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Emsie

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  1. Hi Avo, To be honest I may have done what you did if I’d had the thought that I could wrongly get the blame. But, if this was the case it would have been OCD driven and a compulsion to alleviate my fears and then I’d probably check lots that the image could no longer be identified. If OCD didn’t come in to play I would have left it. Or if OCD did come in to play I may have had the strength to leave it. Hope this helps and don’t think any more about it, it’s done now and in the grand scheme of things it really is nothing.
  2. Emsie

    Need a slap upside the head!

    Can I have one too , slipped today with googling but reigned it in. California - everyone is spot on here, delete the program, it’s a huge compulsion and it will keep you stuck.
  3. You’re so welcome. Yes, it is amazing! Need to watch it again myself as a reminder. Hope you’re doing ok.
  4. Hi BigDave, I've just remembered that PolarBear put his video in the OCD in the media discussion forum on here. Here's the link:
  5. Bless you, my pleasure 😊 X
  6. Hi angels, PolarBear actually put it in the OCD in the media discussion forum on here. Here's the link:
  7. You are welcome angels. That’s a spot on attitude, take the leap of faith that’s its all OCD. We are stronger and more capable than we think! Keep going, you can nip it in the bud! X
  8. Hi, you’re welcome. Your therapists points to work with are good, I particularly like point 5. Yes, it’s the ruminating that gets us hard. It’s a harder compulsion to tackle but it is doable. PolarBear has a very good video on YouTube about stopping ruminating. Just put in ‘how to stop ruminating’ and it will come up. Good idea to continue with the mindfulness. I’m glad you are feeling better. It can be done and it’s good to see it as a positive challenge. Praise yourself for all achievements, however small.
  9. You're welcome. I don't want to give you reassurance because as you know reassurance seeking is a complusion and it doesn't help. But, I have seen people on here survey different reactions to situations as part of their therapy, so I'll answer it from a hopefully therapeutic stand point. I would do nothing, I would have no reaction to either situation and it wouldn't be on my radar. As you know, I have OCD but this is not my theme. Btw, I walk barefoot in the garden all the time too. I'm glad you are in therapy at the moment, you can do this.
  10. Hi angels, absolutely yes, that's the nature of OCD, it makes mountains out of mole hills. It blows things completely out of proportion. Roy often says on here, if it feels like OCD, it probably is, and he is so right. The doubt stressing you out is a hallmark too, we cannot have the certainty we crave and the more we seek reassurances, the more doubt there will be. It's only when we truly leave things be that the fears/thoughts/anxiety fade. You are ruminating loads I'm sure, it's a sneaky compulsion because it all in the head. Your thinking as you say gets stuck in a loop, this is inevitable as you will never find your answer. My best advice is to notice the thoughts and tell yourself something like 'I'm not thinking about this right now" and then carry on with what you were doing. You will need to repeat this lots of times, but if you are strict it will get easier and they will fade. Don't feed it, starve it. Be kind to yourself and have the confidence that you can leave it be.
  11. Hi BigDave, Dont be angry with yourself, it's done now, but instead see it as a good thing that you feel you gave in too easily because that shows you that you know you didn't need to do these things (compulsions). With regards to the ruminating, the more you try to block the thoughts the more they will come. Just try and notice them and gently ease away. If you want you could say something to yourself like 'I'm not thinking about that right now' to help you ease away and then continue with what you were doing. You then repeat that each time the thoughts come. Remember that OCD likes a vacuum, so keep busy with enjoyable or beneficial things. Above all, be kind to yourself, it's done, treat it as a learning experience.
  12. I think that's probably the same for a lot of us that haven't recovered. I've just read your posts here and I can clearly see OCD. Everybody's minds wander and fantasise. That's not your problem, it's the meaning that you attach to it. Your OCD blows it all out of proportion and your regret and distress is the result. Your mind wandering has no bearing on your relationship, find me a person that doesn't fantasise. I have and it means nothing about my feelings towards my husband, because it's not my theme. My advice would be to stop thinking about this as best as you can, keep a check on your ruminating, no confessing and no googling etc. Do something nice and let yourself off the hook, because there is no hook. Be kind to youself.
  13. I’m so glad to hear that you are feeling much better now. This really resonated with me, and it is the crux of the matter. Just because we think it, it doesn’t make it true. This insight will really help you and it’s helped me, so thank you.
  14. Thank you. Me too, we must make that the motivation to not miss out on time with them. X
  15. That's wonderful, Lost, I'm so pleased for you. Thank you so much for your lovely words. X
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