like your own security doorman and be aware when your brain seems pulled into the cycle of trying to work things out. You have to acknowledge that's what's happening and actively stop the internal conversation you're so used to having. You don't engage in that conversation (and we can do that). You'll find that before long your brain is pulled back to wanting to work it out again, you repeat the procedure and work constantly to stop the cycle of rumination. It's hard work and you'll have to work at it over and over again, especially at first. Again, I'll say I feel you need some good therapy to help you. Have you been back to your GP? Have you stressed that you feel you need a referral to someone who can help you, to support you with CBT for OCD? If not, why not Bruces? I've asked a few times but you haven't answered this question
  5. Caramoole

    Silly question

    Okay, that's actually more helpful to you. You say you tried not to post but it got too much. What was going on in your head? How did the urges feel? We're you ruminating? Did you feel anxious? Explain how "You" we're feeling.......let's not Get into the question that you asked but the feelings, urges etc you experienced
  6. Caramoole

    Silly question

    Hi Bruce I'm not going to call it silly but it isn't going to help you. It is just another of the same questions that you often post and again, it's one we can't answer and also one that simply engages you in endless rumination and introspection, which isn't helpful to you. Have you been back to your GP? You really need to be referred to a therapist who can work with you individually
  7. I didn't expect you to be up at this time Les Mis.... my favourite. Get it watched.....and the elves book, it's delightful (when uncluttered by OCD doubrs)
  8. Roy.... Eons ago, when you were struggling, you downloaded a childrens book about the last elves on the planet. You couldn't read it. Do you think you could today? I remember one incident in my life when we were out on a dog walk and my Husband was letting the dogs go too near the edge of a really steep, dangerous ravine. I was hysterically shouting at him to keep the dogs away from the edge. He was baffled and more than a tad impatient at my hysteria, telling me there was no danger. I was having none of it. Some time later I saw that same dangerous ravine......it didn't exist, it was a slope that none of the dogs were in danger from, I couldn't believe my eyes. The distortion was ridiculous. Do you think you'd be safe and secure enough to revisit that book? It was an utterly enchanting book written for maybe 8/9 year olds........you experienced a similar thing to my ravine distortion. Not saying you should, just wonder if you could
  9. Okay....So what are the choices here? Trust those who do know more than a little bit about OCD, including your therapist.......and continue to work hard at implementing the advice.....or, concede you're the monster you believe you are and hand yourself in to the authoritie's, the Police and Social Services? I suspect you're going to tell me that you'll fear you'll lose your children and that you're really a good Mum. Which is it Saz? You can't have it both ways. So sorry to be tough (and this isn't my logic but yours) If you believe what you're trying to convince us of, then you'd use the last shred of decency and give up on your children. You won't because you don't actually believe it, do you? Having fears and strong feelings about something are hallmarks of OCD....you have lots of information to support that. So your thoughts tell you you're an abuser of young people.....is it true? Are your children safe in your care? (Your fear, not my concern) Come on Saz. Time to dig deep and do your level best to apply everything you've been advised
  10. Caramoole

    help

    And apologies for the typo's. Replying on my phone is rubbish!!
  11. Caramoole

    help

    Do your best Hope you get a good night's sleep. Tomorrow is a new day. Let's hope it's a better one
  12. Caramoole

    help

    It takes time sadly. Even when we don't obviously engage, the thought will continue and repeat. It doesn't just stop. It's likely after a couple of rounds you do get dragged back into ruminating orvpushing the thought away. It's a powerful and persuasive feeling, always. When it's tough, I try and think, Get Lost, I know What this is and I'm rewiring my brain, I'm not having this conversation ..... and I keep doing that over and again. Rumination is a typical, default response .....it takes repeat ed response to ignore it. Keep trying Helen. Know your enemy and (repearedly) keep refusing to go there. ...
  13. Caramoole

    help

    I'm sure you do ruminate. Most sufferers do. So, let's work out how you can move forward and challenge that
  14. Caramoole

    help

    Share how you're feeling Helen. Either dial that number or talk to a family member or friend and tell them how you're struggling
  15. Caramoole

    help

    Hi Helen As Gemma suggest's, if you're feeling suicidal and can't cope, ring the Samaritan's and talk to someone or reach out to family & friends and tell them you're not coping. You say you don''t do compulsions. You probably do but perhaps haven't recognised them yet. Let's try and work them out
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