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  1. Hi Snowbear That's an interesting point you raise there Snowbear. I notice when I was searching for proofreaders a lot of them do focus on many aspects when it comes to the proofreading. At the time of posting my message I managed to get someone to give it a go. I'm still learning more about how the proofreading system goes, funny thing was I was looking around for proofreaders online and I noticed you can make good money from it and they do as you were saying a lot of content and opinion based proofreading. I managed to get someone to give it a proofread and I will bear in mind what you were saying, the grammar and spelling might be the one I'm probably going to focus on more at the moment. Out of interesting how have you found the proofreading yourself? Is it a difficult one to do or is it the more you do it the more used to it you become. Thanks for the help and wishing me success Snowbear.
  2. I hope this is okay post this. I've been writing a book and wanted someone to maybe give it a quick proofread to see if everything is okay. Maybe Check for typos or anything that shouldn't be there. That will be a big help to myself and the book I might be self publishing to raise awareness about Harm Ocd. The book is about four fictional Characters who suffer from harm ocd where you get urges act on the thoughts you are getting. I could maybe post the attachment as a private message if that's okay. If you post me a private message with your e-mail address and I could send you the manuscript if that's okay.
  3. I used to get the urge to burp but I wasn't able to unless I took some fizzy juice with the tablets. When I was unable to burp it felt so horrible.
  4. Hi John, Hi everyone It's scary to the sufferer harm ocd, I felt ashamed of something that happened in the past, I was 13 years old finishing off some homework then out of nowhere I got these thoughts telling me to stick the pencil into the wire and I went through with this, it ended up I started doing this around the house then I felt so guilty that I used tip-ex to cover up what I had done. We certainly do deserve to enjoy life and don't let the ocd ruin that for us. That's a really good post Roopoo47 about the survival mode. The thing is as well is that doctors will ask that question about ever acting on a thought, it can be scary but the doctor or therapists probably have to ask those questions.
  5. This is a good positive thread. ? I had a little bit of a thing today as I was in the shops buying some donuts, I know I shouldn't but I was lifting the donuts I felt something walking on my thumb, it was one of those small flies. I don't like flies. Usually anytime I see a fly I automatically think it's going to go up my nose. My main ocd is the harm one. An achievement that happened yesterday, I was meeting up for a running group, we did roughly a mile running but by near the end of it I felt out of breath and wasn't really wanting to be competitive, I was merely testing myself to see if I could mostly run the mile. I felt proud doing that as I'm not the most healthiest person around. I used to love the running a long time ago back in my school days, I did the cross countries and shorter sprint type runs which I did not too bad in.
  6. Only natural to feel anxious in general about the situation but don't let the ocd have it's way here, relaxation is probably the advice I would give, take things easy which will probably give the ocd less power.
  7. Thanks for taking a look over it. I tend to think the worst sometimes or I've made lots of mistakes. Maybe that could be an ocd related thing as we tend to worry or judge ourselves in very harsh terms. Hoping it's not too late and getting closer to the end of the month. Graeme
  8. No worries, didn't want to pester anyone too much with it. I might not be the best with my grammar, I was using a program, I think it might of been the Grammarly one. Graeme
  9. Hi Flic, Hi everyone I usually get the harm ocd thoughts in relation to the covid like I could give someone the covid by coughing on someone. Ocd can really have an impact on us and it stops doing the things we love. The harm ocd makes me think I'm going to do something bad even though I'm 100% against the idea of doing something bad, That's a lot of us in the Glasgow area of Scotland in lockdown an announcement made today by the Scottish government. The lockdown can have an impact on our ocd, as we might be spending more times indoors and maybe that might mean more times our mind. Is your area in lockdown Flic, I'm wondering as I think getting out and about is very important to our mental health. The fresh air does wonders.
