We are taking some time out to enjoy this lovely garden, and to get out and about our new hometown of Northampton.
Plenty of places to go, such as Althorp House and grounds, various other country houses and gardens, the canals and the canal museum, country parks.
Mentally we are both good and looking forward to this period of time.
This is the current state of our garden re-landscape project, with a few days work in decent weather needed to lay the perimeter paving, and the central new lawn.
We are hoping this will prove to be the last major building works project here for the reasonable future.
We have been through a challenging time since moving to this, our downsize bungalow retirement home in Northampton.
Illness, far too much stuff and having to reduce that, changing furniture to fit the property, fin
I have been pretty active on the boards recently, seeking to encourage others to follow a CBT path, learning how the illness works, stop believing and connecting with it, stare it out in ERP, and wean themselves off compulsions.
This can be a very hard slog; our brains are seemingly wired so that we believe the erroneous thoughts and feelings that are fed into them by OCD - and we sink deeper into the depths of subservience.
I would love to see a higher proportion of our bulletin boa
Wow, what awful weather we have been having Since storm Gareth, have they even bothered naming it?
The bottom fence of my garden is for replacing shortly as part of a complete re-landscaping and is hanging on in there thanks to support from some long round metal bird feeder stakes in the shape of shepherd's crooks.
So the weather is wet and windy - and arthritis has been playing up in my right knee - but in my head and my heart all is fine.
How come I feel like that? Well I wo
I work a full time job, it's a profession which is quite demanding sometimes and there's a fair amount of uncertainty which OCD loves!! I'm very grateful I have a good job and am able to work, I know what it's like when OCD takes that away from you, it's happened to me a few times.
I'm taking a more active approach to getting rid of my OCD at the moment which means I'm anxious a lot and my sleep is suffering but the challenge of doing this whilst meeting deadlines, dealing with clients an
We like September, with often-clear blue skies and mellow sun.
And it has been a busy, mostly enjoyable month for us.
Some ongoing medical issues: but we made progress on lots of fronts - and are now seeking someone to lay some paving and a base for, then erect, a new shed in the garden.
Our last surviving aunt is 94 and we visited her, my father's sister, last Wednesday in my hometown of Rugby. She is very frail, but her mind is still sharp and clear and she told me some infor
Wow this weather is amazing.
It's been a challenge working in the garden but I have chosen times carefully, and made lots of progress.
Julie my wife is really into her nesting in our new home, and I am pretty familmm iar now with the local area.
OCD-wise all is well, hasn't bothered me since last July, when it seems - from a topic I posted then, and provided a link to help a sufferer this week - that I had a blip.
I am more than ever convinced that, whilst a standard CBT
Spring is on the way, and the roads in our lovely village are lined with daffodils and decorative trees and shrubs in bloom.
In the garden of our bungalow, a squirrel is competing with the birds on our peanut feeder, and the wet weather is still preventing me from erecting my second UPVC garden store. The grass length is also demanding attention.
Inside the bungalow more homemaking is scheduled this week, with the erection of two wardrobes.
Julie will likely still need a hig
Wow what a last 10 months it has been!
As soon as I was able to close down my last episode of OCD - thanks to brilliant help from other members - we threw ourselves into the necessary remedial works to bring our house up to a sufficient standard to sell it.
It involved various disciplines, and quite a few different people - but the renovated house was put up for sale by our agents in early October there was a mad scramble of viewings and it sold within a day.
Then several days
Well it's been quite a while since my last blog regarding my cbt and erp journey. So I thought id do another update on my progress and how far I've come.
Im learning new things all the time, lots of new methods and new things to try with different approaches regarding my cbt, from changing the way i percieve and think about my thoughts and also my behaviour towards them. Learning how to stop myself ruminating and also detachment from my thoughts. Another hopeful step I will be taking short
I wish to thank my forum friends, but especially Snowbear and Caramoole for their specific vital insight, as I am feeling a lot better.
The stomach issues have eased away as too the tension in my muscles and the anxiety ; and as a result the Citalopram SSRI has kicked in again and I am feeling much happier.
We've had some fun together in the chatroom and it's been awash with love and kindness. And when snowy has dropped in my comic muse seems to take off!
We are moving on with
Well a combination of being really busy, better weather, and getting out and about has been helpful.
The bed project continues - we have a new double bed and mattress, plus a new mattress on our spare double bed.
This means overhauling the bedding scrapping old stuff, buying new.
