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  1. I spent some time on a psychiatric hospital ward in 2014/15 (more because of suicidal thoughts/tendencies linked to my obsessions rather than the OCD itself... it certainly wasn't a specialist centre). I had been told that the best thing was to be completely honest with the staff about what was on my mind. I opened up about some thoughts/worries about the past that were bothering me. It was clear that a lot of them misunderstood my condition, wanted to know what I "had done" and started talking to me about things that scared the bejeezers out of me (safeguarding etc.). A good therapist helped enormously after this though. Such a misunderstood disorder. Happy to say more if it helps. Binx
  2. You might be pushing for a little reassurance here. I won't comment on the weekend stuff.... However, I do believe that these sorts of things can trigger OCD episodes... in fact anything involving uncertainty can. My breakdown 5 years ago came from worrying that I'd done something horrible and couldn't prove otherwise.... it then developed into obsession after obsession about worrying about everything about my past, did I do this, did I do that, am I a horrible person? etc. etc.. I guess it doesn't matter where this has come from or why... it's here at the moment.... it's about how we respond to it now. Does that make sense?
  3. Perfect. Be mindful- take in everything around you, the sights, trees, the smells, the things in shop windows etc. . When you feel your mind drifting back to the worry, gently ease it back to the present: where you are, what's happening around you etc. Have fun with the little one. Binx
  4. Hi, I guess that you could regard: ...as self reassurance. The best (and hardest) response is to not respond, I guess. Be indifferent to what your head is telling you. I find sometimes that distraction might help- what are you doing this afternoon (assuming it's afternoon where you are!)? Binx
  5. Hi, All the feelings you're having are completely normal when you start Uni. It's been nearly 20 years since I started (I am now a lecturer at the same Uni) but I remember it clearly... I was only 50 minutes away from home but I also had the thoughts you describe above. The difference, I guess, is that at the time my OCD (un-diagnosed back then) was not very active and so I didn't obsess about it all. What you're feeling is normal; you'll make friends- it's just takes time, it will come naturally if you let it. I'm still good friends with a lot of the folks I met 20 years ago. As Gemma asked- are you getting any support for your OCD? Binx
  6. Same old stuff for njb. You know I can't reassure you by discussing the dreams- I think you've been here with this before? Remember, it's not the thoughts (or the dreams)- it's how we respond to them. How did you manage to push through this stuff the last time you had a similar worry?
  7. It's taken everything? Well, then it's time to take it back. Meds aren't necessarily a magic fix- people respond differently to them. They tend to be described as water wings (armbands?) on here by a few- they're not necessarily the fix, but they help take the edge off whilst you are working on the fix. Get a referral for therapy through the GP (I think you can sign up for this yourself nowadays)- if that's not going to come any time soon, then maybe some self help books might help (possibly in combination with some folks chipping in about their experience on the forum). If you can't afford to buy them, maybe a local library could help? 5 years ago I was in hospital, at rock bottom thinking their was no way back. I felt like I had no hope, the thoughts made me feel disgusted with myself. With some good therapy, and the right meds (for me), I slowly got myself out. I'm by no mean cured but I am able to do my job and have a relationship and know better how to repsond to the thoughts/concerns/worries etc. Never give up!
  8. Agreed- but buckling your seatbelt etc. is not being used in an effort to remove the anxiety which accompanies an obsession or intrusive thought. This has been discussed on here before I believe. I think care needs to be taken with this part of the 4 steps method- just my opinion though. Anyway, this is not the place for a thread hijacking 🙂
  9. I agree: any sort of "mantra" etc. could easily become a compulsion and therefore eventually ineffective... I see it as no different to flicking an elastic band on your wrist.
  10. Great to hear you're getting some respite and therapeutic action from your meds (combined with everything else you area doing). Keep up the good work GBG.
  11. I used to use my phone for reassurance on a night out before I understood that this was getting me deeper into the hole. As said above, this is a compulsion, and will no doubt get out of control. Not a good idea.
  12. I had some insomnia issues when I went from 20mg -40mg. Would be tired, go to bed, then wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to get back to sleep. I think it eased off eventually (this was probably 6-7 years ago though, so m memory is a bit hazy). Hope it eases off GBG- it's good to hear that you are getting some therapeutic benefit from these though.
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