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Today I had a really strong panic attack when my girlfriend picked me up after work, so I started to ruminate on my intrusive thought how I felt about them, and worst part was that my selective attention went into hocd intrusive thought and I felt this wierd tingling in my chest and I wanted to feel more panic than that because it caused me to have emotional pain. This showed me that mental pain is worst than physical effects of panic attak.

@FlyingRocketNever, she knows that I'm suffering from hocd and she knows how ocd works. She doesn't reassure me. Also even helped me to show that I'm not not by saying "oh you are not gay blah blah" She actually showed me the cognitive biases that makes me think that I might be gay, so I can see for myself logically that this is just ocd tricking me.

I never took sertraline but I Heard that side effect are bad but they go away after few weeks. I take escitalopram, it has less side effects. Best is to talk to your psychiatrist so he can help you

Hi, did anyone suffered from hocd or pocd dreams?

I learned them from medical Articles and from my therapist she teaches me about them, if I learn something myself I always ask my therapist for her opinion and she always tells me more. Plus she also gives me CBT homework with cognivite biases because they make us suffer.

@FlyingRocket There are two reasons how ocd tricks you with that, first your body gets aroused and you start to feel anxiety at the same time. Anxiety can be mistaken for arousal, second thing may be that your body gets aroused and as human beings we are designed to like physical arousal, you get confused because you hate the thought ?

Hi ! I have this question, how do you expirience anxiety? at the same time as Thoughts, urges, sensations, feelings or first Thoughts, urges, sensations, feelings then anxiety ? If anxiety comes second what do you feel when you have intrusions before anxiety kicks in? Is it always anxiety ? or maybe mental discomfort, stress, gulit, shame or frustration ? ?

Maybe ocd is genetic in your family, best way is to get some help for him so he can be happy again.

@lonelygirl91Because you don't feel anxiety to this thoughts when you check doesn't mean you like it. This is a typical ocd cognitive bias that not having anxiety means liking or enjoying. I dislike many things and I don't feel anxiety when I think of them or see them I just know I dislike this things and I feel happy and move on. If you don't get anxiety this means this thought is not important. Last night I had thought of someone dying from my family and I still felt alright I was like " whatever it's just a thought" then I realised it didn't cause me any anxiety so I started to worry and get anxious so I was still geting anxiety like You do right now. You don't feel anxious so you think you must like it now and you still get anxious, so this means you don't like it. Sorry for reassurance ? PS. I'm going through the same hell sometimes like you

To be honest, You are not your brother even if he did those things you couldn't do anything about it. He is struggling with he's own demons. You should tell Your boyfriend what's going on, it's better this way than to keep a secret because this can make you obsess even more. It's even safer for Your and your boyfriend if he knows what's going on with your brother. Help as much as you can so he can get better and if you are scared of him, make sure to tell this to the police next time so they won't let him slip away and get him some help ?

We are not doctors in here, so best thing to do is book him and appoitment to a good psychiatrist, it sounds like anxiety disorders maybe ocd or somatic anxiety. I hope Your Dad is going to get the right help and feel happy again ! ? If You decide to help him with psychiatrist, please update what's up with Him. Best of luck for Your Dad and You ?

I have this too, my mind is all over the place, brain fog, sometimes derealisation. Intrusive thoughts cause this mental discomfort that makes me sleepy. I rather sit and look at the wall because of this, instead of doing something useful. I get anxious when I feel fine, it's like "why am I feeling fine? it must be something wrong with me" because I'm not used to feel fine because of my OCD for 17 years now. I'm on 15mg escitalopram now maybe that's way.

OCD is an ideal candidate disorder to examine pathological cognitive biases. ? What kind of cognitive biases do You expirence? or misinterpretation of feelings ? I always suffer from mistaking anxiety for arousal or exicement. Groinal responses are also one of them, sometimes when I have intrusive thoughts or dreams that trigger my hocd I get wierd feelings that make feel bad and I name them " oh this must be arousal or this means I like it" , even writng this gives me groinal responses for some reason. I also have this cognivite bias that not having anxiety means liking, I learned that to show that I don't like or I don't want intrusive thoughts I must have anxiety instead of being aware that I simply don't want or don't like my intrusive thoughts. So this gives me anxiety about not having anxiety. ? I work on my cognitive biases with my therapist. ? Does anyone else have any ?

I quit drinking few months ago because of Hanxiety, Even I knew I didn't do anything bad when I was drunk my OCD was still trying to trick me with gulit feeling so I was wondering if I did something bad because why would I feel this way. My anxiety was bad really bad. I started to doubt myself but now when I see this now I know this was typical OCD. Doubt, gulit, rumination, false memories and anxiety ! Next time eat well, lots of vitamins, minerals and hydrate yourself. Best way is to quit drinking like I did.

OCD is a doubt disease you seem to doubt if you are a bad person, "what if" is what's keeping us in OCD cycle. I have mixed personality disorders including a little of borderline and sometimes I hate myself and after ocd attack I ask myself, why do I have it ? why me? I used to cry to myself in bath or when I was alone. I wanted to be someone else so my small borderline used to show up, so I looked up to other people and I tried to be like them. Once I learned that I have to accept myself it went away, because we don't see what other people are going through inside. My therapist went through depression and told me that everyone has problems inside them, There is a saying in Poland "Everyone carries their own cross". ?

Typical ocd trick, magical thinking and groinal response ?

