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kittypurry

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  • OCD Status
    Sufferer
  • Type of OCD
    checking and some contamination

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    Female
  • Location
    uk

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  1. I agree it really annoyed me how Eamonn kept talking over him. And I do feel Adam didn't get nearly enough time to tell his story. Adam is great though and pulling the trigger is an excellent book.
  2. I have seemed them used but never knew what they meant.
  3. How funny I thought it was just me. I HATE being cold. I really do find it makes me more anxious. Maybe it's something to do with the shivering and your body trying to work harder to keep warm. Who knows.
  4. I like to take a walk round my neighbourhood as well. I find it quite soothing watching people out and about washing their cars, walking dogs etc. I love reading and I try and read everyday. I try and eat well but I always make sure to treat myself as well. I try not to spend too much time on the Internet as it is a stimulant. I try and make sure I have enough sleep. I also always make sure to keep warm and cosy. I find being cold makes my anxiety worse.
  5. Periods change as we get older. There is no normal and my cycle can vary anywhere from 25 days to 35 days.
  6. Stay strong my friend and glad you are feeling better x
  7. Bless you. I agree with Mark, don't be so hard on yourself. You shouldn't leave, especially if as you say you are feeling scared and alone. Have you thought about becoming a member? If you can become a member you have access to the central perk part of the forum where we all talk about non ocd stuff. Like movies, books etc. It's a good distraction and it may help you. Look after yourself and be kind to yourself.
  8. Haha I like your thinking. One of my favourite dishes is chilli and I haven't cooked it in years because it involves using the hob. Your post has made me remember how much I miss cooking this actually. Maybe I should cook it at the weekend. X
  9. Thank you for your reply Jack. Taps are one of my worst and something I really need to work on. However I have been making good progress and even been cooking on my hob. The first time in just under a year. Like you suggested I have been delaying the checks and it has gotten to the point on some occasions where once the intial anxiety and panic has subsided I no longer feel the need to go back and double check. And it does surprise me sometimes just how quickly on occasion the anxiety and thoughts calm down. I guess it's all down to building up my confidence and trust in myself.
  10. I notice in the brain lock book when addressing the compulsions of persistent checking it is suggested to check only once but to do it in a mindful fashion. For example to check once that the cooker is off in a slower more concentrated way. The theory being that when the obsession rears its ugly head you will be able to replay the scene in your head when you turned it off, because you have turned it off mindfully rather than quickly and automatically. However I have noticed sometimes that when I try and apply this method my brain starts to question if the check I did was mindful enough. For example say I have used the grill and I make a concious effort after I have used it to turn it off slowly, paying attention in quite a rigid focused way that I am DEFINITELY turning it off. However afterwards I have sometimes noticed myself obsessing whether I have turned things off mindfully enough. And then I get an unsettling feeling that if I haven't turned it off mindfully enough maybe it isn't off at all. I also find the theory about replaying the mindful image of turning something off or checking it to be bordering on rumination. For example if I can't remember perfectly that I have turned something off then I doubt whether I did. However in the book it is suggested that when the obsession creeps back in that you haven't checked or turned something off it is helpful and beneficial to be able to replay the mage in your mind of when you turned it off mindfully. This I sometimes find counter productive because I can get in a state whether my checks have been mindful enough so I'm constantly replaying the image in my head of when I did my mindfullness checks for absolute certainty that what I checked was off. This is what I mean about it feeling like rumination. Where am I going wrong?
  11. Hi there and welcome. I think that's a good idea about the chat room.
  12. Good article. Needed this. I have had awful brain fog this morning from constant rumination. I am recognising now when I am ruminating though, although not right away. Today I spent five mins just looking out the window at the birds in the tree. Just trying to gently pull my mind back to the present whilst doing deep breathing. One thing I find very helpful when ruminating and the noise in my brain is so loud is to imagine turning down a volume knob on a stereo. It's like I'm turning the volume down on my thoughts.
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