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  1. In more bothered though as I was actually angry when I had the thought, which makes me think I’m capable and wanted to do it
  2. I was annoyed with my toddler earlier today and I got an image of me smashing his head against the wall, I now feel like a terrible mum for this coming into my head and also worried what if I got so angry I would act on it, I was angry when the thought popped into my head so it must have been a genuine reaction. Feeling so guilty
  3. I get thoughts mainly when I’m angry which freaks me out more because I think I must mean them.. anyway I get random thoughts of that I want something bad to happen to my little boy when I’m angry and they just come into my head but i obviously don’t want anything to happen to him because I love him more than anything in the world. But why do these thoughts pop in when I’m already wound up.. it’s making me think I am a bad mum or that I can’t love him as much as I think I do. Most people’s intrusive thoughts are a fear that they may act out but mine are like thoughts of actually me wanting things to happen. Does anyone else every get anything like this?
  4. I get thoughts in my head sometimes about say banging his head against the wall or throwing him down etc.. these thoughts are very distressing and what worries me more is that I get them when I’m annoyed at him for instance when he won’t go asleep or he’s crying non stop etc.. does this mean because I’m annoyed when I get them that I actually want to do these things and I am a horrible mum? I love my little boy more than anything in the world but don’t understand why I have these thoughts when I’m angry. I thought you only got these type of intrusive thoughts randomly not when actually annoyed. X
  5. Why do they always surround the people we love the most, is it normal with OCD to feel as though you actually do believe the thoughts?
  6. My dad passed away 3 months ago and I've been getting these awful thoughts about him and I feel terrible for even thinking this. I have had thoughts in the past about me being a peadophile etc and now I'm getting them about my dad and that I think these awful things about him. I'm starting to think I believe them in my head. They have only started since he died. Why am I getting these awful thoughts
  7. I worry if given the opportunity, would I cheat? I suppose I can't torture myself with wondering what if forever, it's the scenarios in my head I have to imagine in order to try and make myself see how I would feel if I were with someone else, they never make me feel better, just more confused . I feel guilty on my boyfriend who loves me and would never imagine me having these awful thoughts about him. i think also a part of me feels as though I should be feeling this head over heels in love feeling like you see in the movies, although I can't imagine everyone has a relationship that perfect. I suppose polar bear I should not be giving these thoughts my time but as you know, it's not easy to do. Sick of doubting everything
  8. Hi, I'm having thoughts regarding my relationship with my boyfriend A LOT lately, I can't stop noticing other attractive men and thinking to myself that I must find them more attractive and I would rather be with someone like that, I'm trying to imagine if I would be happy in my head with someone who's better looking and I don't know how I would be feel, sometimes I think I would be happy and it's tearing me up. I don't know if I'm genuinely happy with my boyfriend now for even looking or thinking about other men. I'm worried what if im settling etc?? I can't cope with these constant thoughts torturing me my boyfriend treats me amazing and loves me to pieces but he isn't the typical type I would have usually gone for so this is adding doubts to whether my thoughts must mean I don't want to be with him also I worry that if someone I found attractive were to pursue me or ask me out, that I would want to take it further.
  9. I've recently got into a new relationship, well about 6 months ago. I'm getting all these thoughts about what if I would be happier with someone else and if I find someone more attractive would I rather go out with him? I'm worried I can't love him to even have these thoughts. I'm trying to imagine a scenario in my head of me with another man and I don't know if I like it or not, I shouldn't feel this way if I am happy in my relationship should I? Really fed up of doubting everything in my head
  10. I wouldn't think that they were a paedophile as spanking isn't something that happens to only children? I'm questioning in my head if this means I would get turned on by a baby being breastfed as maybe that's why I enjoyed it so much
  11. Hi, I really don't want to have to tell anyone this but I feel so bad and questioning if I could be a paedophile I watched some adult porn and it was of a woman breastfeeding another older woman and I got turned on to this, it did NOT involve any children but does this make me a paedophile because the act itself is intended for babies and children. I feel sick with myself and I don't know who I am or what I feel. I've been feeling bad again with my intrusive thoughts anyway and feeling like an evil person but this has made me feel a million times worse.
  12. I know but I can't get past this guilt I really believe I am a horrible person deep down I'm having cbt but obviously it isn't helping me. Don't know what else I can do. All I want to do at the moment is tell someone close to me all my bad thoughts so they can make me feel better and that I am not evil. I want to get past this but everyday it's a different thing
  13. Feeling depressed and evil again. I really just need to get this off my chest. I'm constantly getting bad thoughts about loved ones and when I'm annoyed with them etc I start getting horrible thoughts that i want something bad to happen. It's as though they aren't my thoughts but it worries me that because at that moment I'm angry or whatever, that I want these things to happen? I feel guilty all the time because of this and think If they knew my thoughts they would all hate me or something. Also something else there's a girl I remember from a few years ago and I never liked her because she was friends with a guy I liked, well anyway, I've just heard news that she has passed away and when I heard I kind of felt like I was glad or something along those lines and now I feel so evil and believe that I must be a sick person to even have that thought. I don't know how to cope with all of this
  14. What do I do though to stop this guilt? I feel as though I don't deserve people to be nice to me because if they knew the thoughts that come into me head..
  15. I feel absolutely awful for having these terrible thoughts come into my head everytime im angry with someone. It happened today I was mad at my best friend and I started getting all these evil sick thoughts about something bad happening to her and if I would even care. It's like they aren't my thoughts though. I know I'm looking for reassurance but does anyone else experience this? im feeling so guilty.
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