@FlyingRocket Any sexual thought can cause physical arousal, it doesn't matter to our primitive part of the brain what the content is. When we get information about anything sexual in nature sometimes our primitive connections work faster than rational part of the brain, and we get physically aroused but in our mind we don't want to be aroused by this kind of thoughts. Also in ocd the more you are trying to not to be aroused you can get physical arousal, this is called arousal non concordance. Here are five links that can help you with your sexual obsessions, you can also read about it on wikipedia, I hope this isn't going to be deleted This is my TOP 5 articles that helped me with hocd, pocd and any other sexual ocd themes. This articles helped tons of people I hope they can help you and other who are reading this. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sexual_obsessions https://impulsetherapy.com/groinal-responses-in-ocd-what-they-are-and-why-they-happen/ https://moodsmith.com/hocd-feeling-aroused/ https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/symptoms-of-ocd/#TypesAndExamplesOfObsessions https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/whats-going-ocd-arousal Reasons why I'm posting 5 articles is because they all cover arousal in ocd to the piont that everyone can understand them and get over their ocd.

Recovery can take a long time for some people faster but for some slower, you need to sit down with Your boyfriend and talk to him about ocd and how you feel and what he can do to help You

I had ocd "attack" as I called it, 3 moths ago and my therapist told me I can get psychotic if I continue wth my ocd, I had severe depression and didn't want to live anymore, I ended up in hospital, They put me on medication so my depression and panic attack go away, few days later I was like a new man, my depression and anxiety which I thought I would never beat went away. Suicide is the worst end, You don't want to waste your life, because life is going to only get beautiful if you get help. God bless You! I hope you get help and be happy! Sending best wishes from Poland !

I went through this many times, checking every sound, everything in the corner of my eyes and many more. I felt paranoid, asking people if they heard or saw the same thing. Worst where sounds at night I was so hypersenstivie I thought I heard neighbours TV and everything I saw with the corner of my eyes it felt like hallucinations. Pareidolia was the worst seeing faces in objects was so scary I thought I was having psychosis. My therapist told me this was because of hyperawarness, fight or flight mode created by anxiety. You're not losing contact with reality and you don't hear voices or see things that aren't there. This is typical schizoOCD, you're not alone in this. You're not going to have schizofrenia, this is another ocd theme.

I have the same problem, but being anxious because of not having anxiety is still anxiety. The more you are trying to feel anxiety the less you are going to feel it, but you are still having anxiety. Also there is a cognitive bias, that anxiety means you don't want or don't like something. You don't need to feel anxiety to know you hate something. For example I hate onions but if you show me an onion I'm not supposed to feel anxiety, but dislike to know I don't like it and I won't eat it. Same goes with intrusive thought, images, sensations etc. You know you don't like it and don't want to act on them, you don't need anxiety to prove that.

I take 10mg of escitalopram here in Poland, I take 10mg 2 hours before going to sleep and sometimes I could not sleep for first few weeks. That's why I took the lowest dose of Quetiapine for three weeks which is antipsychotic/antidepressant. In the lowest doses it helps people with insomnia I took 12,5 mg which is the lowest dose possible. I had to brake the tablet in half because they don't produce such low doses, the lowest is 25mg. For some people Escitalopram makes them sleepy and for other works opposite but this is only for first few weeks then your body is going to adjust. Best is to talk to your doctor, maybe you should take escitalopram in the mornings?

These are intrusive images when You close your eyes, ocd makes people misunderstand a lot of things. I used to have this as well, even when I saw something with the corner of my eyes I thought I have seen something and this is completly normal when you are anxious. With anxiety people are hyperaware of their sourrounding and what they see, smell and hear or even touch. Even if these were hallucinations which are not, this doesn't make anyone crazy. It's completly normal to have hallucinations even for healthy people. I even had intrusive pareidolia but this is just because of anxiety, that's what my therapist told me. Once my ocd theme changed it went away. Occupy yourself with something interesting even if this occurs and it will slowly disappear. That's how you beat ocd, you stop giving it power and it fades away. This theme of ocd is sometimes called schizo-OCD which is fear of schizophrenia or "going crazy". People who are going "crazy" don't notice anything wrong with hallucinations, they don't judge like you do so this shows that this is just ocd. I have been through this many times, if You feel really anxious feel free to message me PS it's very common in anxiety disorders to have fear of going crazy ?

Poeple don't want to be gay because it would change who their are, logical part of mind knows this is just a OCD illusion yet the illogical fear feels so real that's why we have hocd. For me it's disgusting not in a homophobic way. I accept people with different orientation there is no problem with that. It's similar with people with POCD some people are pedophiles and why won't they accept it ? It's about not accepting the illusion of OCD because why would someone accept that their are something that they are not ? That's why it's hard to live with accepting something you are not.

I suffer from HOCD and other sexual OCD and I had worst groinal responses you can have. From tingling and constant checking if I get erection to unwanted orgasms. Last time I had time with myself I was always affraid to climax because of intrusive thoughts because I was affraid to like these thoughts during orgasm. I was close to orgasm but I stopped then I saw a trigger for a split second and I was affraid to get aroused, this caused me to have anxiety and unwanted climax, trust me this stuff is traumatic. But let's get back to the topic, the more you are trying not to be aroused you ocd will create physical arousal not subjective, this is called arousal nonconcordance. We are created to like physical arousal or tingling in our genitals but this doesn't mean you like the trigger. Worst part about this is reading sensations or unwanted arousal as emotional responses. OCD is trying to trick you, I've been there and it's a nightmare. Best way is to understand what happened which is OCD and let it go.