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Yes to this. Stop congratulating yourself, because you also know that this is just another attack from your OCD. And i would also like to say that i can relate to losing sex-drive due to the obnoxious thoughts which OCD throws at you. But you have to see it as another dirty trick from the OCD. And not remotely close to facts.

Thanks. Next time i go to the psychologist will i sit straight as an arrow, take him in the hand with force and not doing tics. I am always moving on the chair and that can be autistic (a sign). I get massive anxiety so i started to even do more tics and i got clumpsy. I know that a serious doctor will do a deep investigation. It is just that i am so uncertain now, what exactly am i supposed to be if i am autistic? Should i judge based on my obsession, my interests, how i perceive others and their emotions, how i am functioning in life, how i look in the mirror? Like what exactly makes me autistic? I don't know... When i am doing those tests where you answer yourself do i always get low results. When i do this test do i get results which says that i am neurotypical, to the left and upwards. Very very little on the right side and medium at the bottom. NOW, this test doesn't matter right? Because the foundation in autism is that you can't recognize feelings in other people, so what i am saying is that a test is not really important (where you selfreport)

I did a test with short videoclips (faces and situations) and i scored more closely to people with ASP than with neurotypicals. I feel like i have lived a lie my whole life, if i have autism do i feel like everything have changed. I am not what i thought i was. And the doctor said that i don't have OCD so why bother? No but seriously i feel confused, conceded and hoplessness. And now did i start to cry. "conceded".. i have never used that word before but now will i start to obsess about all the feelings you can feel and name them. I don't want to stick out..

So accordingly to one test with movies and faces when they are on movie do i have numbers more close to asp than neurotypicals, but i need to translate the words because i am not fluent in english. I just don't know anymore. He said i don't have OCD, so then i should just stop treating all this like OCD i guess

I know i do but he sounded so sure. He had seen 60-70 cases JUST LIKE ME. I am the most sarcastic person i know. I see myself as a person who likes to speak about feelings. So what more is left with this autism? I am more introvert than extrovert but that doesnt make me autistic. But yes i am analyzing now. I took photos of myself to see if i look like a autist

Man, you are beating yourself up so hard. Please don't do that. I know it sucks but you are only encouraging the OCD to keep doing its thing. See it for what it is, do not let it kidnap you and fooling you. Are there something you enjoy to do? I mean shortterm? Try to not ruminate about past mistakes and all the time OCD have took from you. I can relate to being angry at OCD for taking up so much time, at the same time do the OCD in the moment seems to make sense. Take care

I am thankful for all the replies. I did tests yesterday and i can tell what emotion a person is feeling when judging the face. I did all tests a man on a forum for autism gave out. It just dont ring any bell at ALL. And i have extremely hard ro take a man who give a diagnosis after 10min. And then says that u don't have OCD i havr autism and as first proof of this do he say "OCD responds very well to medication and therapy". Medication -NO. Therapy -yes, but when did i get through a complete routine?!?! I will meet the psychologist but it will be very clouded by this experience and i will only try to reclaim my diagnosis. What a nutjob!

I am considering making a complain, but i need to know first what i can say in the mail. Exactly, i said that many times that he was unprofessional and that it was unserious to put out a diagnosis without tests. It is funny because i have been obessing about psychopaths and narcissists and i meet such a doctor.. And i hope i am not comming across as judgemental to people with autism.

I hope i don't come across as judgemental towards people with autism. It is just WOW, i was talking to the psychologist and didn't care too much about the doctor, then from nowhere do he say "you don't have OCD you are on the spectrum (autismspectrum)." So i asked why he thought that, and he answered "if you have OCD do you respond to CBT and medication". It was not even so much about me having Pure-O, because i just started to explain my obsessions, he concluded that because i was not responding to medication. And when i asked him what you are supposed to treat obsession in autism did he not really give an answer, he didn't even answer if you could have OCD and autism at the same time. so what did he really mean? Then when he had said that was it a uphill-battle. Because i quickly understand that he was not an expert on OCD. And he started to tell me what he worked with. And he had seen soooo many like me. So he know...

So i have done tests on the internet, and i can see what emotion people have when i only see the eyes i also did good at judging who feelt a feeling the most. Sure i am an introvert and i often prefer to be on my own before being social. But that doesn't make me autistic Autism is the last diagnosis i would thought about. Seriously. Ali Greymond answered me, i just needed to know what she thought. Can't believe people like this are supposed to help people.

I have been obsessing about psychopaths and narcissists lately and that was my instant reaction. Everything he said after this stupid comment made me question what he said. Yes i will meet the psychologist, i hope i am not offending anyone with autism, but i don't see it (autism) in myself, i really really don't. It is not wrong to have autism but i don't want to have it because i just don't see it! They said that one can get an investigation, but that would be wrong in a sense, because it WOULD ONLY be because i want't to get this off my chest. And such an investigation include speaking with my family and doing intelligence-tests. It may sound silly but i don't want to know about my IQ!

