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Starbuck

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About Starbuck

  • Birthday 28/06/1984

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  • OCD Status
    Sufferer

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Derbyshire
  • Interests
    Stone Carving
    Fitness
    Trying to knit
    Cats
    Real Ale

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  1. Starbuck

    'Pure' OCD drama on Channel 4

    Yes, I worried about this too but as you say, since Rose is involved I'm sure it will be fine. Hopefully channel 4 can redeem themselves on this one.
  2. Thanks Taurean. I feel much better now. Sometimes you just need the right words on bad days.
  3. I needed this thread today. I have literally just been out and surrounded by people that I have perceived have a unfavourable opinion of me and was trying not to ruminate on it. I logged on to forum for first time in a while and found this. Thank you.
  4. This may have been brought up before but my boyfriend has recently come across several articles based on research linking gut bacteria to mental health and sometimes specifically to rumination. This research also suggests that probiotics may assist in easing rumination, obsessive thinking and depression symptoms. There are plenty of articles out there regarding this, just a couple of examples: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/04/17/probiotics-depression_n_7064030.html https://www.sciencenews.org/article/microbes-can-play-games-mind After researching this, I thought it couldn't hurt to start taking probiotics alongside other things that I use to supplement therapy etc (such as exercise and meditation). Whether it helps or not, thought it was worth mentioning it as it will be interesting to see how the research evolves in the future.
  5. Thanks PolarBear, I suppose the OCD has given me a sense of self importance where I think everything is about me. You're right, there could be thousands of reasons.
  6. Thanks, I know this is the best course of action. It's just I'm new to a close knit small village community which is causing me to worry more. It wouldn't have bothered me as much when I lived in the city.
  7. I really hope he recovers. You got him to the vet where he needed to be.
  8. This is one I struggle with a lot. I have just seen someone who lives in my neighbourhood, I waved at them and they didn't wave back. Ever since I've been ruminating, wondering if I've accidentally offended them in the past or even if I've done something and can't remember (e.g when drunk). Of course, all the false memories then flash through my brain and I wonder if any could be true or if .........and then my mind just runs wild.
  9. Starbuck

    New obsession

    Thank you again. I will try my best. I know if I give in, it will only be worse next time and will keep spiralling. Just going to set myself a goal of trying not to text him again until he gets back which will be really difficult but worth it in the long run.
  10. Starbuck

    New obsession

    Thank you so much for your reply. I agree about the compulsions. When I've spoken to my OH about checking fb etc, I'm really embarrassed but in the moment it seems like the only way for me to get more information but of course that is silly and all in my head and it doesn't stop the doubts. Even after the phone call, I had to stop myself texting again. I'm trying to distract myself with a film. I'm only half engaged in it as my mind is elsewhere. Writing this has helped me distract a little as it's given me something to do.
  11. Sitting here in tears as I'm frustrated and terrified by my new obsession. I have moved away from a city into the countryside. Occasionally at night time, my OH drives back to the city. This involves driving down country roads at night. The problem is that I've started becoming a nervous wreck every time he goes (this is totally new). If he doesn't text me to say he has arrived safely, I start feeling really sick to my stomach with worry and then I start performing compulsions like checking the police Facebook groups to see if there have been any accidents. I know this isn't healthy especially since I'm now considering going to things with him (when we would normally have a night apart, me watching my films, him with his friends) just so I know he is safe. It has just resulted in me texting him twice to see if he arrived then ringing him (which he answered) and then bawling my eyes out when I got off of the phone. I know I need to not perform the compulsions but in the moment I'm so terrified and irrational. I don't know where this is coming from.
  12. I highly recommend Lily's book. An openly honest account of someone growing up with OCD.
  13. I personally showed most improvement when combining ACT therapy with CBT. However, as with everything, just because ACT worked for me, doesn't mean it will for everyone.
  14. Starbuck

    problems alongside OCD

    Thank you for this thread. It has helped me today. I got a missed call from a Mobile phone number I don't know. This usually triggers anxiety in me and I can ruminate / research on it for hours. Luckily I read this thread and I'm now trying to leave it be.
  15. Starbuck

    Rose Bretecher interview on Woman's hour

    I'm also waiting for the book. I also commend her bravery as there is very little regarding sexual obsessions in the media. Thought the interview was great. I really hope it will help others who are struggling.
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