  10. Hi Ashley Here's one that is talking more about the tips and techniques that have helped myself on my recovery. It has around 400 words. I have another one which is around the 900 word mark but that one is talking about the type of thoughts I've been getting As a sufferer of harm ocd here are some tips and techniques I found helpful. Some of these tips and techniques I still use to this very day has helped me in a big way. I remember using a technique where I would place a paper on my bedroom door that reads, you are not your thoughts, and every time I wake up in the morning I see the message on the cupboard door. I remember the message I put on the paper read you are not your thoughts. This was a message that was reminding me that you are not what the OCD is making you think. Even something as simple as writing your thoughts down in a dairy fashion. If you are suffering from those horrible unwanted thoughts and they are troubling you write those thoughts down. This might be a hard one to do at first as you might worry that if you write the thoughts down it will mean that you will act on them which is not true. Tell people that you trust about your OCD, I wouldn't mention this to everyone as a lot of people might not understand or might give out a certain response that might not be helpful. I feel this next one is very important which is to keep yourself busy with something you enjoy doing, whether that is listening to music to playing video games or reading a book. That way you are keeping your mind busy and your mind has less time to worry about the OCD. In life, you will have to face those fears like for instance if you are walking by someone who is waiting for a train and you have the thought that you will push him or her onto the track, you know deep down you will never push the person onto the train track. Get out and about, go for a walk or go shopping and enjoy yourself don't let those thoughts get in the way of your normal day to day activity. Going back to writing the thoughts down, this doesn't have to be OCD related thoughts, this can be thoughts may be thoughts that are not related to OCD but is in other ways such as thoughts relating to depression. Usually, after family stress you might be feeling overwhelmed, and writing those thoughts down can give us a bit of a lift mentally. I found when I was keeping the thoughts to myself I would get thoughts of depression. Here's my other one that is around the 900 word mark. Living with OCD can be very tough going on its own never mind living with a type of OCD where you get intrusive thoughts. Not that I'm trying to say that one type of OCD is worse than the other, it is very much on the same lines as the intrusive thought OCD. The intrusive thoughts OCD I have are harm related where I get thoughts and urges to do bad things. The bad things usually range from things such as pushing someone in front of a train to stabbing or hitting someone on the head with a heavy object. The thoughts and urges feel real and get the OCD sufferer panicking that they will act out which is something that is so against the sufferer. A way for the non-OCD sufferer to think of it is to imagine yourself being in a room with a live animal and a button. If you press the button the animal will get an electric shock and die. I feel this example is a good one as you might get the feeling that you are going to press the button due to your mind playing tricks on you. A typical day for myself is I usually go to the shops with my mum, my mind starts to make me panic by thinking you are going to do something bad like pull down your trousers or stick the finger up at someone walking by. Usually, I have lots of different thoughts that come to my mind. On a bad day, I tend to spend a bit more time with the internal battle with the harm OCD. Part of me knows I will never act out on any of the things I'm worrying over, the OCD part of me says that you are going to act on this and get yourself arrested. It does get exhausting after time, imagine feeling the urge just to act out on those thoughts you are getting, this is usually the theme for this type of OCD. The reassurance side to this OCD has a lot to it. My very own method which I used to do a lot was to get rid of those heavy objects lying around in the house or to throw those big kitchen knives away. More than once I put a couple of hammers behind the cupboard as I felt like I could act out and use the hammers to hit family members with. I now know that this is OCD playing tricks on you and should avoid reassurance seeking. I would personally say that a little reassurance could be good but if you are finding yourself doing this a lot, try to cut down. I'm at the stage now where I'm on medication and don't bother that much when I see a hammer or a knife lying around, don't get me wrong I still struggle whenever I see a knife or something sharp like a pair of scissors lying around I still get those horrible thoughts. Getting help from a therapist was the best thing I could ever have done. I was worried when it came to speaking about the thoughts at first as I felt like I was a bad person. My doctor reassured me saying that you are on the road to recovery. I got some CBT which stands for cognitive behavioural therapy and all it is is changing the way you think about the mental health condition. A lot of sufferers tend to keep very quiet as they feel they would be shunned or get unfair treatment from other people. I used to think like this a long time ago, now I want to tell the world about this type of OCD. Don't get me wrong, not everyone will understand and might think this person is dangerous and could act out on the thoughts he or she is getting. In my own opinion, I still think this is poorly understood and needs more talking about in the future.
  11. Thanks Ashley I'll probably give it a shot. Should there be a certain amount of words or something I should stick to?
  12. Hi everyone I thought I will give this question a try if they are still doing the ocd magazine. (compulsive reading) if I have the name right. I was wondering if they are looking for anyone to maybe write a small article piece for the ocd magazine. I could maybe do like a once a year contribution to the magazine by writing a small piece about my harm ocd or maybe talk about tips or things that have helped myself and can probably help others who are suffering as well. I know it probably sounds like a long shot question. Kind regards Graeme Currie
  13. I think BelAnna is right they are strict about the housing benefit aspect. I'm getting PIP and my mum is my carer.
  14. Oh this is quite a good question and subject, We meet again Orwell. To me I think I would feel guilty if I was to use the tough love approach. I tend to feel that compassion is a really good way to go. The other day my dad and I had a discussion about using the word lazy, I don't like that word as I see it depicts a very negative thing. On the other side of things yes I feel that it is a good thing to challenge peoples thinking. I think I needed that at times. I'll keep an eye on this topic for sure.
  15. Hi Wonderer I think I knew what was going to happen or some sort of feeling, it was thoughts like if my mind was telling me to do something, I felt as if I had to do it. (Now my reason for acting on the thoughts are complicated but I'll have a go hoping not to confuse anyone. The main reason being was that I pictured myself living this life again but having not been strong enough to control the exact same urges so when faced with those thoughts it felt as if I had to act on the thoughts. It hopes it makes a little bit of sense as my mind did seem like an enigma back then. Sorry to hear that your son was very distressed, that must of been frightening seeing him do that Wonderer. I think with those thoughts and actions we probably have to keep stress to a minimum, the same with myself, I think I'm handling stressful situations a bit better now than I used to. I did feel a bit suicidal around the time of getting a diagnosis and I was crying a few times not because of the diagnosis itself but because I was more able to talk about the ocd and I was letting the emotions get to me. I did put a knife to my throat, it was more to do with the, (You would of acted on it if we relived the same moment). I did do the movement where I imagined myself cutting my throat, I did hurt myself a little bit by pushing the knife into the throat area. Thanks sharing Wonderer and others.
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