gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Re ruminating I know I need to stop that and I know it is harmful. But I also think amongst this there is an issue I need to resolve, a genuine non-ocd issue, but I struggle to know where ruminating begins and ends. Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 I know you're not asking, but i think ruminating is particularly bad when you are trying to establish something as fact that you can’t possibly establish as fact. But the line between thinking and overthinking is a hard one. As long as the goal is healthy, thinking can be ok. Worth discussing though Having a good weekend thanks, just painting, it's good therapy Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Glad you're having a nice weekend and painting does sound therapeutic! Do you mean in an art sense or diy? Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 I'm painting a portrait of an F1 driver lol Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 I just Googled anxious attachment and found an article which said it's associated with covert narcissism this has triggered me a bit because this is something I worry about my younger self, that I used to behave in narcissistic ways to the people around me. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Just now, Gemma7 said: I'm painting a portrait of an F1 driver lol That must take some serious skill! Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 6 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I just Googled anxious attachment and found an article which said it's associated with covert narcissism this has triggered me a bit because this is something I worry about my younger self, that I used to behave in narcissistic ways to the people around me. Ok so you have decided narcissism of any kind is bad, major black and white thinking, and now you are worried. Why? If you behaved in a narcissistic way at any point, so? Do you see how important you are treating thoughts/words. Reading something changes nothing. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Well I worry I may have hurt someone irrevocably with my words, I worry my behaviour was completely unacceptable (which it certainly was at times). Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 Just now, gingerbreadgirl said: Well I worry I may have hurt someone irrevocably with my words, I worry my behaviour was completely unacceptable (which it certainly was at times). Why do you worry? If that was the case, what's so bad about that? Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 I hate the thought of someone having been hurt by something I've said. And I know I said hurtful things at times cos my friends were rightly annoyed by it. (This is when I was a student). I also worry that if I'm an inherently bad person I may not realise and I may have done something awful or even illegal and not remember now. I worry it may come back on me at some point. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 (edited) I said and did some properly cr*ppy things and that isn't ocd talking it's just the truth. I know this is ruminating, sorry Edited April 28, 2019 by gingerbreadgirl Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 1 minute ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I hate the thought of someone having been hurt by something I've said. And I know I said hurtful things at times cos my friends were rightly annoyed by it. (This is when I was a student). And you are sorry, the end. Continuing thinking about it solves nothing. 1 minute ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I also worry that if I'm an inherently bad person I may not realise and I may have done something awful or even illegal and not remember now. I worry it may come back on me at some point That's OCD uncertainty, you can't stay prepared for something that might never happen, all it does is waste your life and helps no one. Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 1 minute ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I said and did some properly cr*ppy things and that isn't ocd talking it's just the truth. Join the queue of people who have done the same. You are the norm, your reaction is not Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 1 minute ago, Gemma7 said: And you are sorry, the end. But what if they don't realise I'm sorry? Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Just now, Gemma7 said: Join the queue of people who have done the same. You are the norm, your reaction is not No honestly none of my friends behaved like I did. I could give you a long list except I'm too embarrassed!! Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Sorry I know this has descended into compulsions. I should stop this. Thanks again for so much of your time. I hope your painting goes well! You'll have to post it to the forum Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 Just now, gingerbreadgirl said: But what if they don't realise I'm sorry? GBG there is nothing to do, OCD always wants something to do. You could phone up everyone you have ever upset and tell them how sorry you are, is that what you would tell me to do? Treat yourself how you tell other people to treat themselves. Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 2 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said: No honestly none of my friends behaved like I did. I could give you a long list except I'm too embarrassed!! Your friends are not a good sample of the population so irrelevant. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 1 hour ago, Gemma7 said: Your friends are not a good sample of the population so irrelevant. I think this is maybe part of the issue nobody I know has really ever made any mistakes not serious ones. They're all just prefectly nice moderate people. It makes me think I'm the only person on earth who has done anything regrettable. I've never really had an example of how to handle regrets. Link to comment
taurean Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 3 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I think this is maybe part of the issue nobody I know has really ever made any mistakes not serious ones. They're all just prefectly nice moderate people. But look closely - isn't that an overgeneralisation? (Another of those peskey negative thinking distortions). You can't know that for a fact, and they would likely keep it to themselves anyway. 6 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said: It makes me think I'm the only person on earth who has done anything regrettable. This is very strictly judgemental, and based on an overgeneralisation, therefore questionable. Psychoanalysis is so interesting, and it shows how biased thinking can produce negative self-worth. Snowbear's love-kindness meditation and thinking, which she recommended to me, helped me overcome bad feelings about myself. Link to comment
Angst Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 1 hour ago, gingerbreadgirl said: Sorry I know this has descended into compulsions. I should stop this. Thanks again for so much of your time. I hope your painting goes well! You'll have to post it to the forum Yes I think you are right GBG. You have spent a whole day on this. Go out this evening. Be active. Focus you mind on something else. Best wishes. Link to comment
taurean Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 Isn't Sunday night a good tele night for costume drama ? That might be a great distraction. Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 Yes you're right thank you both. Line of duty is on tonight which is one of my favourites so I'll look forward to that Link to comment
Gemma7 Posted April 28, 2019 Share Posted April 28, 2019 13 minutes ago, gingerbreadgirl said: I've never really had an example of how to handle regrets. This is the key issue. You don't need to know someone who has regrets, you need to know people who show forgiveness and compassion for mistakes to others and themselves. You are right in that you need to be shown how to do that, you have to learn and clearly you aren't shown that by those around you or you don't notice when it happens. Think of the people you are close to, are they forgiving of others, are they self-forgiving. These are important things to be good at, to be mentally healthy. I concur with my fellow posters, take some time off, enjoy line of duty x Link to comment
gingerbreadgirl Posted April 28, 2019 Author Share Posted April 28, 2019 (edited) I think my partner handles mistakes in a healthy way, she sometimes feels regrets but she doesn't beat herself up or generalise from them she just gets on with things. I try to emulate this but as you see I struggle! I guess when I said I haven't had an example I really meant as a kid. Thanks I will have you finished your painting? X Edited April 28, 2019 by gingerbreadgirl Link to comment
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