And has started a new project of sorting and clearing what was dumped under the old bed.
The garden renovation project has re-opened, with tree surgery work on Friday and power-washing scheduled
Keeping busy and knowing things will get busier soon. We had a meeting with a neighbour today, and filled in a form together. I got out to the pub for a burger pint and a coffee, and i measured up ready to go and order a new bed.
I am still making negative interpretations of things - very negative bias. So , as I simply look to not respond to intrusions, do some happy emotion things each day, I am also very gently looking for the positive in situations and observations - very very subtly a
Am getting into other things and moving away from too much activity here, especially in the main support forum . Too much time thinking about the disorder hinders recovery I do agree with Caramoole. Also my negative bias has been throwing up other negative connections.
So am getting ready for more home improvements, and hobbies.
Am not planning to join other forums or social media, because they become commitments - i have plenty of local friends we can activate as wanted. Meanwhile
Not been a great time for me over the last few weeks, as the disorder has been dragging me down mentally and physically.
But with help in particular from my OCD-UK member friends Snowbear and Caramoole, and support from friends and wife, we have a better understanding and a sensible strategy I am now working.
I hope to make some more Autumn photo entries to the gallery, if the weather is favourable this coming week - and also plan to do a little work on my music and writing activities
Well it's been 3 months since i posted my first blog, so I thought it was about time to write a little update on my progress and a reminder to why i am doing this. I have suffered with OCD for over 40 years basically most of my life in many different forms. It took over my life completely till I became dependant on others to look after me, I could never be alone. It consumed my every moment and affects me in so many different ways, from going out, cleaning, cooking, writing, personal care etc it
It has been a busy year to date, but a beneficial one.
Lots of family liaison, with some falling outs and then reconciliation, plenty of travel and - thanks to the good weather - plenty of gardening and sitting outside.
Those family issues damage me - I tend to do well at the problem- solving then, when things are resolving, the aftermath of the stress hits me and my mental equilibrium gets challenged and I experience intense, upsetting, vivid dreams, and loose stools and headaches.
It's the first time I have joined any sort of social media and it took me a long time to write something on the forum. However I finally did pluck up the courage and I am so pleased I did. I was feeling really low and felt useless that I had failed trying to conquer my fears doing my cbt work. The more I did them the more worked up I became and the more I failed. I had got myself so worked up over the fact I was not seeing my psychologist for a few weeks that I felt I couldn't do it without the
Well the garden is blooming and we have been incredibly busy, leading to some stress in the last week,and me having to temporarily defer further ERP on a high hierarchy, the news, as I am not in a strong enough mental and emotional state.
But I have been making progress, and I have been keeping busy. I have lots of new roles to carry out, plus sufficient time for my hobbies which is nice; I am currently at my leisure club, and the bluebells wood is next door, so I will pop in for a walk.
It's been over a month since therapy ended, although it feels like it's been about three.
I found it difficult at first knowing I wouldn't have anyone to talk to about the difficulties I face. But I think those feelings were a result of therapy ending. Towards the end I had little to report in terms of ocd hardships. Just having someone explain "this is ocd. This is how you deal with it. It's going to be okay." Was such a relief and has been the most helpful thing. I wish I had got therapy s
I'm not really sure why it's been so long since I last posted - or, indeed, why I have posted today. The "place" has changed so much since I was here last. It amazes me how much work has been accomplished and how huge this organisation has become. There are people here who have dedicated their lives to helping others - I'm one of the others - and I can't tell you how much OCD-UK has meant to me over the years. (I mis-typed that and wrote "tears" - which is also pretty accurate!) To them I
Well it is now officially Spring, though it is freezing cold and snow is threatened
But you can't have everything.
I am a focal point for communication between our families so, in a short several day period of a lull in those proceedings, i bought myself a new pay as you go modest-priced smartphone.Having done some research, I decided on the Sony Xperia E4 - it is not 4g capable, but i don't need that, and I have been chipping away at setting up the phone just how I like it - it has been stre
As some of you know I had my last session of CBT this week. Today when watching TV I had an exposure (I suppose). For the past few weeks I haven't felt anxiety around the thoughts, but I haven't been exposed to them. If I've thought them, it's been of my own accord, as homework. After the exposure today I got a rush of anxiety, my heart sped up and I felt very aware of my thoughts and feelings. I have not ruminated. I am sitting with the anxiety. These thoughts have no meaning, they are a resu