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It just occurred to me that this theme lowkey shapes my life and hits me when I least expect it. Like when I was in a rush to have a problem solved and someone was in the bathroom, I made this motion that I was rushing to show them the problem so much that I wanted to get in the toilet to show them the problem. Not to perv on them, but because my delayed reaction OCD made me forget that it would be wrong to get in the stall just to show my phone to them.

These days, I try my best not to be too reassured, but I have this theme involving my body language when kids walk by and what is acceptable to talk about that I have never confessed to anyone. I sometimes worry that my body language in front of kids is way too pleasurable or suggestive, and this is a theme that was triggered way back in about 2014 when I saw this Facebook comment about Beyonce saying that her crossing her legs in front of Blue Ivy was way too suggestive, and while it didn't become a theme immediately, I guess it got embedded in my subconscious.

Even though I didn't know it was a movie?

Found my old thread while looking up ''bystander.'' I heard what I thought was a kid crying and thought that maybe someone slapped him, and it turned out not to be that and just a movie, and I felt horror after a few minutes, ''why did you not feel horrified enough to want to confront who you thought slapped him?''

Have you guys felt this? Personally, I added a few more drops of liquid to a liquid mess that I made and my OCD made me do that for some reason.

I was telling a morbid story to my online friends, and I had this thought that was like, "pfft, you're just using tragedy to change your goody-two-shoes image." And let's face it, I am trying to change that image.

Anybody else do it? Even when my conscious intentions aren't bad, there's a little part that worries about my subconscious intentions.

You mean you bump into them?

Does anyone else freeze when it's morally right to pull away from something because of their OCD and then they panic because of it, also because of their OCD?

It's been a while since I've been anxious like this, so I guess it's hard to deal with the thoughts when I haven't had to for a while.

This is basically the root of this problem. Things only trigger me because they remind me of this root cause. Otherwise, they wouldn't.

Actually, I don't even get triggered this often by social media, but when it does happen, it often hits hard.

The thread is gone, only this tweet, but you could easily guess what was in it.

Just looked up stuff about this dysfunctional family on Twitter assuming I wouldn't get triggered. I am a little triggered now, but I'll try to keep this theme as background noise.

OK, I guess I have the idea that he could just be in private chats that don't include me.