MissSparrow07

If it’s any consolation I’m going though the same worries currently with my stomach, mine came back as a folate defiency, but of course my brain doesn’t accept this and it’s going to be the worst case scenario, or the doctors got it wrong etc. I’m just trying to take each day at a time, using distractions and progressive muscle relaxation to try and help. Otherwise I think of it as a storm to ride through, you’ll get to the other side eventually, but it’s a hell of a journey to get through it. Hope you feel better soon!

I get it, I really do. Brain is a horrible thing, but you are getting reassurance from this forum (which is good cos it's help but bad long term cos you'll keep needing to seek reassurance) Have a read of this: http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forum/ocd-and-intrusive-thoughts/sexual-ocd-and-groinal-response-which-not-actual-arousal Hopefully it will help, but the best thing to do is try to accept that your brain is lying to you, OCD is cunning, it will try and argue back every single way, like a stalemate in chess. Accept it is not you, it is an illness and hopefully that will get you on the road to feeling better.

There is a great thread (somewhere on here I can't remember) about groinal responses. I suffered these two with both my stepsister and my cousins. Physical contact felt disgusting to me, and if I was thinking about them just generally and had a groinal response I would blame myself and think all sorts of things. Issue is, we don't have control over our bodies, groundless responses can come at any time be it thinking about goldfish to your family to school etc. Please se don't do anything rash or harm yourself, get help! I have been in your position and come through the other side and I very very rarely even get these thoughts anymore! There is hope!

Lily, I agree with OceanBlue. The fact that these thoughts are consuming you AND you are distressed/feel guilt surrounding them seems to suggest that OCD is at play. If you did have these tendencies you most likely wouldn't be worrying about them like this As I said in previous posts, I suffered terribly with these thoughts too. But with the help of this forum, an understanding doctor and medication, I can cope with my OCD now. Remember OCD is an illness, just like a cold. I hope you feel better soon!

I found medication helped me greatly, sertraline. I also had 6 sessions of CBT with the best therapist ever who I can't find now But it took me a good year or so, I still do get OCD moments as I call them, but I find that it has become easier to go okay, this is OCD, move on. It doesn't always work but from crying and having hundreds of thoughts a day, I'm now 9 years down the road and have maybe 1-2 bad episodes a year The future of bright, even if it doesn't feel like it.

Hi, I too suffered terribly with these thoughts, but they focused on younger family members at the time. I couldn't bear to hug them or be near them because my mind would manipulate it into something inappropriate. One of the best things I found (probably not useful now) but was exposure therapy. So not being afraid of the hug or whatever, and if there was a groinal response or thought, label it as OCD. Detach it from yourself, it's not you thinking this, its OCD. I also was taught a technique of clenching my muscles working from my feet up to my head, each for 10 seconds and then picturing myself somewhere calm, like a boat or something you would find calming. I really found it calmed me and it was the only way I could sleep before my meds. Hope this helps and that you feel better!

Anyone got any advice?

Also in my earlier post i meant to say we were about 10-12 not are haha

Has anyone ever discussed this with their therapist or doctor? Im too scated to mention it in case they say I was abused or was an abuser :/ i know this isnt true but worried doctor or thetapists might get the wrong idea? Opinions?

Oh my God I am literally almost in tears reading this, I am so glad other people have these thoughts too. Whilst my stepsister and I didn't show each other anything or do anything actually inappropriate we played similar games where we would talk about things and pretend to kiss and stuff, I worry that I forced her into playing games, when she was the one who started it and played it with her stepsister, but one day she didn't want to play and I said come on let's play this game and she did, but I worry that I forced her and it was like abuse. But now I know that other people did this too it makes me feel so much better. This has been going on for me on and off for about 10 years (we are about 11-12)

That happened to me!!! Haha there was a day or two where I kept gagging during the height of my OCD and my mum looked it up and said it was due to anxiety. But that it a great name! Haha

Don't know if it's necessarily upbeat or whatever but Lily Allen's F--- You seems to speak to me about my OCD. Look inside Look inside your tiny mind Now look a bit harder 'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor So you say It's not okay to be gay Well I think you're just evil You're just some racist who can't tie my laces Your point of view is medieval F--- you F--- you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch F-- you F--- you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Do you get Do you get a little kick out of being slow-minded? You want to be like your father It's approval you're after Well that's not how you find it Do you Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful? 'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be You're losing control of it and it's really distasteful (Chorus again) You say, you think we need to go to war Well you're already in one, 'Cause its people like you That need to get slew No one wants your opinion

Yeah definitely try a different doctor. I had one therapist for anxiety (was unaware that I had OCD at the time) and she was fantastic. Guy I saw at uni didn't seem the least bit interested in my OCD at all and was trying to blame everything on attachment disorders and stuff despite the fact he never even talked about my thoughts once in the session. But I'm going to try again and hopefully do well this time! Persevere ! Things will be okay

Thank you for your posts yeah I've come to realise it's just another thing for my mind to latch on to because I've gone through cycles of pretty much most the common obsessions (bar contamination or religious). It was just odd to me because I didn't understand why it affected me so much, like my iPad was making me anxious. How is that possible?! And yeah it is just keeping track and being in control of things I think haha.

I wouldn't haha. Still feeling a bit anxious today :/ but I'm doing okay. Still would like to see if anyone else experiences something similar? Haha x