no desire to live

[bruces]

i sdm to have no way of ultimately deciding i way up the pros and cons but cant find a route of this bloody ocd merry go round

[bruces]

really feel like ive let my dad down by being like this and so lazy too

[bruces]

feel like such a let down to my family and friends

[Guest Annabel]

Aw Bruces! depression nearly always makes people feel guilty and as though they've let their friends and family down, you really haven't.

What did you do today? x

[bruces]

havnt done anything today no interest in anything,i just long not to be here death would be a real blessing it really would

[bruces]

lost all will to live,hate it with a passion,hear about people dieing on the radio and im envious

[Guest Hockey30]

What kind of support network do you have around you Bruces?

[bruces]

what family you mean?

[Guest Hockey30]

Yeah and do your friends know how you are feeling at the moment?

[navalshukla]

i am agree with u Bruce.... how can we get suicide in easy way? i too want it.

[bruces]

i wish there was a legal form of euthanasia in this country

[Guest Hockey30]

I think if you feel this way you really need to speak to a healthcare professional as soon as possible.

[navalshukla]

but it is not possible then? i tried it..

do u know easy way?plz tell me.. i know what a painful is OCD..

plz tell is there any way to go with ur side?

[bruces]

healthcare professional cant help me now,ive had it with life its garbage

[navalshukla]

what way u think to go from the world?

[bruces]

i dont care i just want out i hate life,i prey every night i wont wake up i cant take the pain no more

[Guest Annabel]

:hug: Bruces, I'm not really sure what to say. Sucidal ideation aside, is there something you feel you need and that would make life better just now?

xx

[Ashley]

I have just come upon this thread and I think now is the time to intervene. First of all navalshukla we should not be discussing ways in which we wish to leave this life, it is neither helpful, or healthy, so lets just leave that in the hands of mistress fate shall we, and hope it is many, many years from now. This forum and indeed charity is all about promotion towards recovery and a healthy life, even if that does take time to achieve.

Bruces, I do understand you are struggling right now, and having a place to vent and share your feelings can sometimes be cathartic, but I really don't think posting your desire to die on a daily basis will help you, in fact I suspect it will do the opposite, it will continue to allow such thoughts and feelings be at the forefront of your mind. I have not gone through the thread, but Bruces, are you under any mental health team, or speaking to your GP? I really urgently think you need to be discussing your feelings with a trained health professional?

[bruces]

ok sorry

[Ashley]

No need to be sorry Bruces, what is really important is that you are getting access to someone trained who can help you through these low feelings. When do you next see your GP or mental health professional?

[bruces]

no appointments

[Ashley]

Ok Bruces, first thing tomorrow you must contact your GP, get an emergency appointment and tell them how you feel. Is that something you feel comfortable enough to do?

[bruces]

ive kinda given up on treatments i was diagnosed at 18 and if anything was going to work it wouldnt still be the same nearly 20 years later,i have felt better than this at times but i dont live i just exist,ive never taken any enjoyment out of life since i was a child.

[felix4]

Hi Bruces,

Sorry if this has been asked before, but what is your situation with medication? Are you on anything now, & have you been on anything over the past 20 years for OCD, anxiety, & depression?

Edited November 15, 2012 by felix4

[bruces]

im on sertraline now prozac for a long time prior to that,seen alsorts of mental health specialists nhs and private,dont believe there is anything that can be done now