So i am starting to come down but this was a new experience for me. I have always had good doctors. He said so many stupid things. But the thing which got me is that he said "you don't have OCD, you are on the autismspectrum". Well yes he actually said that, and it is so frikking stupid, i am lost of words. I will just classify him as an idiot. I mean really?! So you can't have autism and OCD, that was new to me! The closest he got to any actual information was when he said you treat compulsions different when you have autism. So did he actually recognize that i have OCD? But then did he say: "IF YOU HAVE OCD DO YOU RESPOND WELL TO MEDICATION AND THERAPY".. WOOOOOOOW.

Thanks my friend. It is just he came across as totally toxic and it is sad those people are supposed to be experts!!!!! I got massive anxiety i even told them that i got triggered. I will meet the psychologist because i want ERP. I mean after 10 min... he just said. YOU DONT HAVE OCD YOU HAVE AUTISM.

It is just what he said you dont have OCD you habe autism. So i asked him what he thought about the fact that people with autism can have OCD. On that he answered that if you have autism do you treat it in another way. Which makes NO SENSE. Just because i didnt have """normal""" compulsions did it mean i didnt have OCD. And that was the reason i haven't got over it. So i have been ruminating about psychopaths lately and i meet someone who i think is something like that. He also talked about how much experience he had. It was never ddebatimg about how you treat it. It was just I HAVE EXPERIENCE.

I mean i got huge anxiety. I am certain i have OCD and this person come across as pure toxicity. It is just that he is a psycjiatrist abd his words matter. Even if it makes NO sense what he said. Like if you have OCD do you respond well on medication and therapy............ Welll NO. That is not true. With the therapy yes but i habe never done the work. Now i will meet the psychologist again and i will speak with him about this. He asked if someone have ever tolded me that i habe autism. So i answered no on that. So then did he say that people had said that in between the lines

I think he was outright mean. The core of the matter is that he said tjat i dont have OCD my problem is autism and if i treated autism will my OCD go away... When i am looking him up is he in the register of misbehaving i cant see from here why exactly. But this was the worst doctor i have ever meet for sure! He also said when i said i had taken benzo that people with autism shall not take benzo because they get dependent.

So i have huge anxiety now. Could i get some help. I meet a doctor and a psychologist just now. I wanted a new try with CBT-therapy. So i spoke with the psychologist for 10 minutes and didnt spoke much with the psychiatrist. Then after 10 minutes did the doctor said loudly YOU DONT HAVE OCD. You have autism. So i got huuuuge anxiety. I honestly think it was a sadist because he said many strange things. He asked me if i had taken benzo or medication because i yawned once. And he said i cant go on like this with my life. Disability. So i told him i think it is unprofessional and that i was offended because you are not supposed to put a diagnosis after 10 min.... When i asked why he thought i had autism and not OCD did he say things like if you have OCD do you respond well to therapy and medication...... He also said that other people had said that i had autism. When i meet a psychologist to get a new appointment did she write a letter to this clinic and he said they she had wrote that i had autism. So i know that many people are having problem with doctors and such but this was my very first time i meet a such bad doctor. But i know what you are supposed to ask - so i asked what Ali Greymond says. Ask them how many they have treaten so i did that. Hr just answered that he had experience. So i will meet the psychologist in 1month but i will not meet the doctor again. All input ate welcomed! I am sorry if this text is unclear because i have huge anxiety from what i think is unprofessional and

Need to stop posting those threads about how you are supposed to feel. Is this ok? Is that ok? Should i feel this way or maybe that way? Hmm what if? Stop asking yourself.

There is no way around it. You need to leave the bed and do other things while you feel like the worst human. Sit with everything it tells you. Or you will go another 5 years. How have all this thinking worked out for you?

No it is obsessions and you want reassurance. You should try to stop yourself from making these threads, even if you get no reassurance is it bad to type it out. However i know it is hard. Follow your therapist and stop secondguessing what she is saying.

You shouldn't make all those threads about the same thing.

You are obsessing and all your latest answers are just more obsessing. Go out and walk and afterwards do you read the thread once again (the answers) and really think about what they are saying without letting your head engaging. Take care and have a nice day!

Yes please keep up the work. 5-6 weeks are not enough for it to go away. But that feeling of total panic will go away i share your experience, it goes from TOTAL PANIC to a fear in the background, it is a strange feeling and i can't explain it fully. But it is much better than that panic in the start.

Yes it is. however i do find that when it gets easier do i get lazy and less aware of other compulsions, so try to be as powerful as in the beginning of your recovery. Last time when it switched was just how OCD works, if you have done the work have you exposed yourself and the OCD have lost some of the power. This is the final step so to speak, OCD just switching themes is not recovery Give it more time and most importantly keep doing the right thing

OCD is serious, it can make you depressed and consume all your time. You can't keep on doing this, testing yourself and researching. But now when OCD have lied to you all the way down to the bottom where you want your life to end maybe you can see that OCD is not intresting in giving you a final answer. OCD only wants you to engaging even if makes you miserable.